... Y A N ...

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`23.
`EGG.
`Virgo.
`Attitude.
`Pms Queen.
`Sensitive.
`38-ness.
`Irritating.

... LOVEs ...

` twentysix.
` POOH.
` YEOWs.
` JIE MEIs.
` RWDs.
` MONEY.

... desires ...

`Hong Kong Trip 2007.
`Sarah Jessica Parker "Lovely" Fragrance.
`2nd pair of Havianas flip flops.
`tons of flats/sandals/pumps.
`Bags Bags Bags!
`LV coin pouch AGAIN.
`E71 mobile phone.
`Coach Wristlet.
`Birthday BKK Trip 09!
`Phuket Trip
`Hong Kong Trip 2010
`GRADUATION!!!
`Adidas Candy Watch.
`Bangkok Trip 08/09

... inspirations ...

`SIEW XIN CHEE.
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LOOPO.
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SENGET SIEW XINYI.
`
QASHaron.
`ONG AH BAO.
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TEACHER PEGGIE.
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SUET JING.
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JANICE.
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AMY.
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Chanz
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Denise
`Candice
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Yiling
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Drea
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Karin
` Tannia
` Zi Ting
` Hui Yun
` Jeslyn
` Joyce
` Pearlyn
` Nurina
` Adelene
` Terence
` Vincent
` Annie
` Rashidah
` Rose

... her doings ...

> self-doubt....
> Let it go, girl!
> 柠檬草的味道
> time flies....
> 开始懂了
> STUCKED!
> Unspoken Missessss....
> life is so random.
> I Should Be So Lucky on 14 Dec 2008.
> HERE WE GO!

... memory lane ...

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...SHOUT ALL YOU WANT ...


... BIG Thanks To ...

` YOU.
` PEOPLE whom woke me up.
` SUAY-NESS that hit me hard.

just sometimes.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007

why believe when it was not there all along?

was i that stupid to fall back into the trap?

maybe i was, which i have to refrain myself this time.

just sometimes, being selfish is the receipe to cure my pain.

ARGHhh ranted @ 11:10 PM :|

BLOGGER CRAZY.

is it my blogger that's not working or what??? can't seemed to space out my recent posts. DAMN la. blogger gone berserk already!
some quick updates.

25 Nov. Sun.

home the entire day, trying to spend time revising, yet was lazing around, wasting my time as usual. haha. i guess the pressure is getting day by day, it's coming!!

supposed to meet tong and james for dinner, in the end, thanks to the downpour, leaving me and tong for dinner. it's like so WTH la. as usual, we are trying to find ppl for dinner, yet none was available. after dragging here and there, thanks to tong whom refuse to use my umbrella, which he thinks is too gay, finally gave up arguing with me. haha.

what to do, that's the only umbrella i brought, either polka dots or pink ones. after the usual noise, its moving to 827, then ocha then finally senget's block to have dinner. IDEA right? this is so not my style and so damaging to my image.

after complaining being soaking wet and stuffs, it's finally peaceful time having dinner. crapped and 38-ed till we met up with senget and chee with his mama. went groceries shopping with the guys, then off they went for book in, while i walked home.

26 Nov. Mon.

spend the entire afternoon at home mugging. but not much seems to get into my head though. haiz!!! CONCENTRATION is all i need now.

27 Nov. Tues.

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO JAMES & JASON!!! thanks to james, who gave us a treat to fish&co at tamp mall. met james,mond,felky and ej at james blk, but went up to visit j.b first. that cute-lil-damn-hyper puppy la.

took a walk to tm, met charis,sharon and qa. keong joined us soon after we placed our orders. had a great meal! thank you big boss james!

after the meal was a stroll to central park for cake cutting ceremony. jason and ks joined, and ceremony begins. we almost conquered the watermelon thanks to our laughters, plus felky's evil laughter, it's total madness. hahaha, she can be the next laughing lord.

home then out again for james' place to play with j.b. this time round it was training session, teaching j.b how to sit. the trainer : lua eng keong. haha. quite a success i should say. so it was 12 when we bid goodbyes and home sweet home!

omg, i just came back from a battle with a stupid cockroach. they are the worse and most disgusting pests around!!! and now, that cockroach is dead! good job!
TV time!

mugging continues tomorrow.... spells out the SIAN-ness in me.

ARGHhh ranted @ 12:39 AM :|

oh sometimes, just sometimes, i laid back and ponder,
已经长大的约定 那样珍惜
与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清 你是友情
还是错过的爱情

ARGHhh ranted @ 12:34 AM :|

secrets unfold??
Monday, November 26, 2007


meet J.B. the new member of rwds.
when was the last time i ever felt the way? hmm, most probably concluding its hallucination on my own.




reality's always cruel, one's never know who will be gone first. but the very least, i did not lived in vain, my secret lies somewhere. let them unfold if this very day arrives.




hopes are the worse weapon that one's heart dealt with.




when hopes fallen, hearts will be darn shattering.
"let go of the past, then you will see future."

so true, yet its that hard to let go....


