`23.
`EGG.
`Virgo.
`Attitude.
`Pms Queen.
`Sensitive.
`38-ness.
`Irritating.
` twentysix.
` POOH.
` YEOWs.
` JIE MEIs.
` RWDs.
` MONEY.
`Hong Kong Trip 2007.
`Sarah Jessica Parker "Lovely" Fragrance.
`2nd pair of Havianas flip flops.
`tons of flats/sandals/pumps.
`Bags Bags Bags!
`LV coin pouch AGAIN.
`E71 mobile phone.
`Coach Wristlet.
`Birthday BKK Trip 09!
`Phuket Trip
`Hong Kong Trip 2010
`GRADUATION!!!
`Adidas Candy Watch.
`Bangkok Trip 08/09
`SIEW XIN CHEE.
`LOOPO.
`SENGET SIEW XINYI.
`QASHaron.
`ONG AH BAO.
`TEACHER PEGGIE.
`SUET JING.
` JANICE.
` AMY.
` Chanz
` Denise
`Candice
` Yiling
` Drea
` Karin
` Tannia
` Zi Ting
` Hui Yun
` Jeslyn
` Joyce
` Pearlyn
` Nurina
` Adelene
` Terence
` Vincent
` Annie
` Rashidah
` Rose
> self-doubt....
> Let it go, girl!
> 柠檬草的味道
> time flies....
> 开始懂了
> STUCKED!
> Unspoken Missessss....
> life is so random.
> I Should Be So Lucky on 14 Dec 2008.
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` YOU.
` PEOPLE whom woke me up.
` SUAY-NESS that hit me hard.
My only day off. Shit right. Was suppose to have the sunday off, but swops. Sad. Nonetheless, I will still keep the energy in me going. Last weekend before another 5 dudes reports for NS next Friday.
Updates for the past week before it slips.
27th Jun. Tues.
Worked till 6.30pm and homed as usual. Met Tong,Senget,Keong and Felky for Ocha at 9 ish. Headed for Mac for Senget's dinner. Hanged out till 11 ish before heading home early.
28th Jun.Wed.
Worked S5 for the day till 7. Off for movie with Sharon and Peg. Met them up at 8 and got tickets for Just My Luck. Hilarious show and entertaining indeed. Had dinner before the movie and hanged out a lil by the supermarket. The show ended at 11 ish and went on to meet the dudes at cp.
Soccer what else. Hanged out with the girls and sent Sharon home.It was almost 2 ish when the game ended with Charis and me still yakking. Headed for 7-11 to continue with the non-stop yakking with the dudes.
Homed with Tong and Keong at 3. Tiring day but packed with programs.
29th Jun. Thurs.
Working S4 shift till 6.30pm.Not a smooth day at check-in. Long story. I guess we humans learn from mistakes and lessons. But I don't know why I take it so hard. =(
It was meeting up with Tong and James for mahjong session at Chris' place. Luckily, the night was what kept me occupied and cheered up. Won 16 bucks. That's why. We had a long game of 3 rounds till almost 4.30am. Amazing. Cabbed home with the dudes. Slept at 5.30am.
30th Jun. Fri.
My only off day today! Haiz. Hence I'm keeping home to laze around. Weekend plans: Drinking session at Boat Quay tomorrow night. Guess it would some bidding farewell weekend for those NS dudes. See how it goes for tomorrow at work. I hope it would be ok.
Something's so wrong about me this week. Somewhere and somehow it's not right.
I'm getting real emotional these days. Easily. The past that reminds me of the sadness now.
Seemed tough on the outside, trying to get by easier as each day passes. But never did I feel the sadness in me.
Times the whole bunch have been. Sentosa, Chalet and bbq, Subway, Soccer watching times. So much to recall and tons to keep.
Each of us moved on. But wondering who are the ones that brought those along with them. I'm one of those. That's why I feel the sadness so strong.
Things have to go on no matter what. The fact will be losing to what I used to have in life.
Let courage be with me.
Tell the difference from my life now. I'm packed with work now. Not too busy, not too free. But, by the looks of my updates, I'm either busy playing outside or tired after work.
