... Y A N ...

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`23.
`EGG.
`Virgo.
`Attitude.
`Pms Queen.
`Sensitive.
`38-ness.
`Irritating.

... LOVEs ...

` twentysix.
` POOH.
` YEOWs.
` JIE MEIs.
` RWDs.
` MONEY.

... desires ...

`Hong Kong Trip 2007.
`Sarah Jessica Parker "Lovely" Fragrance.
`2nd pair of Havianas flip flops.
`tons of flats/sandals/pumps.
`Bags Bags Bags!
`LV coin pouch AGAIN.
`E71 mobile phone.
`Coach Wristlet.
`Birthday BKK Trip 09!
`Phuket Trip
`Hong Kong Trip 2010
`GRADUATION!!!
`Adidas Candy Watch.
`Bangkok Trip 08/09

... inspirations ...

`SIEW XIN CHEE.
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LOOPO.
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SENGET SIEW XINYI.
`
QASHaron.
`ONG AH BAO.
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TEACHER PEGGIE.
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SUET JING.
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JANICE.
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AMY.
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Chanz
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Denise
`Candice
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Yiling
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Drea
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Karin
` Tannia
` Zi Ting
` Hui Yun
` Jeslyn
` Joyce
` Pearlyn
` Nurina
` Adelene
` Terence
` Vincent
` Annie
` Rashidah
` Rose

... her doings ...

> self-doubt....
> Let it go, girl!
> 柠檬草的味道
> time flies....
> 开始懂了
> STUCKED!
> Unspoken Missessss....
> life is so random.
> I Should Be So Lucky on 14 Dec 2008.
> HERE WE GO!

... memory lane ...

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...SHOUT ALL YOU WANT ...


... BIG Thanks To ...

` YOU.
` PEOPLE whom woke me up.
` SUAY-NESS that hit me hard.

hopefully hopeless.
Saturday, May 31, 2008

the night wide awake.



drove past the memory lane. so what? the feeling began to fade away, remarkable. however, no matter how long it has been, nothing was forgotten, not a single bit. let go i will, but not the memories i had. enough said, let's mark this a beautiful ending.



the best memoried of the last, forgotten not.

i hate the feeling of thinking someone i shouldn't.

i swallowed pride, i was cast aside.

if i'm the sinner, you're the sin.

this, is the biggest sinner.

so, i'm officially out of the league.

i'm damaged.

ARGHhh ranted @ 4:15 AM :|

what goes around, does it comes around?
Monday, May 19, 2008

omg. my weekend's been MIA-ing from rwds, which is rare to speak of. updates first, then photos on its way.


16 May 2008, Fri.

had fever in the morning, but nevertheless i still made it to class, not wanting to miss the first lesson of IM module. took pills and dragged my feet to school. felt better after the pills worked as fever subsided. =) however, i presume it would be better to stay home for some rest, therefore i gave the movie trip a missed with senget,tong,ek,fel,steph and ej. took a good nap of 3 hours and felt so much better.


ryna called last min for mj session with alvin and gang. picked me up at 11, went 844 to tabao their dinner and off to alvin's place. met stephen and friend, supper first and mj session began till the next morning 6am. MADNESS i know. damn shagg when i got home at 0630rhs when stephen drove me back. KO-ed at 0700hrs till 1300 hrs.


17 May 2008, Sat.


was too tired to hang out in the hot weather,hence was home the entire day time, till after the homecooked dinner that mummy insist me to have before i head out for the night. initial plans for porridge supper with ryna and gang, leaving me having to miss the hang out for dinner and cartel dessert time with senget,tong,fai,ej,steph. i know they have been niam-ing about being MIA-ing or PS-ing. hahas. it's good to know i do play quite an important role when it comes to hang outs =) I'M SO TOUCHED......

took daddy's car and went over to ryna's place, waiting for the 2 to prepare and off to cheesecake cafe at siglap! my beloved cheesecake cafe!! rum and raisins cheesecake! woohooo! aftermath was off to Quality Hotel at Balestier Rd for the porridge buffet. met stephen and friend, anthony at 1030. waited for a lil while before our turn's been called for and before we know, the guys started to feast! mr alvin had 4 bowls of porridge and so much "liao" to go with.
well, the one i had years back was better and it cost 5 bucks nett only can. had only one serving of porridge as i was too full after having my fav rum and raisins cheesecake. It was almost midnight when we parted good byes as i sent the couple back home and set off to meet j for his supper at seng kang when he called me so last min. chilled with a couple of drinks till 3 ish and headed home.

