... Y A N ...

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`23.
`EGG.
`Virgo.
`Attitude.
`Pms Queen.
`Sensitive.
`38-ness.
`Irritating.

... LOVEs ...

` twentysix.
` POOH.
` YEOWs.
` JIE MEIs.
` RWDs.
` MONEY.

... desires ...

`Hong Kong Trip 2007.
`Sarah Jessica Parker "Lovely" Fragrance.
`2nd pair of Havianas flip flops.
`tons of flats/sandals/pumps.
`Bags Bags Bags!
`LV coin pouch AGAIN.
`E71 mobile phone.
`Coach Wristlet.
`Birthday BKK Trip 09!
`Phuket Trip
`Hong Kong Trip 2010
`GRADUATION!!!
`Adidas Candy Watch.
`Bangkok Trip 08/09

... inspirations ...

`SIEW XIN CHEE.
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LOOPO.
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SENGET SIEW XINYI.
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QASHaron.
`ONG AH BAO.
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TEACHER PEGGIE.
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SUET JING.
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JANICE.
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AMY.
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Chanz
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Denise
`Candice
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Yiling
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Drea
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Karin
` Tannia
` Zi Ting
` Hui Yun
` Jeslyn
` Joyce
` Pearlyn
` Nurina
` Adelene
` Terence
` Vincent
` Annie
` Rashidah
` Rose

... her doings ...

> self-doubt....
> Let it go, girl!
> 柠檬草的味道
> time flies....
> 开始懂了
> STUCKED!
> Unspoken Missessss....
> life is so random.
> I Should Be So Lucky on 14 Dec 2008.
> HERE WE GO!

... memory lane ...

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...SHOUT ALL YOU WANT ...


... BIG Thanks To ...

` YOU.
` PEOPLE whom woke me up.
` SUAY-NESS that hit me hard.

bitter
Thursday, March 29, 2007

i am not happy. happiness is far from my reach.

work,studies,friends and FEELINGS.

never ending tears,emotions and stress. i want to get out,really not knowing how!!! why did the world gave me up, or did i just walked out of this world????

this is tormenting and pure bitter!!! why do everything have to come to me at the same time???

STUDIES will be my first priority. My hkg trip has been worrying me though i've got my business class tickets, but praying for the loading to be light by then.

the last thing that i would ever want it to happen at this time, would be the feelings. The super mixed-rojak feelings.

BRUISED.

ARGHhh ranted @ 12:16 AM :|

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

before my memory fails me, i can't barely recall when was the last truly HAPPY moment i had.

maybe i should say i have never been for a long long time. in this microscopic life, i'm always stressed up.

screwed many stuffs in life. especially saying those words out of anger, but didn't mean it from the bottom of my heart.

things should have gone by now. i want to stop being so damn possesive.

i wan to be a better person, a better friend.

no one can be a perfectionist, but i'm the one being so stressed up of wanting things to be PERFECT in my life.

forgive me or pardon me if i did harm or hurt anyone unintentionally. i'm sorry. i've lost myself, all directions and focus.

no more noisy, irritating, full of bhb comments, act cute poses, fightings and actions. GONE.

being simple is being happy. why do i have to be complicated then??

yan-ness no more.

ARGHhh ranted @ 12:44 AM :|

anger management.
Monday, March 26, 2007

okay. ending my 4 days off soon. going back to office like it's a dead town on tues. all thanks to the retrechment news that will end everything soon on May 6th.

updates after being so caught up hanging out.

20Mar.Tues.

worked ended early hence headed home for dinner. then it was out for dai's pre-bday hang out.out for ocha to meet ej and sharon.hock met us to pass us the present for dai.

homed to settle things and out at 11. cabbed to pasir ris park, the usual hang out. i was the 'head' again, with bg,dai,ej and sharon. had sinful food as usual. then it poured suddenly. cold cold weather outdoors. black joined us after his work.

dai had a good time opening up his present. 19 layers of wrappers. thanks to sharon who took the effort to wrap it in the first place. hahas.

shop closed at almost 2am. walked out to get a cab. damn scary. but got a cab in no time. homed and ko-ed.


21Mar.Wed.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY DAI!!

indecisive clubbing plans. work ending late. but, thanks to club itch, still went ahead. chiong home to change and clean up before meeting tong,an and alex. cabbed down at 10 ish.

the rest were there waiting for us already.hock,dai,ivan,matoot,bg,denise,lizhen and paul with sis. queue were kinda of long but then still manage to get it in no time.ladies night as usual. phuture, the usual hang out.

opened 2 bottles, one chivas, one martell. that goes without saying, we end up damn tipsy. most of us were.partying went on till 2 ish when i can't take it any longer and it's time for me to get out of the club.

was on the phone with ej, in order to keep myself awake.or else i will be dead drunk. cabbed home at 3 ish after those dead drunk ppl revived.

