`23.
`EGG.
`Virgo.
`Attitude.
`Pms Queen.
`Sensitive.
`38-ness.
`Irritating.
` twentysix.
` POOH.
` YEOWs.
` JIE MEIs.
` RWDs.
` MONEY.
`Hong Kong Trip 2007.
`Sarah Jessica Parker "Lovely" Fragrance.
`2nd pair of Havianas flip flops.
`tons of flats/sandals/pumps.
`Bags Bags Bags!
`LV coin pouch AGAIN.
`E71 mobile phone.
`Coach Wristlet.
`Birthday BKK Trip 09!
`Phuket Trip
`Hong Kong Trip 2010
`GRADUATION!!!
`Adidas Candy Watch.
`Bangkok Trip 08/09
`SIEW XIN CHEE.
`LOOPO.
`SENGET SIEW XINYI.
`QASHaron.
`ONG AH BAO.
`TEACHER PEGGIE.
`SUET JING.
` JANICE.
` AMY.
` Chanz
` Denise
`Candice
` Yiling
` Drea
` Karin
` Tannia
` Zi Ting
` Hui Yun
` Jeslyn
` Joyce
` Pearlyn
` Nurina
` Adelene
` Terence
` Vincent
` Annie
` Rashidah
` Rose
> self-doubt....
> Let it go, girl!
> 柠檬草的味道
> time flies....
> 开始懂了
> STUCKED!
> Unspoken Missessss....
> life is so random.
> I Should Be So Lucky on 14 Dec 2008.
> HERE WE GO!
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` YOU.
` PEOPLE whom woke me up.
` SUAY-NESS that hit me hard.
I'm damn f*cking SWAY can!! Must pay a visit to the temple for prayers. Now could not be worse already. Damn fed up.
ENOUGH.ARGH.
alright. still jobless I supposed. I do hope I could get the CX job. Even though it might be tough or whatever. I know I want that job badly.Pretty helpless once you are out of school. Growing up sucks.
Weekend kicks off on Friday with soccer action at 10pm. It was out for makan with Senget,Keong and Fel. They had KFC and Fel is such a great eater. She had two meals!! And the fact is she can't grow fat. Argh!! Haha. It was then special delivery to Tong's place with leftover whipped potatoes. It was my place for some slacking time till almost 9pm for Ocha. Initially it was some jalan plans but we are just plain lazy.
Soccer at 10pm and our new NS man Jason is out! Botak in the house. Looks kinda of cute. It was only a year ago when Mond got his botak haircut.Soccer ended just after midnight all thanks to the police. Argh.Same routine.Hence, we decided to head for Mac.Some of the dudes had supper and some slacking session. Home at about 2am.
Saturday.25th March.
Met up Senget,Hock,James,Jason,Lawrence,An,Ah Ni,Sharon and Peg for Suntec jalan.Black joined us too. The dudes had their makan while me and Ni went round to look out for my wanted phone.Nokia 6280. Damn ex can. 698 bucks without contract.Where am I suppose to get those money without starting at least a part time job?Damn vexing!! Feel like scolding *&*(%*$&($#@*#!!!!
Headed to Cityhall at about 3.30pm. Met up Alex and hanged around Suntec. Jalan and jalan and jalan. HAd dinner then catching abit of Superband.Saw Energy's Milk! He's still as hyper as ever.It was such old school days when I was so into Energy. If I could find those photos we took during our boyband chasing days, I will post up.Haha.
Back at Tamp. Had pool. Some dudes had supper at MAC again. Mac non-stop man.Bth.BAck to central park for a lil slacking time.Home with Mond and James at 1am.
Sunday.26th March.
Had morning breakfast with parents at my all time fav place.139 market. Childhood days.Back for chores. Slacking the whole day round till night time. It was out to meet up my "long lost" buddy. Who else.Slack a lil while and met up with the rest at CP. James,Hock,Bert and Ben. Anyway, all the best to those having exams this week! Another graduation batch. =)
Soccer watching at James' place with Paul,Kuku,Black,An and Sharon joining.Supper at 829.Tet and Senget joined. Crapped till 2am. Home sweet home.
I hate those crap about families. Some are just not mature enough to think properly I supposed. It will always be "IT TAKEs TWO HANDS TO CLAP". Get it? And just get this right, no one ever wanted a family thing. It's just crap of pointing fingers at each other. If there's a line to draw it clear, Then let Rowdees split. Get it? Or else, we are just us. Rowdees.
