`23.
`EGG.
`Virgo.
`Attitude.
`Pms Queen.
`Sensitive.
`38-ness.
`Irritating.
` twentysix.
` POOH.
` YEOWs.
` JIE MEIs.
` RWDs.
` MONEY.
`Hong Kong Trip 2007.
`Sarah Jessica Parker "Lovely" Fragrance.
`2nd pair of Havianas flip flops.
`tons of flats/sandals/pumps.
`Bags Bags Bags!
`LV coin pouch AGAIN.
`E71 mobile phone.
`Coach Wristlet.
`Birthday BKK Trip 09!
`Phuket Trip
`Hong Kong Trip 2010
`GRADUATION!!!
`Adidas Candy Watch.
`Bangkok Trip 08/09
`SIEW XIN CHEE.
`LOOPO.
`SENGET SIEW XINYI.
`QASHaron.
`ONG AH BAO.
`TEACHER PEGGIE.
`SUET JING.
` JANICE.
` AMY.
` Chanz
` Denise
`Candice
` Yiling
` Drea
` Karin
` Tannia
` Zi Ting
` Hui Yun
` Jeslyn
` Joyce
` Pearlyn
` Nurina
` Adelene
` Terence
` Vincent
` Annie
` Rashidah
` Rose
> self-doubt....
> Let it go, girl!
> 柠檬草的味道
> time flies....
> 开始懂了
> STUCKED!
> Unspoken Missessss....
> life is so random.
> I Should Be So Lucky on 14 Dec 2008.
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` YOU.
` PEOPLE whom woke me up.
` SUAY-NESS that hit me hard.
ok..almost midweek.Cause that will mark the beginning of weekend!! Heeehee.Work and work now.Damn lots of issues here and there.I'm still coping with the pace and the work.Made a mistake due to my carelessness which caused a lil miscommunication.So shagg indeed.Geez.
Okay work aside.It was a lil after work that I took bus no 8 back to TP,where my heart is of cause,to meet up with rwds.They are having soccer as usual.7.30pm when I met Tong then it was Ocha.The whole bunch met us for Ocha.Makan was at 820 with the cheap cheap cutlet rice set for only 2 bucks!! An,Paul,James,Jason,Dick,Hock,Ben,Kuku and Tong.Had a lil fun and laughter here and there with those stunning plates stacking as well as cans stacking.Then,it was central park slacking with Jason's idea of getting Jasper for his walk. Some left,the rest went ahead.Slacked till almost 10.30 that I got home for my day.I'm so tired now and guess what, it's my sleeping time soon.
Hmmm.E-journals shall be updated sometime next week or the week after next.I'm so afraid that I might actually forget that.Geez.I'm such a forgetful one.I should forget myself too.OKay, not funny.Sorry for such degree of lameness.Stress I am.Kinda of got things and stuff out of me today.Felt so much better now.Thanks for those who listened. =)
Tomorrow shall be a better day! Can't wait for payday!! GREAT SINGAPORE SALE please wait for me!! Good night.
The weekend is almost over.Work tomorrow.Argh.Some updates here and there.
Had my first driving lesson yesterday.It was alright,not as hard as I've expected.Hee,I guess it wasn't that bad for a beginner like me.Without any chances of having the engine stalled,I'
ve manage to finish my lesson smoothly.There's so much to learn with driving.Hoped for improvements then I shall be on my way to my tp,then my official license.The feeling of driving was Woow! hee.Can't believe I did it.I DID IT!!
I was almost dead after driving lessons then it was back home to get a lil rest.Dinner was with my parents at S11.I was thinking of shopping as it was the Great Singapore Sale,but I headed home with Dad as I was tired.had a lil rest till almost 9.30 that I headed over to Chin Meng's place as An,Mond and Senget with kuku and co were there for mahjong.Soccer was on at about 11.30pm.Got home at almost 2 plus. tired and it was sleep.
Tong called in the morning for breakfast with others.It was off so back to sleep.Pretty much meeting up in the night for dinner.Then it would be an early night for me cause it's Monday tomorrow.Which means work!
Be it the good or the bad.It have definately mark some changes in my life.Some changes that I've yet to accept.It takes time for me to digest and adapt.Sometimes,there are things and stuff I simply do not have to control over.I've to learn to let go then.Swings i guess.I'm trying so hard to be positive.So tough.
It's never been the same.Never.
Oh ym god.Can't believe that I will be driving a moving vehicle known as a car. Hmm,I'm kinda of nervous being the 1st driving lesson.Wish me tons of luck people.Duhz.
Ok,my 9 to 6 days aside.Now it's my weekend.I'm going to enjoy every time now. Some updates on those weekend nights. Meeting up with dudes such as Tong and Senget on thursday night and almost everyone of rwd on friday night.Paul,An,Ben,Keong,Alex,Senget,Tong,Fel,Peg and so on.The dudes had soccer till wee hours and I was almost dead by then.
I'm so tired after the entire morning of chores.Now I'm feeling dead for my driving lesson.Oh dear.Better be alert.It's so stress driving in a new lancer!! Oh my crap.there shall be plans after lesson. Either meeting up with people or it shall be the great singapore sale shopping spree!! By the time I got my pay, it would be the end of the sale.Duhz. I'm so broke now.
Tons of things for me to settle.I'm feeling mixed.
Work work work. Valulair is alright though.There are nice people as well as those not so-nice-people. There's the work life. Pretty much with office politics gong around.It's best to keep to all 4 of us. It's the off peak and not-so-busy period now.With promotions to come, the whole office would be busy like hell. Bless us then.