22Mar.Thurs.

bad bad day. it mark our last days as May 6th.

after work, attended the briefing, end up weeping like mad. as if someone died. yeah indeed, my job is like a 'someone' to me. and it was killed by our upper management in hkg.

headed back with a heavy heart. met up for ocha.ej,sharon,an and tong.hock and fai joined. stroll back to 844 for some tabao-ing. my place for vcd watching.bg and dai joined after fai left. the rest hanged out till 2 ish as usual with the reluctance of tong and an waking up.

23Mar.Fri.

met darling ryna for lunch and groceries shopping at tm. always had good time with her no matter where we go.hahaha.

mahjong session at 6 ish with bert,ks and tong. mond,bao and charis joined hanging out at my place. won 14 bucks from mj and rush like mad after being so late to meet hock,senget,james and ej to send qa off for his taiwan training.

and, the joke of the day was.... locking bert up at my place as we were all rushing down! HAHA. it was lucky that we realise it when we were in the lift. or else, we might just jolly well forget about him being stucked at my place! haha.

cabbed to airport. met an and caught up abit before he bid goodbyes to all of us. the guys had popeyes for supper. then hanged out just infront of ROW 8 of terminal 1 before An checked in for his flight.

showed charis and sharon what's my daily routine like at ROW 8. the place i know i'm going to miss as much as tp when May 6th arrive.

after bidding goodbyes, the rest of us cabbed back to cc mac while tong headed home. hanged out till 3 ish, finally home.

24Mar.Sat.

chores done. peg and bao came hanging out at my place. it's been such a long time can! then out at 5.30 to meet ej . hock,tong,senget and my bro met us laterwent to collect tickets for the guys for first movie, stomp the yard. after snacks hunting, it was then for our first show. not a bad one, but a lil draggy. 3.5/5.

ended the show at 8.45. then dinner at CS foodcourt, not knowing that they actually have pepper lunch express!! yummy! love them.haha. after dinner was hanging out here and there aimlessly till the next movie.

first movie marathon. damn ex this weekend though pay's just in. chee,alex,bert,james,jason,ks and charis came at 11 ish,just in time for the next movie, TMNT!

childhood cartoon can! my fav, Leonardo! hahaha. not a bad one, typical Ninja Turtle storyline. just enough for me to recollect memories. 4/5 for TMNT childhood fan.

headed home next as there will be match at 10am the next day.

25Mar.Sun.

got up late as usual when match's near our place. lost 5-3 in then end, after battling like mad for a tie or positive win. nvm, moved on.

lunched at food palace then home at 1 ish. napped till 4 ish when Senget called saying there's archery plans on. guess what? i'm the last to be made known.

damn pek cek for people knowing me, and thanks for not calling me in time.sometimes, reasoning draws out more excuses, end up bullshitting me.

chee picked me up then headed for safra to meet up the rest. the dinner at bedok 85. manage to squeeze all 8 of us into a toyota corolla! amazing! but being so scared to get caught or what.

after the exploding dinner, it was another jammed packed session back to tamp. ocha was next before the guys booked in.

subway was next with ej and sharon. hanged out late after back from CV.

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i just dun wan to talk about today. cause basically it was damn spoiled. i know i'm in no position t be dulan about, but just wannna say THANKS. it's all bullshit talking about it.

i should take up anger management courses to deal with someone like you in my life. you are not a nice friend anymore. neither am i.

we walked our ways out of the past. cause we are not where we were used to be. if you can't spell it out, let me do it then.

i need a friend, not someone who claims to be a FRIEND but what you did was just plain bullshitting and drawing out endless excuses.

i'm nobody to you and even worse, i'm not of any use to you once i say no in helping you with your r/s stuff. so be it.

dun bother talking to someone like you. end up slapping myself with my both hands.

find someone else to bullshit then.

ARGHhh ranted @ 2:47 AM :|

life changing.
Friday, March 23, 2007

Big news broke the entire office this afternoon at 1445 hrs. The tension was felt the moment i step my foot into the so-routined-to-punch-in office.

yup. this is the day. 22MARCH07.