18 May 2008, Sun.

got up pretty early after 5 hrs of sleep for my mj session with cx babes, charmaine,linda and helen tan. was running late already by the time dad sent me to the 27 bus stop and just as I've expected, bumped into charmaine as she took the bus from airport after her morning shift. the babes are deprived for a mj session i should say, fancy asking mefor 2 rounds no matter what. wahahas. after the catching up session, it was dinner with ms helen lee for them, while i headed my way to cousin byron's 21st birthday bash at aunt's place.

it was kinda of madness la. no money people!!! omg. almost as packed as mine, with so many people around, i bet his mind is in a big mess cause that's what i've experienced myself. wahaha. had another 2 rounds of mj at the party and i was almost shagg out at the end of the day. but it was fun fun fun! lols. back home late and its another 5 hours of sleep only, that's because we are going to the zooo zooo zooo!

19 May 2008. Mon.

Happy Vesak Day!

Yes, we went to the zoo! lols, i know why zoo right, don't ask me why cause i'm not the one who suggest the zoo trip. wahaha.met up luas and tong at 0830hrs, as usual, tong's late and waited for another 1.5 hrs before fai and senget met us for 969 and we had mac breakfast while waiting man! after the delay, we were at amk to meet steph in no time, took a cab to the zooo!

bought tickets and off we are for the day. we behave like some SUA KU tourists from tampines, taking the group shots by those official photographers first, making some crazy noises by the sight of the first few animals we saw and not forgetting cam-whoring the entire zoo. the number of pictures we took for the day was amount to 160? should have taken more!

the trip was damn tiring and thanks to the scorching sun plus humid weather. i was dozing off in the bus on the journey back to amk. fun zoo trip , felt as if i was still the kid. hahas. well, we had dinner at amk hub before bidding goodbyes with tong and steph and took bus 22 back for ocha. finally, i'm home!! wa piang eh, i'm damn tired la!! KO-ed the moment after a chat up with j.

20 May 2008, Tues.

skipped school, because i was tooo tired or rather toooo lazy to get up for morning class. HAHAs. i bet i will fall asleep in human resources class after hearing those negative feedback on how great my lecturer would be. hence, i was awake at almost 12 noon after alex called to disturb. lunched and went to cs to collect my hp. yes!!! my hp is back and it's way better then it was. wahahas, it better be good this time. =)

ms lua met me at inter to have her late lunch and a lil jalan before taking a bus to ocha to meet juls and senget. hanged out a lil before heading home for dinner and some rest. i was out again as usual, heading back to inter mac, meeting alex as he was busy muggin for his bridging test. thanks to him, found a powerpoint but it was not working! so, my laptop has only 2hrs of lifetime, which died on me exactly 2 hrs later plus, the internet connection died on me tooooo! wtf! anyway, i was walking back alone as alex's friend joined him for his 2nd half of mugging.

21 May 2008, Wed.

yes it's ladies night, but no kakis to club, so was out the entire day in town with ryna after she went for her lasik evaluation. went lunch,jalan and met jessica and her mr brooks for some chill out session at Food for Thought cafe near bugis. it was nice meeting her bf for the 1st time after 3 years i guessed and chill out like we always do. was home at 7 ish, then out for dinner with ms lua at 844 and ocha with senget joining. met rwds dudes as they were heading for soccer at 1o ish with hock,ks, fai and bg passing by. after the night out, it was home at 11 ish. yes, i'm feeling darn freaking tired!!!