My life now evolves around taking bus/train to work. Lunchtime.Home sweet home. It's such a longgg journey home that take me almost an hour to get myself home! duhz.Toa Payoh, what do you expect.If I get the whole 6 months with agents' desk, I don't mind.Cause it's all 9 to 6pm work, Sat and Suns off. Call centre would be much of my nightmare. training continues tomorrow.So far so good.Hope everyone's good with their SIP.
Missed school somehow.Missed the student life I was. Missed those people I loved.Missed those company I used to have.It's such a new life now. I missed those days.Barely the 2nd day of my internship,here I am missing hell lot of things.Duhz. My only motivation towards the life now would be...ermm shall not mention.Hee. Okay, with work going on,I will have to keep in mind about those school stuff too such as e-journal and my portfolio.Argh! Work and school.Super stress!!!!
Hee. Since I would still be able to enjoy my sats and suns, i better do enjoy.Before my transfer to the call centre.It's like hell over there. Hope I do stay as long as I can at the agents' desk.hee.Payday be here soon!!
Okay it's time to go. More updates soon.Wish me luck people!!
I missed them.
This very day has arrive.SIP. Argh.Hope it will be a good one at Valuair.best of luck to everyone else too. I just pray hard I would get my SUnday off.Hee.
A quick one while waiting for my hair to dry and get myself to bed.I'm waking up at 6am.Hell, I'm going to adjust my biolody clock back that would take tons of years. Had barely 5 hours of sleep as I woke up early to head for airport at about 10am.Those subway dudes are bosses of the day to treat us Swensens.Met up with Bert,Charis and Khia Seng.Cab as usual. People there were Tong,An,Paul,Chin Meng,Jason,Sharon.Headed for Swensens and started to place our orders.Had my fav fish and chips.Hee.Keong,Fel,Senget and Hock joined us after a lil while later.
It was a good makan time afterall I paid 5 bucks only.hee.Thanks guys. Next stop was town. Both Bugis and Orchard. Had my lil shopping trip and saw someone with that MNG bag I wanted!! Argh! Damn, how i wish i could just snatch from her. Hee,I had another piercing with the courtesy of Paul. This time I had it right at the top of my ear.My sixth piercing.thanks man.Alex met us up at Orchard and headed for Paragon then Cineleisure for dinner.Oh ya,I've a new club known as the Dan Dan Club. All application are welcome. Home after dinner at Pasta with Paul and Alex. 518 back, walked home.Bathed and got myself out again as the guys are in for soccer. After a lil while of slacking after soccer,it was home and now getting myself for sleep.
Damn with those guys,Senget,Tong and Keong.Having gaming winning eleven when I can't get myself there.Argh. 23 weeks of this. See what I meant. those fears surround me. they will not go away because of me. I hope I would just accept and adapt. Ok, Valuair here I come. Better not disappoint me.
Good night people.Bless me.
Final day.The last one. All before 5 months of no life! I guess it's been a fruitful rotting 2 months of holidays. I had so much,ups and downs.So much.Now,I'm entering another phase of life.For it I do hope it would be a better one.Of cuz.I wonder what's going to be for this period of long time.duhz. Wish me luck at my stay with Valuair. =)
Okay.My weekend updates.
Saturday.21st May.
Mood of the day was terrible.As what's going on, I shall not mention much.Cleared chores as usual.Calls in between and met up with Tong and Senget for makan.Senget headed for his jamming session while the both us headed for Ocha then Chin Meng's place for I don't know what's the program on.The rest were there with An,Dick with Kuku's people. Mahjong as usual. I had my bit on the winning eleven with Tong.Hee, I'm such a sucker at that.I will thrash you one day.Just wait. After Winning Eleven was mahjong with Tong,Chin Meng and Black.I was at my losing streak when miracle happens at the end of the game.Hee.Got it all back and ended up without losing any.It was almost 9.30 when the game ended.Ocha again then it was soccer watching time.Man Utd vs Arsenal.Damn luck Man Utd has.they lost.It was a good game they've played full 90 mins.But,too bad. Argh,Arsenal again.Can't stand them.
Soccer was next at about 1am.Had a long walk from chinmeng's place to the park.Somehow it's something I would miss out for a long time.A long long time. Some stuff unleased.Felt much better.Thanks. Anyway,police came by and of cuz it was not a very long session. Accompanied Charis home as she have to pass her dad the house keys. rykiel and her cousin joined us for supper. Slacked awhile and off we went for Al kadar.It was 5 plus when i got home.Dead tired.But,alot went through my mind.Slept at 6.
Sunday.22nd may.
Got up late at 2pm.Met up with Tong and Senget for makan and vcd shop.Slacked a lil while before all of us headed home. it's weird that we were off on our own ways this Sunday.I'm heading for aunt's place to mahjong with cousins.Won 7 bucks.Hee.Tong will be working midnight and Senget watching movie with his Mum.It's our family day it seems. The rest having movie with Bg and co for midnight.Star Wars.It's a superb action with my favourite light sabre.hee.
I'm still on my first step towards adapting to early nights. I have to for the next 5 months.What to do, it's damn far at Toa Payoh. Valuair better not disappoint me.SIP commences. 5 days per week.23 weeks. Bless me! I'm worried sick enough to be thinking more.Thinking of the worse.ARGH!!
There will be plans like Orchard tomorrow.Hmm,I'm still in the midst of considering if I should go.If I could clear my chores, I would definately go.Hee. Orchard, some window shopping better then nothing.Enough for now.I'm off to clear some chores.=)
Good Night people.
Movie marathon. Stars Wars Episode 3 and Amityville Horror. I love Star Wars.It was good. =) the other was ok but absolutely disturbing.Caught that movie with Tong,Senget,Hock,Keong and Fel, my last midnight before I could predict when will be the next. Well,forget it.This has been the worse week ever.Nothing seems to turn out right.NOTHING.