Cathay Pacific SIN Airport Operations will be taken over by handling agents.meaning the entire traffic department will be GONE. Retrenched. with the exception of 9 core staff to supervise the new operations.

emotions, tears and confusion were everywhere to be felt within the office. be it the full timer or part timer just like me, we all felt it. we can never bear to say goodbye to each other cause we never had enough of each other everyday, doing our flights together as a team.

our daily walkie conversations on air goes like this .

"departure 734 come in." "arrival to counter come in" "traffic come in" "all concerns,cx711 system shows down by 3 pax" "and etc!!

no more irritating colombo flights and pax. CX 711. Our hkg flights. Cx710/Cx736/Cx714/Cx712/Cx734/Cx716.

my fav duty, arrivals! No more Cx717/Cx739/Cx713 for me.

with this, it's going to be hard for each and everyone of us with SINCX. we've always took pride and glory, bearing the Cathay Pacific badge and uniform. the amount of effort, tears and sweat we took in our daily job.

it will never be another better team then this. our "Service Straight From The Heart", being taught to us since day one we made ourselves into CX.

now, my journey with CX shall end on the 6th May 2007, Sun.

I will mark my 10 months life changing experience with this.So people, next time when you guys check in for any CX flight, though they will be wearing CX very own uniform, but for sure, you can never get a better team then us.

so no one i knew will be able to check me in when i travel this mid may for my hkg trip.but, i will always be proud being part of this big CX family.

I'M PROUD TO BE A CUSTOMER SERVICE OFFICER (though a small fry) with CATHAY PACIFIC AIRWAYS!

how to pick the fallen pieces up again, feeling in despair and helpless,seeing other of my fellow colleauges in a more critical situtaion then i am??

the place where it's always full of life ,vibrant and noise have became like a funeral wake.

though i am leaving anyway with or without this retrenchment,but, i felt emotions over me for the truth that i thought would never be.

it's now time to take a break, for 2 months, then holiday, then back to school in july.

bringing all the memories i had for the people i've met, the new friendships i've made and the joy and tears i've shared along with me, down the path of life.

the big change will be coming along.

ARGHhh ranted @ 2:54 AM :|

NOTHING.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007

reading through the archives, it end me up with more tears.

it just flow naturally.without me knowing it anyway. but, i will survive from this another ordeal. it's just another turning point of my life i guess.

3 years sums everything up. the good,the bad,the sad,the mad,the fun and the tough. i have everything with me, packed with memories.

sometimes, life just have to move on without certain stuff one used to have. it might not be the end of the road, just another beginning of another chapter.

no one can turn me back to the past.

THOSE TIMES.

i wan my 18 yr old back.

ARGHhh ranted @ 2:37 AM :|

rotten
Tuesday, March 20, 2007

feeling damn ROTTEN now.

worrying on one hand about my job thing, hearing those retrenchment news here and there, and not wanting to go out of job for the next 2 months before going back to school and most importantly, MY HKG TRIP!! I want my business class return tickets!

adding oil to fire, i was damn pissed with myself cause of some issues that i've been struggling like hell. have learnt to take things easy but somehow it still perks me!

this is call karma. SERVE MYSELF RIGHT. who the hell in the world would be so damn stupid like me, having to help this friend in all sorts of stuff. poked my nose too much and this is what's punishing me of saying NO.

erase me out of your life then as i'm making of no use anymore.

ARGHhh ranted @ 12:54 AM :|

answers.
Monday, March 19, 2007

it's MONDAY again. Another weekend just ended like that. been busy hanging out and what else right.the life of young people like me. updates.

14mar.Wed.

Out to ocha with tong and chee.the guys had dinner at 820 and hock joined us soon after his driving lesson.ocha was next and hanged out till 9 ish.off to econ minimart to get my fav 'tamtam' cracker. went round so many places such as mcp and primemart and i couldn't get it.
anyway was happy that i got my 'tamtam' anyway.

home at 9 ish. then out again at 10.30 to meet ah ni and slacked till late midnight. my never ending stories to share as always.

15mar.Thurs.

worked till 5.30pm and head back for dinner meet up.hock,ah ni and charis had prata dinner. senget and chee joined soon after their family dinner.Ocha was next.

after hanging out for awhile then it was heading back with chee as he needs to pack his stuff up before heading for my place. walked back to meet tong for my place. senget,chee,keong,felky and ah ni joined.

had dvd of 'twins mission' till midnight. as most of the people headed for home,leaving only tong and my bro to watch death note. not a bad movie, kinda of interesting though.slept at 3ish.