Nevertheless, I've found some time to update for the past weekend. I hoped I did not get the stuff wrongly update.
Having 3 off days from Thurs to Sat explains the fact that I'm busy hanging out with different people. Trying to do some catching up.
22nd Jun.Thurs.
Off day 1. Woke up rather late after hanging out late with rwd and gang the previous night. Suppose to meet Sharon to get some stuff but was too lazy to get my ass out. haha. Slacked home the whole day and was out to meet Tong for his fish stuff. Out at 5 ish and cabbed to 201. Got his stuff and cabbed back. Met Keong and Felky for dinner at 820. Ocha was next.
It was rather early at 8 ish when the rest decided to head for my place to stayover. Mahjong session is on with the mini mahjongs. Had the game till 1 ish. Senget then joined at 1 ish for the stayover. Tong went back, then came along Charis and Khia Seng.
Suppose to watch the Brazil match but I was tired that I fell asleep. Khia Seng and Charis went back after the match and the rest stayed over.
23rd Jun.Fri.
Keong and Felky headed home in the morning while Senget stayed till afternoon. Was out meeting Ryna to get some stuff and makan. Hanged out a lil till Senget joined us to get his present shopping. It was nice hanging out with Ry with the ntuc shopping stuff.Haha.
Headed home at 5 ish.Dinner with parents then it was home slacking. Then it was off to Ben's place as An has booked out for the weekend. Botak Recruit Siow.haha. Most of the dudes were there. Hanged out till 12 ish that we headed for supper at Mac.
Caught in the rain hence it was only 2 that I've got home. Damn tired. Slept on time again. =)
24th Jun.Sat.
Got up rather early. Chores done. Out with Mummy to do some prayers and stuff. It was 6 ish when it's all done. Back to have dinner. Homed and out again to meet Tet at inter for our movie with An,Sharon and Peg later.
Had Silent Hill. The show was not too bad and it took 2 full hours for that movie to end. Back to cp to meet James,Jason,Ben,Paul,Hock,Bert,Kuku and Boon how to slack. Hanged out till 2 ish before heading back home.
25th Jun.Sun.
Got up rather early for Rwds match at 10am. Was late as usual and the match kicked off rather late.Final score ended at 4-2. We won. Did not stay up for the entire match as I was heading for work at 12 ish. Was handling counter check-in and it was rather tense. There should be more to come. =)
Ended work at 6.30pm and headed back to Qin Yao's place to meet the rest up. Slacked a lil then out for dinner with Keong,Khia Seng,Mond,Kuku,Tong,Felky and Charis. Ah Ni,Sharon,Hock,Ben and Bert joined us a lil later.
Ocha was next then it was back to Cp for soccer playing. What the hell man. The dudes had a quick one before heading home at 11.30pm. Tong came by to get some stuff and slept after England's match ending at 1am. England's in for the quarter finals! Next up facing Portugal.
26th Jun. Mon.
Got up at 11 and headed for work at 12. Working S6 till 7.30pm today. Tiring legs I've got due to the amount of walking today doing arrivals and departures. It was fun to learn so much stuff doing arrivals and departures. I even have the chance to see the captain and crew and onboard on the aircraft! Haha. What a day.
I do hope I will be able to absorb and cope with the duties when I go solo. =) Wish me luck.
Homed at 8 ish and settled with dinner and bath. Slacking till now and see if there would be any plans.
Now life's kinda crazy and hectic. It's a good sign at times. Easier to forget those unwanted problems and stuff. Much better to let go and move on. Anyway, this is the path I would eventually need to take. Be it now or future. Saddening at times and I shall take it bit by bit.
Cathay Pacific. My bunch of trainees colleagues with our hkg trainer, Jovie! Day of graduation:21 Jun 06.
:: Yan ::
Alright. This day marks the end of our training days as of classroom session in CX. Our Hong Kong trainer has gone back this evening taking the last hkg flight. Hmm, kinda of sad to bid goodbyes. She's a nice lady afterall and I know we will not forget her teachings as well as her kindness.