My last weekend ended up so pathetic. I will have to cast all plans aside.Cause I've been threatened by another feeling. This haunting feeling just would not go away.I so hate you for posing such a threat to me.Why must that be you? I'm so sorry.I'm so disturbed by your presence.
I have nothing much left to talk about. My presence leave when next tues comes. My new drive. New aim.those that would be gone will be.Those that leave will be left. I had enough thinking.It's drving me to my limits.No one will understand.No one.
If you're kind enough, damage my brain.
My last 4.Be it precious or wasteful. I wonder. Today was pretty much PMS since last night.I was ok in the day but now, it's back.Stupid me.Always have to think back those that made me so ARGH!!
The day was pretty much okay.Met up with Tong and Senget for lunch at 827,vcd shop,Ocha then my place for hair dyeing session and dvd watching. Keong and Fel joined us soon at about evening. The 3 of us had Mac delivery dinner and some Star Wars vcding.It was almost 8.30pm before we headed out for Keong and Fel's dinner and vcd shop. Food court,vcd shop and Ocha.So met Tong at Ocha as he went to "Hong".It kinda of rhyme.Heehee.
After some struggling of being where to head for,we decided to hand out at Senget's block.Tong came up with the idea of gaming xbox at Senget's place.Without further adue,Keong send Fel home,while the 3 of us headed for his place. Slacked till Keong came and the gaming started with the guys.I was the laughing stock through the night.I bet those guys could not stand my stunts.Okay,I'm slow but at least I've done certian parts as a player.But,it was such a joke seeing myself like that. =P
It was almost 4am that we realised that we should head home.The last game was the crapiest of all. I'm not going into those details.It's disgracing yet funny. Come find out yourself,I ain't telling you people.Heehee.
Hmmm,my last few days. My mood can't seem to find a proper tune.It's swinging here and there.I've so much in my head.Thinking every situation,every possible thing that would happen in the near future. I'm not in the hands to control anything there are meant to happen.I simply can't help thinking.It's much of the insecurity of what the future may turn out for me.Not wanting to lose those I've now.There will be certain changes,yet I do not want to feel dramatic change.It's possible it may sound.The fact is I can't help it.
I'm so freaking out because of a new enviroment.I know it ain't an excuse about SIP.But, take a look around me now.I hang out with these people every single day of my life.Even if we are schooling.The new enviroment of being into SIP will have to mean that I must concentrate on my work.It's my first step into this society.I will be working 8 hours per day at Toa Payoh, 5 days a week.For the entire period of 5 months.I'm sure I will be the one missing tons of people,tons of stuff. SIP!! I love it and I hate it too.If it was a 3 month thing, I would less worried.It's a 5 month situation I have to adapt.It's not that fast as it seems. 23 weeks without leave,without much of a life.
Before I realise,I'm left with 3 days,then 2 then 1 then SIP commences.What the hell.It's the feeling of knowing your own death day. I will miss school for sure.But I will not miss my exams.That's for sure. I will miss my mates,my 38s,my bestest and besties.
Bestest, Tong.I don't know what it would be like for myself to get into SIP.I know it would be tough for this kind of spoilt brat to work and not have fun.You know I will definately miss you and your company.So for the 5 months,don't leave me anywhere.Just be here and there. I'm so so so afraid the dependence and bond will be different.I dunno why but promise me always.No matter where you are.Remember me.
Besties,Chanz,Bao and Peg. I know we are far away already.Now we are even further with my work. Bao we may meet up after our work somewhere in Yishun cause it's still nearer to Toa Payoh.Peg,I guess we will have to meet up the usual way,my place if I do have the off day on Sunday.Chanz, we shall meet for shopping every payday or have feast. We will both be busy working!!As usual, I will miss your company,those talk times, those late nights sleepover.After 5 months, I will be back.We shall make up for it after I've regain my freedom.
Peeps, Senget,Keong,Fel,An,Paul. I know la, without my noise it's a pleasure.But for sure I'm going to miss everything.Every scolding I've got,beating,fighting and arguing.I might not have the chance to fight back anymore.Time is so precious when SIP is here. I will try to meet you guys up,having some time.I don't know if you guys are that kind enough to meet or even see me.But I will be there to haunt you guys down during my off days.Hee.
38s.Ryna,Ling and Jessica.Oh my, my closest people of Tp.Thanks for making those Tp days fun to be studying at.It's never ending gossips,38s,crazy time out together.Even in lectures, we have our own way of surviving through through those boring ones. Now,SIP seprated the 4 of us into different companies.Oh my,I wonder how would it be 5 months of no life office situation.No more 38. but i still have Jess.Heehee.The old one.Let's get our time when sem 2 starts.I will miss you girls badly!
Mates of Tm, Drea,Ryl,Marilyn,Jess,Tracy.... These people are a difference in my tp life. These girls are always that happening to keep the life going.We are all being so seperated,except for Jess cause we are in Valuair! Let's conquer our campus when we are all back from SIP! We are the damn proud ones to be the seniors of our cohalt.Wish everyone tons of luck in the journey of SIP. Argh,let's get it done and over with for 5 months.
I hope I did not leave anyone out that would be in my life.I'm feeling so worried now.Everything about SIP.The worse fear of losing vibrant things in my life.I know I'm so hard up.I can't let go.I simply can't. My feelings betrayed me.they always do.
Final 3. *Enjoying every moment to the fullest. Please do not disturb.*
Nothing much to talk about anymore. There are no such crap known as promise. It's just a way of giving people hope,making someone down.Promises are meant to be broken.People break them without them knowing.No human is perfect.There's nth to be blame about.