22 May 2008, Thurs.

had lessons from like 10-5pm. so damn tired, dozed off in class as the lessons were too boring! it's Obar ladies night tonight, tempted to go, but i've no funds to club now. saving up for sat!! wahahas. my final party hard getaway before slogging hard for the next 2 months for my 3rd trimester. =(

and i know, i will keep thinking somehow, even though the days when i'm kept busy with school work. the days back in missing you when we dont speak at all, and out of nowhere you came flashing back saying hi. the world asked to stop, my heart knows it will never stop. there were sufficient reasons to say no, to put in to a stop, but maybe, i dont wanna go.

i'm messing up myself, yes, i wanna live my life, have fun and be young this once. but, maybe this party hard meant too much. now the fun's coming to an end, this is when loneliness sat right beside me. the last call, last conversation.

consequences shadows behind every fun moment.

maybe i couldn't afford the price that fun have asked for.

this weekend, last party session at OBAR. party hard like there's no tomorrow!

p/s: I'M TOO LAZY TO UPLOAD PICS!!!



ARGHhh ranted @ 2:03 AM :|

don't judge.
Thursday, May 15, 2008

post party effect. feeling damn shagg especially after those free flow drinks from last night. but, i had fun and it's been quite some time since i had the high-on-alcohol moment. =)

alright some updates for the past week......

08 May 2008,Thurs.

hit town with my darling ryna, it has been 3 months since we've met. so the entire day spent with ry. had lunch, update and bitched about recent gossips. went jalan around town, in search of a wedding outfit as ry needs one for her upcoming wedding to attend. after town was heading of to amk hub to slack around, waiting for alvin to finish work and picked us up.

headed for dinner at jalan kayu with ryna,alvin and stephen. aftermath was mj session at alvin's friend's place. had a round of mj, and lost 20 bucks. lady luck's not with me though. it was almost 11 when the game ended, thanks to all 3 of them, sending me home safely. hanged out with rwds for a lil while before hitting home at 12.

09 May 2008, Fri.

had a stupid field trip for TM module this trimester at battle box. wa lao eh, make me climb for canning hill in the hours of 2pm? the sun's burning and i'm sweating like mad! furthermore, battle box's kinda of boring and no wonder it's dying. in fact, i have to pay 5 bucks just to go in and hear some WW2 story. i guessed i've learnt all that in my primary and secondary education. duh~

after the 1 hr trip, it was off to plaza singapura for some late lunch and shopping with nikki, gladys, kamini, winnie and vincent. spent so much time at 2 shops, charles and keith and cotton on. i've managed to grabbed a pair of sunglasses for $12.95. cheap? yes very! LOLs. headed back to tamp at 7 ish and made plans for the night.

went out late night supper with fai,mond,qa, sharon and kukus. drove to simpang to have prata then to seletar dam to enjoy scenery. HAHAs. damn bo liao. we were all home safely at 4 ish, thanks to the big downpour.

10-11 May 2008, Sat & Sun.

had mothers' day celebrations. the one at aunt's place was blast. hanged out with cousins at parkway parade trying to get our mothers a lil surprise by getting a mothers' day cake to celebrate the greatness of this occasion.hahas. yes, indeed, our mothers were pretty surprised. that's exactly what we wanted. =)

had a great home cooked dinner and hanged out a lil while, before heading back home. had soccer watching at downtown east, at this new bistro, watching the final match of EPL. yes yes, MAN UTD won again. home at wee hours.

12 May 2008, Mon.

home almost the whole day, restoring my energy over the weekend. ade,fang an and xueting came over to have mj session. played for fun and won $1.50? Lols. dinner was out with parents. out for a lil supper with darren at bedok 85 and back home at 1 ish.