ARGHhh ranted @ 11:30 PM :|

rollercoaster ; ups and downs.
Sunday, November 25, 2007

a week has passed, time files, and now i'm left with 2 exact weeks till my exam week commences. so, i shall pray for my well-being in passing my 3 papers.
my recent doings?? kinda of busy, bad body clock and dark circles that never subsides. all this shall be put to a stop or else i'm will be so dead. so now updates.

19 Nov - 21 Nov, Mon- Wed.

been out almost every night at ben's place. accompany him through the night, playing mj till wee hrs, 2 nights non stop till 4am-ish.

then finally it was the day when everything's over. gone, just like that. it was sad, i myself teared like nobody's business, let alone ben. =( after settling down at his place, we left him to rest for the next few days and off we went to pasir ris farmway for dog hunting!

james headed home while ks, charis, ej and i hitched a cab to the farmway. so after almost anhr of scouting for jack russells which are of our budget, we finally found one! =) fated i guess, to let this little puppy meet us. haha. bargained at a price of 488 and we've got james and jason a new lil puppy!!! yeah!

after puppy shopping, it was heading back for dinner. met up mummy and daddy, had dinner at 826 together. then it was home sweet home for the night. bth, damn tired already.

22 Nov. Thursday.

home mugging. here and there. trying to get bits and pieces into my head. i'm just so not discipline to do what i'm supposed to. damn. so after the whole day home, head out to meet ks, charis and peg for ikea. dinner and bought the box, then it was time chalet at aranda.
mj the whole night till 3 ish and cabbed home with black,dai and kelvin. won money. haha =)

23 Nov. Friday.

home the entire day, out to meet ej and hock for pet safari, buying puppy's stuff. then it was to ej's aunt's place where the puppy was. hanged out till 10 ish, went down to meet bert and tong. cabbed to chalet and ta da, it was a surprise for the J brothers. haha
been busy, in and out for the sake of the puppy. haha. damn cute la. hanged out the entire night with heart-to-heart balcony talk. haha. home at 5am. KO-ed as usual.

24 Nov. Saturday.

home the entire day, peg came up to slack till 7, then out to meet ben,tong,mond,hock,senget,james,qa and sharon for dinner. had prata for dinner. ocha was next, with no tables and chairs anymore, so took a walk back to james' place after the rest went back to get stuffs for soccer. picked up J.B, the puppy, and head to ej's aunt place for babysitting. haha. ben and i head for ntuc to get drinks, tong,james and peg joined later.

then it was bball court for soccer. its been a long time since the boys had their soccer session. haha. soccer ended at 11, then it was senget's place for soccer watching and ps3. hanged out the entire night, home at 4 ish.

this explains all the bad body clock and stuffs la!!! got up at only 1pm in the afternoon. how can this go on with exams ahead.

packing up the worse feelings that is being felt now, gearing up for the days ahead. embrace life, this is reality.
hate hopes, esp FALSE hopes.

ARGHhh ranted @ 5:12 PM :|

in the loving memories of Aunty Winnie.
Monday, November 19, 2007

alright, now the sad news came along on saturday morning, when our very own stuntner BEN sms-ed me abt his early arrival back to Singapore. was puzzled and asked him about it. then he said in a subtle tone : " my mum passed away this morning...." i was dumbfounded, cant believe what i was hearing from the conversation.

all of us felt sad and shocked. we didn't know how to react, was in silent and daze. packed our emotions till end of the party, and went to the wake on sunday evening. rwds ,kukus and kian heng were present. ben and amanda seemed solemn, no matter how hard they tried to be strong.

this is a hard time, for the both of them to handle. let time heal their wound, may they be stronger then ever and we shall send our silent prayers to see them through.

aunty winnie, (ben's mum) treats us like her child whenever we pop by their place. the jokes she will always share with us, the "ren sheng zhi dao" she shares with us and never expect this would befall on her and the family. the ever so familiar face and voice will now leave us for good.
in the loving memories of aunty winnie. we wil always remember her, the good she told us and may ben and amanda be strong as time goes by.

ARGHhh ranted @ 3:10 PM :|

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY to SENGET and TONG.