I've heard too much.It's hard for me to digest every single word at this hour,at this moment. Hmm,maybe I'm born a spoilt brat. The one without brain to think for people. I'm that irritating.I shall be "no-to-be-seen" soon.I know deep in my heart tons of people couldn't stand the way I am.Why should they in the first place. I'm unreasonable, irritating,brainless,spoilt brat, the one who posess nothing.No looks,figure,brain,attitude or what.I'm the worse sucker in this world.
I'm not leaving this world.I'm leaving my life. Enough.I need no sympathy.
Uh huh.This is the perfect one.Brilliant pic taken.Stay tuned for second set of pics which I have yet to receive.
:: Yan ::
Okay.mixture of guys and girls.the story goes....Ms Felky is going bonkers with her signature evil laughter. Keong seems to be having a hard time with her,it's well expressed in his face.The rest are nuts already.
:: Yan ::
Like I mention. We ain't Hollaback girls.haha. This one turned out well.Guys aside please.
:: Yan ::
Blah!! Here we are,the rwds' very own ladies.We will scare the shit out of rwd.WHo say the guys are better? Girls rules.
:: Yan ::
What are we doing??? Hmm,I'm not sure.We are just out of ideas on posing.
:: Yan ::
Try something better .Not a bad try this time round.
:: Yan ::
violence in the house.someone is trying to be the scary ghost.FAILED.Can't you see we were laughing my dear Bao.
:: Yan ::
I'm left with the final 6 days of fun and joy.Or should it be pure laziness.Duhz.People,SIP commencing officially next week!! 23weeks of work,crap,tireness and no life. I hope Valuair would be different.I hope to meet nice people,bosses,colleagues and nice enviroment to work in. Bless me. =)
Okay,I'm falling sick,down with flu. I was simply stucked home the whole day through.Got up after several calls from several people.First it was Alex asking for mahjong then Tong asking me to pass him his stuff.Got myself back for lunch,cooking some porridge as I was in the condition to eat other stuff.No appetite. After makan was the usual vcding then nap till evening.Tong called several times to meet up for dinner.Met up with him and Senget and off we headed for dinner at 828.Eating Nasi Briyani in my condition.No kidding.Vcd shop for vcds.The crap thing was being two person renting the same movie.Why can't we just rent one and watch it at my place?duhz. It was Ocha then it was Prime to get some cooling drink.Walked home and I'm home this early.
Now, I'm a lil bored.Will be watching my vcding later or tomorrow as I will be having the time. Planning to head down for CDC again for my PDL. I'm still not getting my instructor anywhere.Recommendations please? I'm so indecisive in getting which instructor.Argh. I will be having a hard time to adapt to my new working life.With work to be done,SIP school stuff,chores responsibilities,family and friends.Wow.Call me a super busy women of the 21st Century.My life will be packed with different activities. Week 23 better come faster just like how my past semesters are.
I'm going to miss lots of things for sure.Fun,biz park pork chop,my 38s,my bestest and besties,family.Everyone in my life. Oh gosh.it sounded as if I'm leaving this place for good.Heehee. I will be back. A better me in week 23.I can't wiat for SIP to start and end so I will get my holidays!! Will be saving up for a lil trip with Chanz for that one week break.I will have to spend my allowance wisely, for both my driving lessons as well as holiday trip.Hmm,there are lots I wanna do.New hp,hair makeover, more clothings and cosmetics! that will be a bomb every month.Heehee. I'm born a spendthrift.I have big problem with saving for the rainy day. First things first,my driving license and saving up for holidays.Heehee.
SIP. SIP. SIP.I'm crazy.I hope i do not forget any of those classroom session with my LOs as well as my e-journals as well as my portfolio.Everything counts.Here I am,into my final year of studies.Time zooms real fast.I'm with TP for almost 2 years.NOw,I'm left with my final year.
Wish me luck.Lots of them.Thanks.
hmmm.this shall be my last week of hols for my entire 6 months to be.I really wonder how could I adapt to the great change of my life next week onwards.The tough goes on tougher.Bless me then.
I was pretty much tired after all those playing and havoc from chalet.Got up this early morning at about 10.45am after getting a call from Tong. Yawns.Couldn't get myself up immediately.Met him half an hour later to head for Tampines Mall to get his precious ear studs.Cabbing was the usual as this guy is being rich,not knowing where to spent his money.After some 77th Street and Montip, we headed back to his place as his sister was locked out.It was then makan at 827,vcd shop.BAck to my place for studying.
Instead of that usual studying mode,it was vcding.duhz.I was already falling asleep.Senget,Keong and Fel soon joined us in the afternoon.The only one that was studying was Tong.Hardworking schoolbuy huh.Naruto filled the entire afternoon with the rest of them.I was asleep by evening.I'm that tired.Tong joined his mates for studying after his friend picked him up.It was almost 8 that he got back to my place and met us and decided to head for makan at 826.After makan was usual Ocha. Slacked till almost 10pm that all of us started to walk home. We had topics going about those Jyss times.Dear i missed those times.My secondary school days.Those were simple and innocent.Now,my world has changed.A complicated one.
Time seems so precious now.Every moment ticking,I'm facing.I will have to adjust myself into work mode.Those 9 to 5 kind of hours and life for half a year.Both bad and good to look foward.It's another level of challenge.Face it girl.You can make it.That's the bottom line of the day telling myself that everything will turn out fine.
Some incidents i remembered during the chalet.It was my stunt.I fell from the stairs in the dark.Can't blame me.It was dark and I was in sleep mode.I was lucky enough it was only 2 steps that I've missed with only one eye witness.duhz.Who else but bestest.Forever he will be there to witness my stunts.The usual of them being knocked by the tv set as they were tall.It would never happen to me.duhz.Happenings.Incidents.Memories it will be.