Moving on from our training, we will be on attachment for on the job training next. So I'm having my 3 days off till I start schedule on Sunday. 5hrs of working. Hope I could cope with the normal procedures. I guess I might be so stressed up that I will forget all my stuff.
Schedule for the coming month should be ok, except of those S1 shift in a row. Hmm it starts at 0530 hrs which was the time I could just be sleeping only. Shall get some stuff for working purposes soon as well as decorating up my own locker.
Some updates.
20th Jun. Tues.
Ended work at 5.45pm. Homed. Bathed and out again meeting Tong,James,Hock,Kuku,Senget,Keong,Felky,Ah Ni for dinner at kfc. Slacked a lil while before heading our ways.Some went home hence I went up to Ben's place to slack a lil. Then out again heading home but U-turned to Keong's place.
James,Senget and Tong were there. Had mini mahjong game without any betting. Then it was down for soccer at 12am. What a night. Homed at 1 ish to get some nap before England's match. Did not manage to finish the entire match as I was too tired.Anyway, they drew the game at 2-2.
21 Jun. Wed.
Had the whole day of work. Homed at 6.30pm.Bathed and chores. Still slacking home now. Damn sian but no one seems to have programs. Haiz. Why is it always like that. When I have time, no one seems to be entertaining. When I'm busy, everyone seems to have programs.Damn it right. Life's so unfair.
Forget it. When you are in need, there always will be a place. Humans are all like that.
busy life it was for me as you people notice. it's all about work and work. kinda of ending the training soon in 2 days time. Then it shall be on the job training. Another full time schedule of 2 weeks. Then I shall settle down for my part time schedule.Can't wait for that. =)
It has been a tiring weekend no doubt. Busy catching up with rwds. Worked till 5.30pm on Sat and headed back to meet Peg for dinner at TM. Went to the new Hong Kong cafe at TM. Thanks to her winnings for the treat. =) Hanged a lil while and bumped into Charis as she was busy shopping for clothings.
Then headed our seperate ways. Homed.Bath. Slacked a lil while at my place before heading down to meet the dudes for soccer. It has been lots I've missed since the day I've started working.
Anyway, homed at only almost 4am after 7-11. It seems like nothing happened. But then again, it has been hurt. Somehow, it soured. So thanks to someone whom have let me know what's the best for myself. Care for those whom truly care. But again, what's the defination and measure of friendship care?
What's the point of having so many surface friends when none of them truly care shit about you. Some friends might just find a burden in you. Then again, it's contradicting. No one owes me anything, neither do I owe people anything.
18th June.Sunday.
Got up late at 1 ish and did the CX CBL quiz. Took me quite some time. Bao and Peg then came over to slack and had some girls' talk. Out to meet Sharon for dinner at 7.30pm. Tong came to borrow ezlink. Initially it was girls' dinner. But he then came along as he did not want to join his family for sakae at airport. What a waste.
Makan at 827 then it was Ocha. Met Jason at 820. After all the makan, we headed for Alex's place to watch soccer. Tet,Senget,Chee,Keong and Felky then joined. Bet 25 bucks on Croatia. At the end of 90th min, I lost 20 bucks. Damn it. Lost 6.50 from the winnings last week. Shit man.
Slacked around adn napped throughout the Brazil match. Headed home at only 2am. What a night.Cabbed home with Sharon. Work the next day.
19th Jun.Mon.
Worked the entire day till 5.30pm. Homed then went to clinic for check up. Everything turned out fine. Phew.It's time to look out for my own health. =)
Homed and cleared up almost everything. Quiz, Homework,Chores. Since no one bothered, I cannot be bothered too. It's just back to square one. Kinda of give up already. Humans.
Maybe it was my wrong judgement. There's nothing to be done. What's left could not be returned. No one understands. So no point going on. I live my life now.
Just to let whoever's reading, this is my own space and blog. I speak what's on my mind. Hence, I'm not trying to promote any groupthink. It's my freedom of speech as long as I did not mention anyone in particular. Thanks for respecting. Or else please kindly step out and no one asked for your views.
alright i have no time to update my posts. the past four days have been training and more training at CX. It's good to have something to do now. But then, somehow I still have yet to adapt to it. I know I will have to let things go sometimes.