13 May 2008, Tues.

out to tm with bro for lunch and his haircut. bumped into senget on my way back and he was heading for NAFA to apply for his studies thingy, so went with him in my "TM oufit", of flip flops, tshirt and shorts. argh. so we've got ourselves at PS, him having his Carl's Jr lunch and took a walk to NAFA from PS which is kinda of far.

it took a lil while before everything was done. so headed back to tampines, taking bus 23. met ah ni for ocha and headed back home. had a quick shower, prepared and headed out to inter to meet zi ting for or coffee session. hanged out like old times, gossiped and 38-ed at inter mac. Hahas. it was non-stop-talking as usual and we took a long walk from inter back to central park and walked her half the journey home. aftermath was hanging out at central park till 12 ish and back home with ah ni.

14 May 2008, Wed.

home the entire day, but was out with senget and keong for their late lunch and hanged out a lil at senget's place before heading back to change and prepare for my dinner meet up with amy, and party plans aftermath. had a great dinner at cafe cartel and thanks to lady boss whom gave me a treat. hanged out and gossiped as usual till 9 ish when senget joined me, waiting for alex and fai so we can head for zouk.

damn, by the time we cabbed to zouk, phuture was darn packed and the queue was long.what's pissed was just when we are about to enter, we were cut off cause phuture's full house already. damn pissed! no choice, we had to change plans for another club, which is none other then the usual, dbl O. it was worthewhile with cheap drinks and as for the ladies, needless to say, free flow! woohoo. after the madness round of drinking, it was down to Obar for dance floor. Hahas.\

just in need of such dose of alcohol to make me numb and forget those stuffs. argh. just another one night stand? most probably that was all. i'm just a friend. =)

we had bak kut teh supper with annie,hazel,xiao fen,steph,tong,fai and senget. cabbed back with the usuals and home at 4 ish. darn tired and it was lala land in no time.

the night was dark and lonely. it was. and yes, it was you whom brought the wild side of me to live. but now, you're gone and i'm still living in the wild....

as for today, i guess i better stay home and be a good girl cause there's morning lessons tomorrow!!! photo updates sooonnnn!

ARGHhh ranted @ 1:59 PM :|

random.
Wednesday, May 07, 2008

yes, here i am with my lappy and the night belongs to myself. i'm super duper free (kind of), in the mood for a ladies night partyyy but no one is available at this hour. so, i shall spend time by myself, with updates, the radio and yours truly.

okay, first up, some photo updates.....

02 May 2008. Butter Factory with Bcom3 babes~

the pre-party-get-high photoshoootttt.

aunty, where's your drink???

gladys and nikki almost tore down the club!

aunty trying to act young and hip.

this is when partttyyy really began. smooches!

the shot to get high~ way to go man NIK!

can you tell this is the after party shot? no feel of being drunkard high!

the unforgettable night, but OBAR could be better!


05 May 2008. Cineleisure Movie of Harold and Kumar.
once, the search. now, it's part of memory bank.


aiyo, don't be shy la MS LUA, we know you are not!!

yes there's a hunk out there that caught my attention.


LOOK! what have our dear tong done to steph!

OMG~ the F-up signature face that steph inherited!


meet the the TAI TAI WANNABE, yours truly.

=)

it has been merely 5 days. is this for better or for worse? it seems like..... well, ermmmm i know.

ok this has to stop. play by the rules if this is the path i've chose. no string nor feelings attached.

i dont want to play with fire. i can't afford the price.
the one and only. temptations.

ARGHhh ranted @ 8:26 PM :|

fucking stupid.
Sunday, May 04, 2008

02 May 2008, Friday .........
butter factory was not that blast afterall, as compared to OBAR. well, its not whom i went with, but the crowd wasn't something that deem fit our age? so to speak that we are young that stood out of the crowd at butter fac. partied with babes like winnie,nikki and gladys. no doubt its only 4 of us, but it's fun. =) we had our own ways in getting high and the ladies apparently went flat at merely 130hrs! omg. that's like fast.

the ladies went for supper while i went off with j, picked me up and headed off to to thumper. went there to explore and continued drinking. hmmm, not my kinda of club, music and crowd just don't fit my bill. well but it's j and his friend's usual hangout place and anyway since they are the members, w/o the need to pay cover. hahas.

after bio-ing out for preys as what the guys usually do, it was to no avail, hence bid goodbyes with j's friend, headed for a night long story hearing session. hmmmm, i have no idea if this was the right choice. but, there's a much more complicated world out there then what i can ever imagine. if ever i'm the victim, i've only got myself to blame. well, just hoped what was being shared that night were true words, not for the sake of saying. yes, actions speaks louder than words. it does. in the meantime, lots of misses ahead.