My mind have to positive.I would build that positive attitude within me.I should believe.I shold trust.I should go on.The tough gets going.Okay okay.Mission of the week.getting my PDL applied asap or else I will not have the time.I'm still on my way to plan for my driving lessons.Who to get and when to start.Headache!!
Alright,I'm going for my vcding.So people all the best for ya papers.I'm out.
Good night.
Hey hey hey! I'm back.From 3 days of ermm hell and fun. Okay okay,there were certain happeninngs going on as well as certain fun that I would now post about. First up, it shall begin from Day 1.
Friday.
Hmm,people met up at my place after my makan at 828 with Tong and An as they were suppose to go for their haircut.It was damn crowded hence we decided to head back on Sunday. Senget,Hock,Tong,An,Keong,Fel and Chanz met up at my place and got stuff and headed to Costa Sands in cab. Checked in. Settle our personal belongings and off we headed for shopping and White Sands. Got ourselves whole trolley of foodstuffs as well as miscellenous stuff.Spent $110 bucks with that trolley and we were roaming around,waiting for the shuttle bus to arrive at about 4.15pm. Got back to the chalet pretty much just by hanging around,tv-watching.As evening arrives,people started to check in. Both rwds as well as guests.duhz. Guests of the day were Ziting,Kexin and later in the night were Siew Juan,Tet,Lawson,Jackie,Milo.
As the bbq started, Senget,Keong,Fel and I got ourselves some pool time. We had lots of ideas within that pool with synchronise swimming,"eagle catch chicks" and so on.Hee.Anyway, we had our planned games after the 9pm show.Hee, it was hell of fun. We had waterbombs everywhere. It was hell!! But fun!!! After some bombing, we were down for the serious round of games.The losing team will have to drink a raw egg each. Heard that? RAW EGG.Yucks it may sound but that's the bottom punishment of the day.
Game started with balloon stepping.Nevertheless, we were split into two teams,with Charis and I being the captain.My team includes Tong,Jason,Keong,An,Peggie and Fel. Charis's team included Khia Seng,Hock,Ben,Senget,Chin Meng and James. After much fighting to step each others' balloon,my team won!But, the second round of games was "Zhong Ji Mi Ma" and my team was winning yet Charis' team fought back. Sicssors paper stone was the last game adn we lost!! Hence, it was my team that had the EGG afterall.It was yucks but we all had the courage to take that down. Clearing up of the place and washing up after gaming. Peg,Chanz and I headed for chatting session after some snacks shopping at downtown . Headed back for sleep at 430 but did not manage to get much though with snorings around.
Saturday.
The guys headed for breakfast but I was dead tired hence they bought some back. I was back to sleep as the room was empty and it was finally some peace.Chanz headed back after her swim with Peg and Bao arrived while I was asleep.The afternoon was much of hanging around and preparing those chicken for the bbq in the evening. Headed for a dip with Senget after those stuff with Keong and Fel joining us. Bbq started early as almost everyone is hungry. It was some gaming with Xin Chee's new idea.It was hell of fun!! Damn hilarious and fun.It was a noisy night,full of laughters around with people entertained by our stunting moves.heehee.
After the round of game,headed to downtown for a walk with Tong,Bao and Peg.Back for bath and it was some slacking time till Paul and Bao got themselves into a fight.After the fight,Bao was heading home hence Senget,Tong,Keong,Fel,Peg and I decided to walk her to the lobby to wait for her dad.But,the kind of weather was such a spoilspot.It was raining cats and dogs!!! ARGH!!
We were pretty much stucked at the lobby,not knowing where to go.After sometime with videotaking around, we decided to head for downtown to look for food.the rain was better and we got ourselves 2 umbrellas with six of us.The girls had one and the guys had one.We were all cramped and holding each other under that umbrellas we had. The funny thing was the guys.There were lighting as we were walking at the carpark and the guys' first reaction was bending down.The girls were behind them and we were laughing.It was a funny scene we ever saw.Hee.Met up Chee for supper at downtown.It was a stumpous supper with kaya toast set,laksa and porridge.It was a good time out of the entire chalet.Some shopping at Cheers and off we headed back with soft drinks as those drinkers needed.
Back for bath and it was an unexpected drinking session with me joining in after some thoughts.I was half dead after those Martell and Vodka session. As usual,there were puking session with James,Jason and Kuku. Messy it was but thanks to those alive helping out and taking care of us. My head was spinning as soon as I was down,not really knowing what's going on.But there was some photo taking when we were dead.Post them soon.
Sunday.
It was hell of a mess.Cleared up some here and there.the guys headed for a swim before we checked out and prepare to head home.Headed back after checking out as the whole bunch of us were walking back.Cabbed back with Tong,Keong and Fel. I was in my lala land the moment I am on my bed.Slept all the way till 1630 when Tong called for his hair cut with Senget.Makan at 827 after the hair cutting. BAck to my place for some slacking time and Senget headed for his dinner with his family while Tong was here for tv-watching and studying at the same time the entire night. Met up with Keong at the 7-11 near my place for a lil chat. He headed back first as he will be having his first paper tomorrow.All the best dude! the two of us were chatting and feeding mosquitoes at the same time till almost 12.30. Headed home and now I'm tired.Can't tahan for long.
The guys will be heading over to my place for studying as it's exams this week. Anyway,the chalet almost marks the end of my hols as work starts next week!! Argh!! I don't even wanna think about it.Mixed feelings indeed.Shall contunue more with thougts tomorrow.For now, I'm sleepy.Good Night everyone.
People of the world!! This lady here have officially passed her BTT!! She's damn happy about it as it will be her first step towards her driving license!! Heehee. Lalalala. She's overwhelming!