Training period is so long and tough. I can't wait to settle down with part time schedule. But nevertheless, it's also kinda of scary to handle my own counter. Wish me luck.
Still slacking at Ben's place with Tong,Ben,James,Jason,Paul,Hock,Keong and Felky. I know I am busy and there's much to learn for the training. It seems never ending.I'm kinda of feeling the stress already.
So here I am, handling both mental and physical stress.
I really have no idea how to move on better. I wish I have the courage and answer.
To someONES. I missed the times. But I know I have to move ahead and all of us will be apart.
alright. been super packed with activities for the past week of last rotting days. updates.
07 Jun.Wed.
Had graduation ceremony at 5pm. Met Ryna and Jessica at 3.45pm and headed off to register for the event. Met up loads of our own people and it's photo taking time. Crapped abit here and there before meeting my parents and settled for the event itself.
Wow. To think back,it's been a wonderful 3 years. Been through ups and downs of school life, social life and sutffs. The days at biz park, library,mushroom, lectures and tutorials. Endless crap and memories with me. People whom walked in and out of my life, giving me moments of joy and pain.
We've all been through and grown up. Be it mentally or physically. I'm proud to say that we have all matured and done well to get to where we are now. Move on ahead to the uncertainties and blessing everyone to do well. =)
The ceremony too place at 5 sharp. Kinda of nervous to think that we've to get up on stage to receive our diploma. My mind was in a blank and all I could think of is not falling or tripping myself while walking up the stage. But I've got it! Hoping that I did not let my parents down and they would be as proud as I am.
It took less than 2 hrs for everything to end and it was my last official day at TP! Woohoo!! I will miss that place no matter what. =) Hanged around for photo taking and waved our goodbyes before everyone get to meet up.
Headed back with Mummy and Daddy to get dinner. Homed at 8. Settled and bath. Out to meet James and An at 9 ish and cabbed to Zouk for partying! Celebration for graduation as well as bidding our last party before An's NS on Friday.
Kakis joined such as Kuku,Tet,Jason,Senget and Alex together with their colleague Cindy. Club non-stop and had a couple of new drinks. Was a lil tipsy and stopped at 2 ish. The rest went on till party ends at 3am. Homed at 4-ish.
08 Jun.Thurs.
Got up late at 2pm. Rot the entire day home. Too tired and lazy to go anywhere. It was only night time when I headed out to meet Tong,James and Jason to slack a lil while before soccer. Headed to Ben's block to get stuff and bumped into Ben's mum. Chatted a lil while before heading for central park.
Final night soccer An before his enlistment the next day. The dudes had a great time from bball court to hockey court. What a night it was. Then it was 7-11 and hanged out till 3 ish. Wishing all the best for our captain and Sharon if you are reading this, don't be too sad. We will look over for you till 2 weeks later. Haha.
09 Jun.Fri.
Got up early as our cousins are having outing. It was cycling at East Coast initially. But due to the bad weather, we had change plans for lunch and movie at Marina Square. Aunt picked me up at 11 ish with Pearlyn,Ryan and Boon. Met Joyce at MS. Lunched at 12 ish and walked around. Brought the kids to arcade before our show at 1.30pm.
Loads of kids. Damn. Had the kids' movie of CARS. Not a bad show. Entertaining. Thanks to Aunt for her treat on the movie.It was a day of shopping around from MS to Suntec then to Bugis. Bringing kids around could be a nice thing to do once in a blue moon.
Had Carls' Jr cause of fatty Boon's craving. Hunt around for neoprint taking from Suntec to Bugis. Took neoprints with the kids and it was arcade before heading our way home.
Homed at 8 and thanks to Aunt for picking us up at inter. Out to have late dinner with parents. Back to bath and settle down.
Stay over tonight. Might be the last for the time to come. Working on Monday already! Tong,James,Jason,Keong and Felky came over at 11 ish just before the 1st match of World Cup 2006. Germany vs Costa Rica.