Stop all those. Please. Continue and one day it will turn sick and tired. It lies in the heart, idiot.
Bth. Life so super sucky at this moment. Family thing la, jobless la,lost buddy la. CRAP! It's just full of bullshit in my life now. Why and when did I get myself into this state. I know I'm kinda of in deep shit. Maybe being your enemy is much easier then to be your friend now.
Left nothing to cherish. I shall search for a new chapter. Move on babe. I just want the CX job!! ARGH!!
I'm damn super LOST!!!!! HELP!!! But no one's here.
Without realising, I've lost my bestest. Ya go ahead and tease or laugh at me. I've lost him. I gave up. Just like that. Those were the days. Gone.
hmmm just got home after a long night out. It was rather another rotting day for us. After some partying last night, today shall be something back to normal.
Met up Keong and Senget at 844 for makan and thereafter James and Tong joined us. It's been such a long time since we saw our MAN of rwd. I guess he have been resting well after his fractured finger. My place after makan. James headed home for more rest. Peg,Bao and Mond joined at a later time. It was gaming, tv-watching, crapping and more crapping.
It was almost 8 when all of us decided to get our ass moving for dinner. Back at 844 AGAIN. Hee, had Mee Goreng this time. Slacked a lil while crapping here and there. Been thinking loads. Hmm, can't figure out why am I thinking so much and deep. I guess I'm just the "THINK TOO MUCH" kind cause everything is so vague. Blame me for me for being hopeless. Ya I am indeed.
The dudes having soccer. Fel and I headed home to ermm get some stuff done and back for some girls' stuff such as manicure. Haha. Then it's out for night cycling.Had a couple of rounds. Anyway, I guess I will not be having much of slacking time once work starts for me, be it Bodyshop or CX. Hmm, I still hope I get CX. With work, it would be time killing, money coming in but lesser time for myself and my besties. To think of that, I'm like SIAN already.
But what to do, I need money. Loads of money for year end Taipei trip, driving fees and my shopping spree!! Nevertheless, saving up for EDUCATION? Wow, that would really have to depend on what I'm going for. I really can't seem to get something I wanna study. I am running away from the reality. It's really tough growing up. VERY.
Things should settle down one at a time. I hope this time round I can get things settle one by one. First of all, WORK is very important as my first piority. PRAY for me I get CX this time, or else it proved that I am not fated with CX at all, after sending in 2 CVs for SIP intake as well as their vacancy intake. Fingers CROSSED.
The feeling of inconfidence kills. Nothing seems to be able to work out right without certain level of confidence. Be it in all aspect of life. Friends, Family, School, Work, Love and oneself. Mine would be below average kinda of level. I have low self-confidence in getting most of the things done. Hope kills, Expectation kills too.
Will there be just someone who will listen and understand? Hardly one now.
Back from Zouk. Was rather "FUN" last night down at Zouk. Hmm pretty much spent the entire night in Phuture. Great music. Enjoyed myself after so long since MOS! But MOS was much more fun due to...ya.
Guess what?? Our drinker in rwd got DRUNK! That ass got himself DRUNK for the first time ever since I clubbed with him. Shall post up the pics soon and you guys will have a wide eye-opener of his dead-DRUNK state. Hehehe!!
Alright, more updates later. I'm meeting Keong and Senget for makan now. That 3 will be up for games I supposed.
I HATE EMOTIONS.
I HATE ROWDEES.
I HATE MYSELF.
N6280. my ideal and wanted phone. it cost a bomb for sure.
:: Yan ::
what a weekend. Anyway, it doesn't make a difference if it's a weekend or weekday. Life is pretty aimless now till I start work. Hmm i guess it will be part time work at Bodyshop now. I've sent my CV to Cathay Pacific but no news. So sad. This feeling kinda of ermm sucks. I'm proud to be a Diploma holder yet no job.
Or should I say I'm not ready to face the real world yet. I really am. I still wanna have fun.Which I know I could not have fun forever. Cause I will have to pace myself down to settle down with a proper job or career. Growing up is really tough. Real bad for me to adapt. =(
It's part and parcel to lose and gain new things in life. But, I'm still afraid of those uncertainties ahead. Real independence is real tough. Argh.
Okay,updates for now.
17th March. Friday.