Okay,my excitement aside. It was a day full of shopping for food stuff as chalet begins tomorrow.Met up Tong after he called for Ocha at about 4. We headed of for Toto betting adn met up with Senget,KEong and Fel as we were supposed to get those food stuff.Ocha was next and off Tong headed for work.The rest of us headed for makan with Senget and Fel having chicken rice.then,it was rackying for cheapest stuff and we got ourselves almost the stuff needed for tomorrow.More shopping to be done after checking in tomorrow. =) Hope I will not die out. Pretty much of rwd night tomorrow,gaming this time round.Let's see what will happen.
Alright guess that I will be disappearing for the next days.Be back to update for more after those happenings. Be it a hell or fun.Pray.
The bottom line is...I PASSED MY BTT!! Hee, I'm getting my ass down to CDC sometime next week, to apply for my PDL. My class 3 license..I'm at my first step.
Will be back on Sunday. Take care people.
Ladies night out with Peg and Chanz.Down to Zouk. I was home the whole day till 8 that i met up with Chanz and headed for Century Square to get her new necklace. Headed for Orchard and met Peg at about 9.30pm. We could not get a cab hence we started to call cab. Reached Zouk at about 10 plus and got ourselves into Phuture. Drank a lil of whisky sprite and that's it as we were without any guys.
Zouk was the usual fun.With mambo.Hee.There was even ghostbuster theme song."there's something bad,in this neighbourhood.." oh my god.Mambo's cute with all those traffic police hand signs.duhz. Fun with the ladies out.Hee.Got back rather early as I did not want Mummy and Daddy to nag again and Peg has work tomorrow. Her Dwight was there to pick us up and headed for supper at Lau Pa Sat.Had satay.Woohoo. Delicious. =) Home at almost 3am. My legs suffered the most.
Not that tired as yet,unlike the previous Chinablack and Zouk.Cause I'm without my kaki,Alex.That dude will be heading next week i guess.Met up with my new friend,David.that guy sure is a slang.omg.It was nice meeting him though.Ok fine, there's nothing about this day but fun having to club with those ladies.
It shall be busy for the next few days.With chalet over the weekend,shopping for food tomorrow night and some preparation.Then it would be a never ending hell.Or fun. Hope it would not tun out hell and nasty for myself.I've been into attitude and PMS mode lately.I guess those near me are the ones victimised by me.Nonetheless to speak of that will be Tong.haha. sorry dude.You should know my pattern. =)
Fine.Some people are best to be left uncare.I DON'T CARE and give a damn anymore to those I've saw for myself.I care for those with me. Those i recognise.Seriously those suckers I loathe better get out of my sight, which is like almost impossible.If they wanna play, I will get even till the end with those.Play on suckers!
before I got myself out of hand, I better stop. I would like to enjoy my next few days,which shold be almost impossible.I had a feeling something bad is going to happen just like that. Better not be those.PLease.Argh!!
Good night world!
Better day turned out when I got up at about 2pm.I only manage to get into bed at 7am. I am suffering from bad to worse of a kind of my biology clock.I will be in deep trouble when my SIP starts in less then two weeks time. Wonder if that SIP period be hell? duhz.
After those emotions and commotions after last long night, it's getting a lil better today.I simply love the kind of weather.Drizzling while I was sleeping cosy under my blankets.Heehee. Was clearing my chores and getting some of my stuff done till almost 4 that Tong wanted to arrange for his haircut. After hours of settling, managed to meet up at almost 6.30pm in the evening. When we got to fusion, the usual place, it was not opened today.duhz.Weird.But never mind.Headed for Ocha till about 7 that we met Chin Meng,Dick and An for dinner at 827. The guys decided for a game of mahjong at Chin MEng's place while I headed back to do my stuff. Joined the guys after vcd shop getting vcds. All thanks to my shareholder, Tong.He won big bucks today!! Woohoo, not bad wor. At least I've got the right set of shareholder to clear my mahjong debt.Heehee.Thanks dude.Such good luck once in the blue moon.
Headed back home rather earlier than all nights at about 11.30pm as Daddy was yelling all over the phone.Damn.Would they just spare me??? Argh!!! But, sneaked out at about 1.45am for 7-11 with Tong and Chanz. Hmm, the guys are over to Dick's place for soccer watching,Man utd vs Chelsea.I wanted to watch as it's the last EPL this season for both my fav teams.No choice,I've got to get back as I will be heading for Zouk tomorrow night.Partying with Chanz and Peg.Time to release stress!!! then it shall be the weekend for chalet!! Hope that things do turn out smoothly.I can't take more nonsense.Pray for fun and goos weather. Friday night better turn out to be a good rwd night. heehee. =)
Alright,after some penny of thoughts,I guess just like what my bestest and besties have to say. Trust is what I hold.I'm willing to give it another chance to gamble the trust. I should be positive if I have decided to trust. I would hold on. I would not give up.People,please don't give me up. It's been heart warming to know that I'm not given up by some. For those, I hold.I trust.
A big thanks. *Huggles and Kisses* Muacks! hee.I shouldn't have been what I was for the past two days. I'm sorry.Esp to my bestest. =)
Alright, getting in for tv now. Zouk better be fun tomorrow! Here we go girls...
Day was bad. real bad. Super bad.
Anyway,had accompany from Tong,Keong,Senget and Chanz as soon as i got up.Slacked with vcds around and some lunch from Chanz. It was about evening time when Fel and Fiona came over as the four of them decided for a movie,House Of Wax.Wanted to join them, yet Tong was not deciding not to join due to his reasons. After certain arguments and exchange of words, I've decided to join them.It was one of the movies I've been waiting to watch. I was the big gooseberry afterall. =(
The movie started sharply at 7.20pm.It was awesome as well as gruesome.Damn bloody.The storyline was kinda of cool and new which much caught all of our attention.giving it a 7.5/10.Dinner was at long john after the movie. Met up with Qing An,Qin yao,Khia Seng and Charis as they were at interchange too.Guys decided for soccer. It was almost 11 that all of them gathered as some were at Cityhall with James,Ben,Tong and Chin Meng. Headed home after some chat.That's was nice dude.