Had a gruesome movie after the match which named Hostel. Recommended by Senget. Thanks to him when he brought over the dvd at 1 ish. What a movie that made me feel so damn disgusted. Argh. If you are in for some puking session then I will recommend this movie to you. Or else, don't watch it.
The others stayed on for PS 2 gaming while Jason headed home. Had a bad stomach in the middle of the night and stood by the toilet for almost an hour. Argh. Back to join the dudes but slept at 7am.
10 Jun.Sat.
The 2nd day of stayover. All of us slept like nobody's business except for James. He gamed over the night as usual till the end of stayover. I guess no one else except Jason could beat him. Brothers.
Had fried rice for lunch thanks to Tong whom volunteer to cook and help out. He thought his fried rice is something to be proud of. Did some marketing at Cold Storage with Felky and met Ah Ni. Then she went home while we headed home for late lunch.
Busy with the fried rice in making. Had makan then back to sleep while the dudes had the game going on. It was 7 that they headed home for bath and stuff. Met Tong and Jason at 8 ish to go over Ben's place for gathering of England's first match. Paul,Hock,Mond and Kukus were there. Was not the best play for them as it could be better.
Stayed on for the next game of Sweden. It was a better play that was not boring. Headed home at 2 ish when the 2nd game ended. Home to continue the final match of the day. Slept only at 5.30am.
11th Jun.Sun.
Woke up early in the morning at 8.30. I was late as it was meeting up at 8.45am for the soccer match at 11am. Venue : Yishun. Wth. I was not the only one who was late. It was almost 9.30 when we left Ben's block. Headed for interchange and took 969 all the way to Yishun.
Got to the field in time for the match. Kicked off at 11 ish. It was a tough match with the muddy field due to bad weather in the morning. Final score: 3-2. Rowdees won but still not yet the best and beautiful one. Nvm, we will still try our best the next time round. WO MEN HENG QIANG!
It was so damn hard to get a cab back to 820. Got drenched in the downpour. Took the bus out to Yishun interchange. It took us awhile to cab back. Thanks to Mond who forgets about having an umbrella in his bag. Cause it resulted us in getting more drenched.
Met the rest up for makan at 820.Then it was Ocha then homed. What a weather now. Just bathed and settled down. So work's officially starting for me tomorrow! Kinda of excited but still uncertain of certain stuffs. But hopefully I will be able to get off on July 1st.
The much anticipated job awaits me. Wish me luck then. With the challenges ahead.
I'm tired to go on. Yet, I'm still deceiving.
I HAVE GRADUATED!!!! Goodbye TP.
:: Yan ::
Proud parents of their daughter. =)
:: Yan ::
Someone spoilt the picture.
:: Yan ::
TB048 in 2003. the KC girls.
:: Yan ::
Classmates we were. What's with the diploma posing.
:: Yan ::
Notice someone wearing kinda of different from the crowd? Is not that she broke the dress code. But she's rushing off for wedding dinner that she changed once the ceremony is over.
:: Yan ::
We've always wanted it. We've got in and now, WE HAVE MADE IT! let
:: Yan ::
This babe got herself a spot in SMU. Way to go girl!
:: Yan ::
this babe went through tons of stuff with me. and now, we are proud 38 graduates of TM!
:: Yan ::
this is it. Diploma In Tourism Management. 3 years gone.
:: Yan ::
3 years of "hard work".
:: Yan ::
07/07/2003. First day of school. TP's the place.
:: Yan ::
been busy for the past few days. it's the last week of my rotting days. 4 months past. it's time to move on.
alright shall update first.
04th Jun.Sunday.
Resting well home the entire day.Out at 9 meeting Tong,Fai,An and Sharon to slack at James' block.A couple of the rest joined such as Keong and Felky. Hanged out till 12 and headed home. On the phone with the ladies. Somehow, thanks to their reminders. But somehow it's too late to realise myself and by means of ending it, it will meant pulling the handbrake, causing an accident.
05th Jun.Monday.
Headed to TM myself to get my pair of new shoes for graduation. Bought back lunch for bro and me. Kept busy at home and it was meeting up in the night for Fisherman session. Met Tong,James and An at 10 ish. Bumped into Bert and Kuku with Denise. Ben and Paul joined.