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO SENGET!!!
back from a 3D2N of hell and fun. been busy almost throughout the chalet, preparing and stuffs. but had bit of shared fun. the "FHM" posing we made Senget posed for us, the jolin's dance moves, the stockings, the army gang's toilet feasting of colgate and chicken marinade. the partyy goes...

the brokeback mountain series.

the FHM pose that the birthday boy did for us. NICE~ ( MOST PROBABLY I WILL BE CHASED AFTER BY HIM AFTER POSTING THIS PIC. HAHAs.)


condoms for you?


the rich birthday boy in his 170 bucks shirt and roaul wallet.


the darkness trio and the bday boy.

senget's 21K richer.


special performance by uncle loopo.


he dont remember taking photos with us from this on.


the bunch of armour guys that made senget and tong so dead. haha!


the ROSES cake that looked gay, but suits them PERFECTLY.


rwds.

the happy birthday boys. (before)


after. so, the partyyy ended!!!

okay, it has been a "MIXED" weekend for most of us. feeling happy and sad at the same time. so i shall end of this happy post, and move on to the next post.

this would be the very last, most probably the very best of the last moments i will share as my part.

ARGHhh ranted @ 2:25 PM :|

am i stupid or what.
Friday, November 16, 2007

am i being KAY POH?
or am i being simply STUPID/SILLY?
all i want to is to offer help, yet i dont get a little when i need it. maybe as quoted by "g", this is reality in life. but i dont get it. i thought FRIENDS ARE SUPPOSED TO HELP FRIENDS or FRIENDS DONT LET FRIENDS DIE?
or am i just being too kind or naive to believe in friends?
then tell me, WHAT ARE FRIENDS FOR?

ARGHhh ranted @ 1:08 AM :|

COACH reversible signature tote


SHOULD I OR SHOULD I NOT????
so damn tempted to ask jessica to help me buy from LA. after conversion, abt SGD400.there's no way getting this price for such bag in s'pore.
im still overcoming my grieve on my loss on my lv. damn. but i'm short of 200 bucks if i want this bag. HOW??? argh.
RESISTING TEMPTATIONS. =(

ARGHhh ranted @ 1:04 AM :|

dreads MUGGING
Thursday, November 15, 2007

MUGGING continues from yesterday. damn, got to motivate myself, or else i will be super dead, with weekend packed with chalets. cant wait to enjoy and party like mad. can't wait to see stunts from birthday boys. HAHA, no worries, my 21st is over and done with, w/o much sabos. =)
i'm only in the beginning of my revision and i'm whining like mad already. just have to admit that i'm damn lazy to study, but i will have to, for the sake of getting credit grades at least. WHY AM I HERE STUDYING??? this has been a constant question to me, is this the right or wrong choice? time shall direct me the new answer.
btw, anyone wants to go T3 for the tour? i am looking for people to go with me. haha, it only cost a dollar for a self-guided tour, and 3 bucks for a 45-min guided tour. any takers, call me!
hmmm, was out last night, meeting up bert,james,toot and sharon for ocha. hanged out till 9 ish, slacked a lil at fitness corner while dai joined, then head home for tv.
met keong at 11ish to pass him money and caught up a lil before heading back home. the birthday boy called to share his "RAPE" experience. haha, poor white guy! whining and
complaining like nobody's business. HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TONG!
be mindful SENGET, the other birthday boy to be this weekend, cause his will not be anything better off. haha!
alright, back to mugging, updates after party, stay tuned.

ARGHhh ranted @ 1:09 PM :|

我不配
Tuesday, November 13, 2007

engines stalled before it even started ;

why am i so incompetent in getting myself started for exams?

why do i always allow people to affect my mood, my pace of life.

damn, all these has to be away for the next whole month.
i want nothing to affect my pace and preparations for exams.
YEOW WEN YAN, you must, you will and you can!
PARANOID is my middle name. so when can i tell myself to finally come to a halt for all those damn things i should not bother by now? this is madness, insanity and PURE STUPIDITY.
so i shall begin with telling myself: he's not there, gone, someone else's and damn move on like what you did.
it's not what i've done you've appreciate it,felt or seen it. it's not 相信付出就会有代价.
every emotions i have now must be thrown away tonight, to make way for exams preparations.
btw, good luck to those NTUs having exams. desmond wan and yip zhen fai. =)
i'm always in the 我不配 list of his.

ARGHhh ranted @ 10:55 PM :|

whirlwind weekend.

praying and hoping the SUAY-NESS will end soon, i SERIOUSLY mean soon. or else, i feel like jumping off my block. damn.

alright, updates for the weekend.