But my day was almost screwed up.I was in such bad shape.I've come to that end that I am even losing the very last one I was prepared to lose.But not in such manner and such fast pace.It's not easy for me to accept it in a day.I've lost myself.My confidence. I guess I didn't know.But it's all different now.I can't get that over.It's an big impact on me which seems a small fry to you.It's simply saddening.Fine.Probably I'm just unreasonable and demanding.It's time. It's time.But,It's too soon for me to adapt.Please allow some time me to switch over. I would not be a bother and pain in your neck in the long run.I don't want to be your burden le.I know with or without my existence matters no more.It's the first time i never feel you here.Where have all of your words been? You should understand me better than anyone else now.But why? MAybe I was unreasonable not to think for your situation.Even the last person I would ever thought of leaving me,left or will be leaving. Thanks for leaving me here. What's the point of saying when this person doesn't care of what I've to blog about here.Forget it.
Alright,I had enough for the day. It never gets better, it gets worse in the night.I'm a loner.I should be now.What's the point of every word.It may or may not mean anything to me anymore.Once is enough.I do not want to die twice. I hold on no more.Or I'm not sure.The bottomline is I don't know!! Let me have the few days to think over.I really need the time to sort out.Everything,everyword. I'm lost.
Down at my wits' end. I'm sad.Or I sucks.
I'm too depressed to sleep! I am still awake!! I want to end it. My everything.
World Shattered.
Mothers' Day. Mothers' Day. Mothers' Day.
I'm such a disappointment not to make Mummy happy for once this Mothers' Day.All I did was having time for her.I will try a better one next year.Sorry Mummy.
Spent time with my family till evening at Tampines Mall.Everwhere were filled with family.It's Mothers' Day. Tong called at about 6plus and went back first to meet him as I wanted to return the vcd that have been super overdue.duhz.Slacked and chilled till about 7 that we headed for vcd shop,Ocha to meet An and Sharon. Dinner at 820 with Hock and Khia Seng joining us soon.After dinner was to Dick's place for soccer watching.An sent Sharon home,Tong met Zi Ting and the rest of us headed for Dick's place.Met Senget and in the end we headed for Senget's place.After some gaming,it was Ben's place for mahjong till almost wee hours.they are still having the game while I headed home with Tong first.That dude is definately tired.
I'm not good. Unstable.Extreme.I have never felt this before.I was always the one in cosy arms of my loved ones.Now, I've came to realised that I've lost them all. I feel no love. NO care. Nothing.I'm not sure,uncertain filled me all over.I feel no one.I'm numb.I want to be alone now.I think I've been left alone.I don't wish to be anybosy's burden, anyone's trouble. I know somehow I am.Just like a "Tou You Ping". I can't help to feel all these.I never wanted.Not at all.
Peggie.
I know you've try your best.But at times, the more you do,The worse it shall get.Sometimes all i ever require is ur 100% attention,100% listening ear. Telling you honestly, I feel nothing but more sorrows. I don't feel good anymore.I lost myself.Totally. Find me back.I can't find myself back.
Tong.
You might never get to read this but I don't wish to be anymore of a burden to you. that's it.So I will know what to do right from this moment.I can't take it anymore.Having to lose one more, I rather kill myself.Thanks for everything but this will have to go.I will have to surrender this friendship I hold it at the highest place now.You will always be my bestest friend whenever I go.Just like I said.I've lost myself to myself.Not to anyone.I'm gone.
To the rest of those. I'm gone.I'm lost.I have lost myself to myself.I can't take this anymore.I'm really depressed. I am! ARGH!!!I don't feel good anymore.No more.Everything's gone,every stuff change.for my world, it have change for the worse.I'm at my end's wits.I have no confidence in living.I don't even know will I pull through.Something is happening to me.I sense it coming.
Dark side coming.I'm losing.
A different day.A better one indeed. Got up at about 11 plus when I got msg from Tong.Yak a lil pretty much about my mood swings and stuff. I'm still lying like a pig in my bed,unwillingly to wake myself up. I am out of my bed finally when Senget gave me a call as he wanted to borrow my straighterner just before he gets his ass down for his gig. Chores done at about 3.30pm and pretty much was on my com the whole afternoon. Got into a lil nap before dinner with Mummy.
Initially we wanted a fishhead steamboat. But it was some fish with tons of bones.So I gave this suggestion to head for interchange instead. Got back with dinner for bro and off the ladies were off for some makan and jalan jalan. Had some salmon set for dinner while Mummy had her fish soup.Jalan after makan and then Ya Kun to get ourselves another round of tea and toasts. It was about 9.45pm when we headed home in 291 with a hell of long queue.
Just then,I got myself prepared to meet up Keong and Fel for the night out.It's been such a long time to have that kind of talk. Hee, met up with Peg a lil while and she headed home with Dwight.We got ourselves some talktime. Touching on those topics.Those irritating and troubled ones.It was one good session,talking me out.hee. thanks people. Senget joined us after his whole day round of gig.Yak and slacked,laughter filled around. It was almost 2am when we have decided to head home.thanks to 3 kind souls to have walk me to my lift and scare the shit out of me with the lift thing. Try a better one next time round k? hee.
Now I am, all alone and fully awake to blog this post. I'm still unsure of what I want ahead,what's for me ahead.But,I've known more that I did not.It's for me to see and time to tell.I've never been that postitive in such situations,such stuffs.I guess it just takes time.I will have to digest them slowly,bit by bit. Now it's clearly whose what, as well as what's what. Never mind if you never get me.My circle of trust remains. I would live to my fullest with em around. Still in the midst of swings. I can't them back. I'm unaware of the reasons.Probably this,probably that.All contributing factors.