Got up almost at 12 or 1. Had conference again the night before. Haha. The dudes decided to head for gaming at Katong. I'm bored again. Not wanting to go but my brother joined them and I have to be his baby sitter. Crap. Met up Tong and Keong, cabbed down to Katong where Senget joined us about an hour later. Gamed all the way till 8.45pm. Yawns.
Headed back in bus 10. Backed to 844 for dinner. Met the rest up where they went for S league soccer watching.Haha. Soccer action up ahead. It was almost 10.30pm when they had the soccer action.Had come cycling with Mond and Bert. Then it was with Fel. Chatted along with Desmond He. Crapped lots back during secondary school days.
Keong and Tong came to tracked us down and we decided to send Desmond back to Jyss for his camp.Cycled back and had a lil of crap again. Back to hockey court and chatted a lil and head back home at almost 2am.
18th March.Saturday.
Got up damn early though it was conferencing the previous night again. Damn. Went out with Mummy for prayers and it was almost 3pm when I went off first. Mummy intend to stay longer. I could not tahan and back home to sleep. Nevertheless, the dudes were here for gaming of PS2. Tong,Keong and Senget. I continue my sleeping anyway.
It was almost 7.30pm when I got up. Tired still.The dudes were gaming still. Ah Ni joined us at about 9pm. Had videos watching. Crapping continues. Anyway, it's been a long time since I had crapped. Finally, we got our asses moving to get some late dinner takeaway to Senget's place for Man Utd match watching.
Craps continued and it was 1am when we waved goodbyes to Senget that lazy pig who is almost in his lala land. Headed down to CP. Met up with An,Mond,Hock,Ben and Bert. Some of the kukus joined later and Alex and Tet as well. It's been some time since I've saw them. Zouking plans this wed. Hmm, still can't decide. Will see how it goes. Money is a problem too.
Anyway, it was plain slacking and the dudes got themselves so much fun by tearing down the lamp post (almost la), trying to aim that small lil penalty shot and Alex is the only one who got it and eventually it hit Tong's face. Haha. What a night. It was 4am when most of us decided to head home.
19th March.Sunday.
Boring day. Slacked almost the entire day till Peg came over. Boring still. Haha. Yawns. Makan dinner at food palace with Senget and Ni. Headed to Ben's place for Star Idol watching. Yeah!! BRYAN WON!! Even though I'm not a big fan of his, I just can't stand to see LEO win the title. Haha. LEO loser!!
Hock and An joined in the watching too. Headed down to CP to slack again. Peg headed home while Mond joined us after his date with Bao.Haha. Homed not long ago.Haha.
Tomorrow is another HOLIDAY. Aimless I supposed. I really have to think about facing the world and start to settle down. 2006 will be a dramatic year. IT WILL BE. Argh!! Have to face all these again. CHANGES!! Damn. I'm still weak at handling this. I really do hope I would have the courage and support from those people. All I could think of would be the upcoming Taipei trip in Sep.Hee. What's next? I have no idea.
When will this chapter end and when will the next start... CLUELESS.
It's been quite some time since I've been updating. Alright I shall get some of my stuff updated. Been "BUSY" for the past week, though it's holidays for me. Just got my ass down to town today with Fel. Meeting Bao for shopping as well as getting myself a job at Bodyshop. Hmm hoping that I could get that job anyway. Part time money to support my taipei trip in Sep.
There would be the biggest thing of 2006. Getting a holiday to Taipei!! Hahah.Dreaming to get myself lucky by seeing He Jun Xiang. For those whom are stranger to this hunk, he's the lead of Er Mo Zai Sheng Bian. Wooo, I'm so in love with him!! Everyone should really watch that show. =)
So I do pray that I get myself that job in order to get so many things. Money to support all my shopping stuff such as the billabong shoulder bag, Er Nan Zai Ji Dian dvd set and most likely some tops and 3 quarts from Gio. A new hp would be the best! Nokia 6280 which would cost a bomb. So ya, pray that I could at least work part time to earn those money I need.
Full-time career shall come after errmmm when the guys get into NS? Haha, I just don't feel like facing the real world so soon. I shall hunt from jobs that's of my interest and scope by end of this year. Studies? Maybe within the next 2-3 years. I just can't settle down. I wanna have fun. But it's so sickening knowing that I have to grow up and get myself settled down one day. Everyone else does. Growing up ain't that great afterall.
Okay, I guess it's pretty much back to updates.