09 Nov. Friday.

got up damn early la. 5.45am, the timing i used to wake up during cx days. meeting ryna to send our beloved minah, jessica off for her long awaited LA trip, she's one lucky biatch la i should say, fancy leaving everything here, and spend time with Mr Brooks. but then where's MINE? haha.

had BK for breakfast after bidding goodbyes with jessica who cant wait to be onboard the plane. caught up a lil while with our ex-colleagues too. those were the days! hanged out till 9 ish and hop on bus 34 back to my place. thanks to darling ryna who willingly to spend her time going down to MS. Whatever for? exchange the zara top i bought the previous day for the bday-boy-to-be. as usual, top ran out of the size XL i wanted for the bday boy, hence made another trip down to wheelock place and we were too lazy, CABBED home!

damn, been spending on cab fares though i'm super broke. how idiotic can i be thanks to lazyness. =(

homed the entire afternoon, NAPPING! bth, it was almost 7pm when i got up. then as usual, soccer night. hanged out till 12 ish and head home early. god weather to be tucked under the warm blankets. shiokkk~

10 Nov. Saturday.

home the entire afternoon, cant decide where to celebrate for the night, hence it was no PLUSH, no PUB, it's bedok 85 for dinner, cp for slacking and "mini celebration" for the bday-boy-to-be, Mr Teo (ah-pek) Tong. met mond,keong,tong,ks,hock,charis,felky,ej and peg for bedok 85. qa and sharon joined us later. took 69 and crapped a lil on stupid lame IQ questions,

my question: "what's a prawn w/o legs?"

answered by tong: "prawnless-leg "came out of nowhere!

wth la, what's PRAWNLESS LEG in the first place?? Shouldn't it be LEGLESS PRAWN? dumb! anyway, the right answer should be "LAME SIA", pronounce SIA in chinese and you'l l get it. (thanks to ryna for providing the question..)

after dinner was back to cp, got home to get cakes and presents. chilled while waiting for james and alex to join. then the party got started by requesting the birthday boy to perform stunts, in order to receive his present one by one. hmmm, he have 6 in total, lucky boy i should say, haha. i guess i shall not post his stunt videos, or else he will come after me like SIAO LANG. but requests to view privately will be granted of cause!

alright, the pictures goes..

when white boy turns 21.... he's still as WHITE as ever!!

the happy WHITE boy finally receives his presents.

STUNTS STUNTS and more STUNTS. "hard-earned" 21st birthday presents.

picture of the night : SEXY BABY part 2.

after the night of fun and laughter and the happy 21st birtday-boy-to-be got his presents after his brilliant performance for us. haha. all of us headed home and it was hanging out with alex till 3am. heart-to-heart talk you see. haha.

11 Nov. Sunday.

was home bored. wanting to finish up MDP but mates have yet to send in, hence it was out with alex to bugis to pray at four horse rd guan imm temple. to ask for blessings and get rid of my suayness. then jalan at bugis area, off to raffles city to meet his beloved. then back to expo, meeting senget,keong,felky and ej for super import night carshow.


cars are hot, babes are hot too. thanks to my sponsor or else i might not even go for it. haha, paying 10 bucks at this point of time means A BIG HOLE to my pocket. lols.

dinner was next at cs foodcourt, senget booked in while the rest of us headed home for the night.

Super Import Night Car Show

pretty LOTUS,BMW,MERZ and pretty showgirls.

"IMPORT" showgirls from USA. the red one's damn hot la, thanks to loopo whom volunteered on phototaking, as if only ar.

HOT lambo with HOT showgirl and "PRETTY SHOWGIRLS/BOY wannabe"

Ben's type of car. PINK PANTHER.

after the whirlwind weekend, it was back to weekdays. REVISION MONTH for exams. it's tuesday, wasted 2 days on idling. compiling projects, submitting projects and getting my laptop adpater replaced this morning. damn, proper OMD revision commences tomorrow!! or else, i can forget enjoying and partying this weekend for two 21st birthday chalets.

PERSERVERE, DETERMINE and CHIONG AR!!!!

ARGHhh ranted @ 3:36 PM :|

My 世界末日~
Saturday, November 10, 2007

07Nov2007.Wednesday.

I LOST MY LOUIS VUITTON key pouch for good! damn fcuking suay can!!! was on bus 36, plate no SBS 2710Y. i will never forget this for my entire life! my heart broke la, 21st bday present from parents, and i can lose it and this lady whom stole it right in front of me will get her retribution one day. WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND!!!

this has been the 2nd suay thing that happened on me for the past 2 months. what's next?? bang by a car and die? MAYBE.

Pick myself up, I AM GOING TO GET ANOTHER LV out of my own pocket this time. It's 245 bucks i've lost, plus my IC worth 60 bucks and replacement on atm card of 5 bucks and hock's levis membership card. ARGH!! felt so so so damn bad la.

shall not make myself repeating the process, cause it breaks my heart by recollecting what had happened. =( this is a feeling of my 世界末日....

so much to do, yet so little time. MDP final submission then it shall be revision before i run out of time. damn!!!! why am i studying at this point of time????

not in the mood to entertain anyone, anything.

ARGHhh ranted @ 3:14 PM :|