The 4 of us left for Fisherman. Cabbed. Found the spot. Had the drinking started. Nice ambience. Just chilling and relaxing. Recollecting lots of memories. Secondary school days. Kinda of crap to think back how we knew each other. Till now, it's been the 7th year.
We just have to grow up. Things just have to be let go. It's kinda of sad but this is the package of life. What to do. Time don't stop. It kept on going.
Happy moments usually ends fast. Got our asses moving at 3 ish and went for the playground. Had crazy time at the swing and that ride which I don't have any idea what's that called. But just the childhood ride I used to love.
Cabbed home and it was already 4 ish. Bathed and tv-ed.Slept.
06th Jun.Tuesday.
Met Sharon to accompany me for my top shopping.After a few rounds of shopping, I've finally found what's for me. After shopping, it was back to Ben's place to meet An for dinner. Out to 820 while Ben and Paul continued their mahjong.
Had fav fish soup. Then sending An to the bus stop as he's heading for his bike lesson at CDC. Sharon went up to get her stuff. Then Ocha to meet Bao. Heading home to meet Tong on the way. My place to slack. Soccer at 10.30pm. Bao headed home and the rest went down.
Soccer till 2 ish and went for 7-11 hang out. Secondary school memories again. I guess pretty much people of our age tends to talk alot about secondary school stuff. Those are the best moments of teenage life. =)
Homed at 3 ish.Slept at 4 ish.
I'm preparing for grad ceremony soon. It's the end of my education life. Till I proceed for SIM next year. Moving on to another part of life. It takes courage to do so.
Kuku behind you!
:: Yan ::
the night after OCH. Do i look like one?
:: Yan ::
we are trying to prove that we are ok and a memo of being outside eski.
:: Yan ::
This is the result of drinking a lil too much. Spot the similiarity.
:: Yan ::
This is the result of drinking a lil too much. Spot the similiarity.
:: Yan ::
This was taken when I was not 100% sober.
:: Yan ::
This was taken when I was not 100% sober.
:: Yan ::
This is the place. that got people drunk. Ryan's Bar.
:: Yan ::
Eski Bar. get a feel if you can.
:: Yan ::
Updates for the weekend.
01 Jun.Thursday.
Homed the entire day. Dinner with parents. Had a nice dinner. Simple fav dishes. Back home. Out to meet Tong and James at 10 ish. Heading for Boat Quay again. Met Tet,An and Paul at the bar at 11 ish. Drink, drank,drunk. 4 bottles of Chivas. I was almost there. Puked. Spinning head. Tired.
What's the point? Just to get myself numb. Stupid it was. But it doesn't makes any difference cause it's already damn stupid of me in the first place of commiting myself.
Hanged out till 4 ish waiting for 2 drop dead drunk people to wake up. Tong and Paul. Then cabbed home with Paul and Tet. K.O at 5 ish.
02 Jun.Friday.
Suppose to meet up Ryna. But had a lil hang over. Monday shall be then. Got up finally at 2 ish. Tong called. Heading for my place with James and Keong. Vcd-ed.Slacked. Same routine. Keong headed home for dinner. It was 8 ish when we headed for airport with subway peeps. Sending Chun Kiong's flight.
Met An,Bert,Kuku,Paul at 8 ish and took 34.Met Rykiel and Priscilia at the airport. They had popeyes.Hanged out a lil at the airport and it was cabbing back to cp for soccer.
Same routine. Water purchase. Back to hockey court for some exciting soccer watching with matches againest other teams.
Thanks to those police. Ended at 2 ish. Then it was 7-11 time. Hanged out a lil before heading back at 3 ish.
03 Jun.Saturday.
Got up at 1. chores done. Out to meet Kit and Huijun for Kbox! 5pm Cityhall. Bumped into Vivian and finally met her up at MS food court. Wow. I must go for shopping one day at MS. It's a total makeover. Big and nice place for food and shopping.
Headed for Kbox at 6 and started singing my fav songs. Non stop of Jolin and Rainie. Yvonne and husband joined us an hour later. K all the way till 9pm. Had a ride to Kallang MRT thanks to Vv's friend. They headed for supper while I met up Senget and Alex back to tamp.