It's been slacking for the past few nights. Went out for pool 15th March which is so yesterday. Met up Tong,Mond,An,Kuku,Keong and Fel at 7ish and cabbed to Simei. Senget and Ni joined later. Makan at a nearby kopitiam and headed home in cab. Hanged out a lil at cp and back home. Never-ending video watching till 4.30am.
Had lunch with Bao by the fountain at taka with our fav Tori-q bento. Gossipped a bit la. Back to Heerens for our shopping and I've got myself a roxy sling bag at 22 bucks! This was due to the sale they had. It's been such a long time since Roxy had sale up to 70%. Mine was 30%, better than none. Though I wanted to get the black one. And now I've to take extra care on this white bag that I've bought.
Senget joined us after his Sim Lim shopping. Went down to meet Fel at Bodyshop and got my stuff done. Pray hard I could get the job. Got ourselves down to Citylink just to try my luck to get the black bag. But yet, no luck. In the end got myself the white one in order not to regret missing the sale. I wanted so much more! The keychain, wallet, slippers etc! All Roxy stuff!
Mond met us at Cityhall. After my shopping, it was back to tamp mall to get Bao's stuff done. Makan at 820. Home for bath. Slacked a lil at home. Headed down to meet Tong and Keong at 7-11. slacked and yak non-stop. Fel joined us late after her work at almost 1. Hanged out till 2am and had makan. It was good times indeed.
Hmmm, no plans yet for tomorrow. The dudes might head for gaming. Hmm boring. We shall decide tomorrow then. For now, back to more video watching of He Jun Xiang!! Good night.
chalet 2006. what an idiotic pose by the brothers indeed.
:: Yan ::
outdated star idol is trying new stunts. hmm a stuntman career instead for Albert?
:: Yan ::
my friend's HONEY...
:: Yan ::
my friend
:: Yan ::
He's always doing this. The babok of the baboks!
:: Yan ::
Hotdog buddies. I have no idea why I posed with a hotdog in my hand.
:: Yan ::
Sleeping their way through. PIGS.
:: Yan ::
Hmm another babok in making. Tong receives his manicure service for FREE.
:: Yan ::
Another babok of the year. All the "Siaos" made it for babok of the year.
:: Yan ::
look what have albert got himself? BIKINI shot!
:: Yan ::
baby hock receives his prize too!
:: Yan ::
ben receives his 2nd prize of a cd player for treasure hunt. enjoy dude.
:: Yan ::
outdated star idol.
:: Yan ::
hmm, what can i say. i'm always ready for a shot even though i'm busy.
:: Yan ::
this is the "adult stuff" exposed. it's white still.
:: Yan ::
oooppss... someone under 18 saw some adult stuff...
:: Yan ::
he's always trying to act cool. no matter how much sunlight he absorbs, he's still damn WHITE.
:: Yan ::
GHOST AR!!! The price to pay for playing our rwd treasure hunt. Babok of the year goes to... Siow Qing An!
:: Yan ::
told you that the table's standing strong.
:: Yan ::
who says the table's breaking? i ain't that HEAVY.
:: Yan ::
What a week passed. James got himself injured.Hospitalised and now resting home. Leaving Jason to NS alone. What a weekend.
10Mar. Friday.
Had results!! I'm a proud graduate of Diploma in Tourism Management!! I've passed everything!! Damn happy and relieved about it. Stucked at crossroads. Was thinking of working part time and thereafter deciding more full time career opportunities. Alright, thoughts aside. It was rather enjoying myself for the day. Bao joined me at my place and met up with Tong,Jason and Hock out for some army stuff shopping for the army boy. Thanks to the army boy, we all had presents!! Thanks dude.
Some of the dudes headed to my place before meeting up for dinner. Hock,Tong,Mond and Bao were here for a lil vcd watching. Met up with Keong,Senget,James, Jason,Peg and Ah Ni for dinner at 827. Ocha was next. Back to central park for slacking before heading for our midnight show. Total of 17 rwds had Date Movie. Crap and sort of lousy show.
Soccer was next after getting some Mac supper. The dudes had soccer till almost 4.30am! Wow. Hanged out with the ladies and home sweet home.
11Mar.Sat.
Chores doned. Tong,Senget,Mond and Bao were at my place for dvd watching of Underworld. Guess what's amazing? It was at a later time when Keong,Fel and Ah Ni joined us. We had Er Mo Zai Shen Bian chionging till 4am!! Haha. All of us were hooked by this drama. It was almost 5 am when the last dude left. Amazing indeed.