03 May 2008, Sat.......

was totally tired when i got home. had only 3 hours of sleep. got up and freshened up, prepared to get out by 5pm for Ironman movie. met ben, took a bus to inter, joined hock and my bro, collected tickets and while waiting, went to collect my hp. NOKIA sucks big time now. i'm one NOKIA fan but now, it really dissapoint me big time! maybe i should just throw away my phone. i'm switching to SE soon, waiting for june to come, it's time to change my phone and mobile service provider!

after the long wait of 45 mins, which i was told it was going to take an estimated 20 mins, i got so totally pissed as i'm running late for movie. peg,sharon and qa joined and 7 of us went in on the dot for the movie. it was nice and funny, 4/5 rating. worth my 10 bucks for such a movie. next, harold and kumar movie on monday. =)

after movie was dinner at century's foodcourt followed by a chill out session at coffeebean with peg, while the rest headed for ben's place, hock booked in. ben's place after peg headed home and mj-ed til wee hours. ko-ed at 0500hrs.

and for now, i'm speechless, just felt nothing but hurt. feeling fucking stupid, pissed and upset. someone i called a friend and a very good one for the past decade. guess what? there wasn't even trust to begin with as from now onwards. maybe, staying away sounds good.

I WAS THE CRAZY BITCH KI SIAO OVER SUCH THINGS. fuck off then. i'm not someone whom you fucking used, then throw away. neither am i someone you called in the middle of the night when you couldn't get someone else. i dont need friends who don't bother and whom don't have the guts to admit things were different and i've got a replacement????
THANKS, but it seriously don't feel good. fucking cannot be bothered already. call yourself a friend? maybe next life.

ARGHhh ranted @ 10:52 PM :|

party starts tonight.
Friday, May 02, 2008

yes, butter factory with the girls tonight. hoping to have fun and partyyyyyy like there's no tomorrow. =) in the meantime, some updates.
been out for the past 2 days, which is good. keeping myself busy for the holidays which is sadly, ending soon. argh, how kind my school has been to us, after slogging through for the entire trimester. hanged out with aunty winnie in town for some shopping, bought a new black tube top for additions to clubbing wardrobe and a pair of charles keith heels. all for a good 36 bucks.

after town was heading to sengkang to meet up with peg and her friend for some movie, but cancelled last min, had dinner at swensens' instead. all last min plans came up for the night. took the car out, prawning at pasir ris with bg and friends. my first prawning trip, kinda of sua ku but it's kinda of fun though. 4 prawns in 3 hours. omg. headed back to tamp for prata supper and to ben's place for soccer watching. ben,qa,paul,dai,bg,hock and matoot for mj and the usual late night match.

left halfway thanks to alex whom got stucked at MOS cause he couldn't get a cab. so just in time, went to pick him up in car instead of cabbing. i guess i'm his saviour for the night, or else he can wait till 6am in the morning for a cab to get him home, or take a ride on NR7. so was KO-ed when i got home at almost 5am.

so it's 1st May 2008 and it's Mummy's Birthday. the usuals, had it with aunt and uncle over at aunt's place for mj session, while i joined at 5 ish. the home cooked dinner with cake cutting ceremony. back home at 9 ish. =)

well, i'm waiting to parttyyyy tonight with more plans for the month coming up. zouk-ing, zoo trip, cx gathering, 21st bday parties and more. what a month finally!

butter fac fun tonight,i hope.

ARGHhh ranted @ 3:54 PM :|