16mar.fri.

worked till 9.30pm as usual then back to tamp to meet them for friday soccer. the guys have always enjoyed it. hanged out till 1 ish when the they ended and headed for the new fitness corner to hang out.

we are like 'BIG KIDS' fooling around with those new equipment la! FUN though.hahaha.joined senget,chee,ks and ah ni to go for their supper with bert.was damn tired but it's ok. cause i want to make myself damn tired so that i will not have spare time to think about those things!

homed at 3 and slept soon.

17mar.sat.

worked till 6.30pm and rushed home to help mummy out as she was the chef of the day.had family dinner with aunt and all at our place. after clearing most of the sutffs, headed out at 8ish to meet bert,hock,mond and bao for ocha.

then decided to head for senget's place for soccer watching. on the phone with alex and it was like a long lost conversation anyway. haha.after man utd match was out to meet tong,an,ks,charis and sharon to slack by the new corner again.

mond and james joined and hanged out past midnight. headed to my place for death note 2 dvd watching with tong,an,bert,james and sharon. complicated storyline this time and was kinda of long.

hence the guys was busy sleeping already,leaving sharon,me and my bro to finish the show. james was busy gaming as usual.

AND it was damn irritating to get tong waken up la.never knew that he could drag here and there for the whole TEN minutes! so party ended at 2 ish.

18mar.sun.

overslept a lil though i gave morning calls. duhz. rwds vs ecpfc. exciting match up and we could actually draw the game!! BRILLIANT!!MORALE BOOSTER afterall! our guys played real hard, real well and super proud! though we have so many chances to score a winning goal but all thanks to 'kelong' refree who gave so many stupid decisons on offsides.damn!

after the well-played match it was home to bath and met up for lunch at 1. the whole big gang again. ben,tong,mond,james,hock,chee,an,alex,senget,jason,paul,fai,bg,kuku,peg,sharon and me.

but the weather is really KILLING people la!! like burning 35 degress at least, making me like a cooked egg already. all of us were sweating and fanning ourselves like nobody's business. and the funny thing is, 802's coffeeshop's fan is damn lousy.makes no difference with or without it.

after lunch was army shop, ocha and prime mart.hang out till 3 ish. home to bath without hesitation then it was mj session with an,kuku and paul. james,ben,mond,bg,bao and sharon hanged out as usual.

army dudes head home to prepare for book in while the rest of us continue the game till 8 ish. out for dinner to 844,leaving paul and i to head for ben's place to hang out a lil.

then out at 11 to meet ah ni and kuku at pineapple to hang out. bert joined after his work and hanged out till past midnight.

AND NOW, it's time for me to get some rest. i pray that my roster will not be that bad for the next 5 weeks! esp my sundays off, together with ben's 21st bday,tet's 21st bday and my jolin's concert!!

last but not least, i left my answer hanging with contradictions again. back to routine? half yes, half no.

ARGHhh ranted @ 12:56 AM :|

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

spell BORING. bored, not that i have nothing to do, but working tomorrow already! my off days gone just like that. I swear if i can, i will end work one month earlier before school starts and spend my days rotting before i get busy again.

why can't i get my bank stuff done and over with. because there's still 2 months? duh. big slap to myself.

answers. can't seem to find the right one. manage to get some of my own just depending on people to correct it.

submit my pay tomorrow and getting pay in 10 days time. scrimp and save for my hkg trip in may.

okay, shall see what plans tonight.

it never belong to me.

ARGHhh ranted @ 5:15 PM :|

24's just not enough.

weekend gone. last off day tomorrow after resting for 5 days. Tomorrow will be my sixth and final. It's a damn good feeling of not doing anything. =)

updates.

11mar.Sunday.

woke up damn early at 545am. washed up and prepared to meet ah ni for airport. meeting senget and tong on arrival back from india training. that's why. sending donuts to senget as well. it's been 18 days since we saw them!

went to the gate to 'escort' them personally. okay so my prayers sent them back safely! after picking up their bags and shopping at dfs, we cabbed back to tamp and back to their home to settle their stuff then off to match.

left tamp at 9am then off to yishun to meet the rest of rwds. they have the match started with the score or 3-0. BRILLIANT job! rwds vs swensens cho. 10-0 final score!woohoo!

it's been a morale booster ever since the match against wandering wanderers. hope we can play better and improve play on the upcoming matches cause we will want to be on the upper half, not the bottom half. WE CAN DO IT!

i did not join the rest of the group for lunch and ocha as i was heading for JB with family. thanks to james,jason and mond whom acc me till my dad came to pick me up. sorry for holding the group up after they left and i need to stop them and take my liqour back for me.

back to JB. it's a damn tiring trip for me of cause. with only 3 hrs of sleep, how am i suppose to tahan the whole day.was kinda of pms due to the lack of sleep. had good meals though. cheap,nice and superb lunch and dinner! had shopping too. bought a pair of nice shoes,dvds and stuff for some of them.

was only home at 10 ish. was damn damn tired. bathed and was on the phone with peg and bao then off to sleep.