12Mar.Sun.
Chores done. rotting at home. No plans yet. Boring like shit. Should really start work anytime sooN!! I will have to save up about 1k for my upcoming Taipei trip in sep as well as my driving fees. I really pray hard I do get my TP on May 26!! All I need now is more and more money!! So I shall get working soon. Still, aimless life.
It's been two years since I've been in rowdees. It played a significant part in my life. Never knew I could come so far, having people whom I never knew could be so dear to me.Though I've known most of the dudes during my secondary school days, but it was in 2004 that Bao,Peg and I joined rwds.
Back then...
It started with the Xmas bbq of rwds. We were invited for their bbq on 24/12/2003. Had fun and laughter with people like Keong,Tong,Senget and Alex. Since then, we got to know more of each other.As some of the dudes were working at Nippon Express back then. Hanged out more often since the bbq.
It was another gathering at Bao's place for CNY visiting in 2004. Thereafter, it was to my place. It was the MSN conference conversation that we got our rwd official number in feb 2004. The journey begins for the 3 of us. Rwd.26 .27 .28...
We, the girls, never expect so much being a part of rwd. It was such a big group with a couple of ladies only. We were 17 back then. Our first Sentosa trip with rwd, first chalet with rwd, first valentines' day with rwd,first midnight movie with rwd. Lots of first times.
Had relationships in rwd too. Had good and bad times with rwd. The amount of fun and laughter with rwd. Never failed to fool around with Tong, Keong,An and so much more. (This few so happen to be the common ones.) When I'm being bullied by the rest of the dudes, Mond never failed to stand up for me. (He's known for Mr Gentlemen in Rwd. ) In love and out of love. It was them (namely my bestest and besties) who were there for me when I was down.
Through so much happenings along the journey, a couple of besties and bestest stepped into my life. They are the best that I could ever asked for. The laughters they shared with me, the time they spent with me when I was down and needed a listening ear. I could never forget those times in my entire life. Never. It may seemed a little to others, but often to me, it has always been my blessing. I loved them dearly from the bottom of my heart. Each and everyone that is important to me.
Without rowdees, my life would never be the same. Memories kept flashing back.It brought tears rolling down my cheeks. I knew I would be heartbroken to say goodbye to all these wonderful times. Right now, I missed those days 2 years back. I missed those Ocha days, simple and bo liao. I missed those days I always fight with Tong and An. I missed those days where I could simply pour my emotions to my bestest and besties. I MISSED MYSELF too!!!
Alright, I know I'm being emo. But I missed loads of rwds that were so simple and bo liao. I missed them. The memories. I could never turn back time. However, I wished for some to return with the continuation of this journey... I knew something, I loved rOwdEes. =)
my journey with rowdees... loads of memories, be it fun or sorrows. rowdees in me. =)
:: Yan ::
ermm.. I had no idea what my bestest is doing. it's supposed to be 4 of us in the picture. ooopps, sorry senget and bao.haha.
:: Yan ::
this is what I did for Sep babies chalet 2004. the year we turned 18. And now, we are turning 20 this Sep. rwd.26.27.28
:: Yan ::
peg's 19th birthday chalet. Jan 2005. the "craziest chalet" I ever had in rwd.
:: Yan ::
another sentosa fun 06 june 2004. fun fun fun!!! look at our poses and sunshine smiles.
:: Yan ::
my first rwd sentosa trip. feb2004.
:: Yan ::
i really missed those days. back in 2004.
:: Yan ::
Back from chalet. Rwds "final" chalet for the twins before getting into NS this coming Sat. I will miss the dudes! Hmm I should say I did not enjoy much from the chalet compared to previous ones. I know there are lots of question marks to what have happened to me on Friday night when I was drunk. I was unwell but I will get up one day. So to those whom have concerns I really thank each and everyone of you for being by my side.
Pictures will be uploaded too. I guessed I'm so "tao ren yan". It's just like a cycle. Assumed too much. Serves me right for losing the things around me. I hope I will recover soon. Life changed yet I was the last to know.
Sorry makes no sense now. But I'm full of regrets. Destroyed something that was important to me.
his name is He Jun Xiang Mike. My new taiwan idol lover. He's so cute!!! Bth.
:: Yan ::
oh... it would be heaven if someone like him step into my life. I sound like i am having dreams in the middle of the day.
:: Yan ::