Homed first. Had late dinner of the leftover Lor Mai Kai. Out to meet Senget,James and Jason at 7-11. OCH outing. Wth right.Kinda of childish to visit those secondary school kids adventure.But still we went on. Keong,An,Tong,Sharon and Felky joined us later.
Cabbed down at 11 ish. Met Bert,Kuku,Tet and Ah ni. Finally, went in at 12 ish. Woohoo. This time round was exploration of the entire hospital.Damn dark and stains could be tracked. Eerie noises could be heard too. Had an hour of tour inside out. What an experience.
Out at 1 ish. Walked down and head our way for cabs. Back to 844 for 7-11. Hanged out till 2.30am and homed with Jason getting some vcds. He will be having his P-O-P soon.
Last week of HOLIDAYS. Or should I say rotting days.Work's starting Jun 12th. 9-6pm for the first 2 weeks of training. Then it shall be on shift.Looking foward to a new kind of exposure.
Time is running out. I know it's time to let and go. No excuses that I've found to cover myself up.This is not going on anymore. I'm really freaked out and tired over the same shit. Ups and downs. the happiness are what I've pretend to be. I know at times, deep inside, I'm not that happy person I was.
The heart bleed. Non-stop for now.
Each individual is entitle to their life. The way they wanna live. Usually, people would envy each other's life somehow. I'm one of them.
But what's the point? Why can't I envy my own life? Because there's almost nothing to be happy about. People may see me as a vibrant girl full of happenings. But in fact, behind all these, there are things which I could not even spell out.
The pain I wanted to shout out. I know I could not. The way to keep myself happier would be pretend and pretend. Till the day I couldn't, I know I will have to leave it all behind.
There could be the smiles again. For now, I know I can't. I will have to go on pretending.
Updates first.
29th May.Monday.
Been home the entire day due to FLU. Bad bad one. It was only in the night when I was out meeting Senget for his dinner. Bumped into Khia Seng and Charis. Makan at 827. Then Ocha. Keong and Felky then joined us later at Mac. Slacked and crapped till midnight when I was heading home.
Waiting for Tong's call to pass him his stuff. Met up at 3 ish. He was high by then after the drinking session with Chris and An. Slacked a lil at 7-11 then it was sending him home due to his not so sober situation. Home at 4 ish.
30th May. Tuesday.
Still not that well but much better. Home the enitre day with Bao,Mond and Senget at my place to watch vcd. Creep was a bloody and gross show. After the couple left, it left with Senget and me to meet An and Sharon for dinner. Same routine at 820 then Ocha. Back to meet Tong up to slack a lil by the block. It was 10.30 when An and Sharon headed home. Hanged out a lil then it was home at 11 ish.
31st May. Wednesday.
Homed the entire day. Was supposed to meet up Ry and Jessica for coffee but flu got me down. Was back to Tp for lunch with An,Paul and Hock. It was in the evening that Tong called. Met up at 8 ish then out to 827 to meet Paul,Ben,Mond,An,Sharon and Bao. Heading for Boat Quay. Wth.
Mond and Bao headed for Yishun. Cabbed down to Boat Quay at 8.30pm. Ryan's Bar the place. Just next to Eski Bar. Not a bad place but still I prefer clubbing. =) Chill out and had a couple of drinks. Ktv-ed too. But drank way too little due to flu. I hope to get better by Sat as I will be meeting Vf peeps for Ktv. Argh.
Back to Tamp after getting a Merz cab. Woo it was damn good. Not that I've nv tried it before but by sitting in the front seat, it's a better feel of the car.Soccer action at 11. Reached at about 11.45pm. Hanged out with Charis and got them drinks and same old routine.
Ended about 2 ish. Chatted with Keong,Mond,An,Tong,James,Paul,Khia Seng and Charis. Old memories again. Those secondar school days. Time just don't turn back. It just keep moving.
Homed at 3 ish.
It will be ever changing. One thing that will not change. It's that thing in me. Maybe one day it will just drop dead. To get me back my sunshine smiles without it. =)