12mar.Mon.

got up only at 11ish. slacked home. nice feeling. chiong for two more months and off i am for holiday then back to school! hoping that i could get into SIM though.

tong came over at 2 ish for dvd marathon. ah ni joined at 3 ish. had 300 and protege. good shows. senget was suppose to join us but he ps us for his game. met up at 7.30 for dinner at 820 with hock,fai and senget. chee joined after he came back from his road trip.

ocha was next. keong,felky and sharon then joined for ocha. slacked a lil then it was heading home and to my place. tong,senget and ah ni came over.

instead of having nice shows, it was lazing around. had goal 2 at first, but due to the poor quality of the dvd and slow storyline, we switched to the messengers. not too bad. by then, senget was already in his lala land. tong was joining him as well. leaving the girls to tv.

the guys got up after a few callings.stunts by senget.haha. marathon over at 2am.

13mar.tues.

up late at 11 ish as usual. i'm going to be so dead on thurs, waking up on my shift for 1130!I must set at least 3 alarms to get myself up. cause my bio clock is so 11 ish waking up now. die!

washed up and bathed. out to meet my darling ryna for lunch! haha. 38 session how can i miss right? had pastamania for lunch. then it was retail therapy session! bought cheap and nice tops from the converse,everlast and kappa sale at tm. darling ry bought 3 tops and she never fail to spend money when she's out with me, right ry?

was so happy and double yayness la.after 2 hrs to retail therapy, it was meeting up with tong,fai,senget and chee for queensway after the call from tong. it's my first time without my barang and off to somewhere so far. so last minute.

trained down and reached at late 4 ish. the guys had makan while i sit and drink. it poured cats and dogs. damn shitty can. i hate rain when i'm outside without my umbrella! i'm always super grouchy when it rains when i'm not with my umbrella la.

the rain stops just in time. thank god for that. bused to queensway without further delay.the guys started their retail therapy then. shopping for soccer stuff. hock joined soon and after whole 2 hrs of scouting, the guys finally got what they wanted and not cheap anyway compared to the prices at peninsula after we got there to look out for new jerseys.

the guys felt 'cheated' of cause after all the way there la. lesson learnt. had kfc for dinner at funan. trained back to tamp at 9 ish. soccer was next. homed to settle stuff then down to cp.

hanged out with ah ni and charis while watching those videos from tong's psp. now i know why people are so into them. it's a genius invention afterall i should admit.

then, the whole cp went into hazy condition. very bad. then we realise it was not haze, it's something like somewhere caught fire.went to check it out but to no avial. did not want to think much so went back and continue our video watching.

the guys ended soccer at 1 then hanged out a lil with tong till 1 ish. talked abt soccer matches and just hope that we can strive up for top 4 positions.

home sweet home at 1.30am.

wondering for the ending. i am. seeking for answers. but whom to tell and whom to show? NO IDEA afterall.

anyway, it will be busy day for me tomorrow, packing and moving my tables around in my room. i guess i will try to do it by myself then. i just want to stop thinking too much. cause i always end up disappointing myself.

i want to die with a reason, not without one and dead for nothing. okay?

let tomorrow be over soon.please.

ARGHhh ranted @ 2:08 AM :|

damn tired.
Sunday, March 11, 2007

woohoo. another week gone. it's sunday tomorrow and i've to wake up early la. Cause Senget and Tong will be arriving at 7.20am.Which means we have to be at airport at 7.

okay quick updates.

10Mar.Sat.

On MC for my left sore eye for 2 days. So i'm off for the entire 6 days can! NO MONEY le la! =(

Hence, went out to Vivo with Bg,Kuku, Mond,Hock,An,Alex,Ah ni,Bao and Sharon. Charis,Ks and Fai joined later for movie then Keong and Felky for donut purchasing for Senget. We had movie in the meantime after our donut purchasing. Watched The Pursuit of Happyness. Damn touching la. An insipiring movie to motivate and encourage people in life.

After movie was a lil hangout then trained back to tamp. DAMN TIRED. My legs were damn aching after long day of standing and walking.

Met Bert and Jason at pineapple for bert's donut collection. Headed home to change and down to meet Jason,Bert,Fai,Bg,Ks and Charis for prata supper. That's why I'm never success at dieting. =(

Homed at 1 ish.

I promise to upload those photos soon. Cause i've 5 off days. So bless me ya.

ARGHhh ranted @ 1:46 AM :|

stucked
Wednesday, March 07, 2007

as always i am.

what should i do?? MADNESS killing me!

1 over 2, 2 over 3 and who's 3 over to??? why can't we all have the equal share of love and happiness?

are you blind? maybe not but you chose to be. this i know. courage will find me soon and i will pick courage up to be with me.

will not live my life i've used to, cause thanks to dai, i know that i can choose not to live in the past, not to live in my memories.

432 might mark the end of this chapter.

ARGHhh ranted @ 2:19 AM :|

10.58pm
Monday, March 05, 2007

10.58pm

you know what it meant don't you?

if yes, keep hush hush. if no, don't come asking me about it.

MADNESS goes on. =\

I just want to get my SIM applications over and done with by next week!! Oh god.

ARGHhh ranted @ 3:27 AM :|

5.08am
Sunday, March 04, 2007

Emptied.

but...

TOTAL MADNESS.

putting myself to sleep. help!

ARGHhh ranted @ 5:07 AM :|

unprepared.

Some stuff in life came too fast that none of us could have been prepared for it.

"BOOM!" then the next split second, for all you know, it's gone and it became past tense.

Memories will soon flow, then it's becoming using terms like "was, then, last time and etc... " It can go on and on till time heals I supposed.

So people, agree to what I have to say. No one ever knew when's the "forever" is going to end. Cause we are so used to what we have around us in everyday life.

Some r/s seems too good to be wasted. It does for this friend of mine. A long time and good friend of mine. I feel sad for friends like them deep down in my heart. It's heart felt sad.For me not knowing the cause, I would insist giving them all blessings I have.

This post is much dedicated to him and her.

p/s: hoping there's a way to salvage this r/s which seemed gone.

ARGHhh ranted @ 4:12 AM :|

Friday, March 02, 2007

New sexy baby 2007. Breakthrough of the year.
















Show hand ar!
















rOwdEes 2007. 19Feb07.

ARGHhh ranted @ 2:53 PM :|

Break.
Thursday, March 01, 2007

Yippees! Having my final 3 days break this coming weekend!!! I really need that man after working through so many days on and off during CNY.Never had time for myself though. First stop, shopping on Friday. But with the exception of spending money.

Past weekend :

24Feb.Sat.

CNY visiting at my place after work. Bombed money on cab as people are up at my place already. Mond,An,Hock,Bg,Kuku,Bao,Sharon and Peg were at my place waiting for me. Mj session commences with Kuku,Bg and An. Thereafter, Luas, J bros and Fai joined for blackjack session.

Hell noisy,fun and full of laughter gambling den at my place. HUAT AR!

Out to supper at 1 ish to Mac. Thanks to Bg we had treat of 40pc nuggets. After supper was Fai's place for more gambling! Madness! But fun. KO-ed halfway when I gamble. Won 8 bucks though I lost 40 on mj.

Walked home like zombie at 4.30am! Ko-ed.

25Feb.Sun.

Got up at 11ish. Out to Uncle's place for CNY visiting and lunch. Nice food thanks to Aunt. Hanged around till 5 and out to meet Peg at Seng Kang interchange. Bus-ed 27 back to TM for movie of Just Follow Law with Ah Ni, Bg,Chee, Hock and my bro.

Damn funny show la. Headed for Chee's place for match watching of Chelsea vs Arsenal. Woohoo exiciting and dramatic match I should say. Esp with the moment of John Terry being knocked out. So scary!But he's fine there after.

Homed at 2 ish.

26Feb-28Feb. Mon-Wed.

Been working for the past few days with the exception of meeting Ah Ni for dinner, Ben,Hock,Bg,Kuku and Fai for ocha. Mj with then till 3 ish!

So tiring after fighting war for the past few days of the super overbooking flights la! For now it's over. But coming with March school holidays.... ARGH!

I want to go HONG KONG in May!! Pray hard my bro will nod his head to go. thanks to him cause he's afraid of flying! I want my holiday and business class seats!! =)

Crap why am I saying all these here. Maybe I had no one to share with right now.

Never had the best way out.

ARGHhh ranted @ 12:46 AM :|