What's the most cruel creature on earth?
HUMAN BEINGS.
That's what I've began to believe.Seeing all sides of people. In fact,I grew up from mistakes and setbacks I've either made or encounter.Each time, there are stuff I've gained,some stuff I've lost.No doubt. I've seen myself clearer, creating a deeper understanding to those around me or involved.I guess the meaning of life have just began its journey.My journey of life.It's all set out for me to face them.All of those coming.People out there can be your companions,yet there are those to become your foes.You will never know who are those in the first place.But, Time will tell everything.It's amazing when you get to experience them yourself.
After quite some time,neither it's too long nor it's too short, I found those people.People who are my companions,within my circle of trust.Together with those I've found those i would apply my I don't Care syndrome. I might be wrong but I could not care much cause it's for the fact now. Cause I Don't Care. =)
Once again thanks to people such as Tong,Keong,Fel,Peggie and also Senget.oh yes not forgetting Chanz. Those names mentioned please take note.You've been selected to take on a special task. Be a man/woman.Do the right thing. Thanks for whatever and anything goes. =)
that's about it.Hoping my swings will be back to its normal mode.Soon. Happy Mother's Day to every Mummy out there! My mummy's the greatest! Haha. Enjoy it people!
I love my Mummy.
Limits. My limits are reaching its brim. It's time to think for myself,knwoing what I want. the selfishness syndrome is coming up. I care for those who cared. That's it. For the rest of the world, I don't care. It's my new syndrome, known as I don't care syndrome. So be it.
This afternoon seems bored.Pretty much for myself as well as for my family.I do not have the kinda of mood going out.But, I would love for a shopping trip.Probably one without spending.One window shopping. What's up for this weekend. It would be much of 2 weeks that I will end my rotting days,packing up for my slogging days at Valuair.Hee.Days are numbered.
Have you people ever wonder. Wonder about being what's in you yourself.It's human nature to put blame on one and another but never on yourself.Or rather people would ever use their brain and think that the problem exist just like a two way street instead of a one way.It takes two hands to clap.So my problem exists within my part.What about others? I've heard enough of talking big and talking shit.It takes time to prove, it takes to time to show.Whatever the situation might turn me into, I could not care more. I DON"T CARE. got that?
To those who are in me, they will be in me. So don't worry.I'm not that cold blooded to have that I Don'T Care syndrome acting up.Anyway,it's limited to those with my circle of trust. We don't have to talk and say much,it's in our hearts. I have always love these people.=)
Heartbreaking moments kept me thinking. I end with 3 words.
I DON'T CARE.
Had movies.Title of movie: Kingdom of Heaven. Now I see how I spent my money.I'm born a spendthrift. Met up people like Tong,Senget,Chee,Ben,Hock,Mond,Keong and Fel at about 8pm and headed for our movie.Got our tix and off those dudes headed for their dinner. After makan,it was a lil jalan jalan time before our showtime at 9.30pm.Dick joined us before the show.
After the entire 2hrs and 20mins,with my butt aching as well as suffering from the coldness in the theatre, it was not a bad show afterall. The majority wanted House of Wax in the first place, but due to some appeals, we got ourselves Kingdom Of Heaven. Rating goes 7.5/10. First of all, it's by Orlando Bloom.Secondly, the storyline goes between war violence and a lil of romance,or rather it's only abit. If I have that money,I would go for House of Wax.Anyone?
After the show was a lil slacking by the maze,with Senget,Keong,Ben and I having a game of crocodile.Hee.Fun though.7-11 was next,then a lil chill time with Tong and then it was so 'NICE' of him to accompany me home. Thanks dude.
No good. Everything is unwell.Simple things tore me.I'm so tired and had enough of being Miss Goodie-2-Shoes.What am I? A fool ? A slave? Did people even know what I did, appreciate for what I've done. Does anyone even knows and realise. I doubt so.Not even my deppest soul, by bestest cum soul mate.I'm so disappointed. Totally. It's been the same situation to mention about placing high hopes,high expectations on those people within your circle of trust. Why should I place people in the top list the first place? It's just my bad.It have always been there.
Now I really wonder.If I would just rip off that list in me and get myself a whole new clean sheet. It ain't good to feel disappointed. What's up ahead it's so unclear.I hate it. Rather should the homely Yan be back once and for all. It's tough. Determination and perserverance that I need tons of them.My actions shall speak for my words.I'm seriously breaking down. This time,for once, it's coming.
Would people just spare me.Spare a thought for my feelings. Maybe I'm not born to be in such a situation.I hate being a Rowdee, a RWD.
MIss Goodie-2-Show no more.
Deep shit. Never mind.Move on.
Met up with Ryna yesterday at the airport for dinner. =) We had lots of food.It was a great time babe though it was short.Hee. Met Tong as he was heading for work. Got to the airport with the same old habit,cab.duhz, what's new when it's pouring cats and dogs out there.After dinner, Ryna headed home as she was pretty tired.Me, for as usual would hang out at subway. It was non-stop eating after dinner.Putting on extra pounds again.Duhz.
After An and James came for their midnight shift, Paul,Tong,Pearly and I headed home. On ya,thanks to Pearly that I've got the new Roxy beach bag. =) Home at about 1am after Paul joined Bg and Co for soccer watching.
Big situation I have caught myself in. Left or right? Or maybe its a U-turn I require urgently. Nonetheless, I guess it's pretty much on my own to solve it, on my part. Sunshine after the rain, please.
Okay,just got back from my BTT.Damn the cab fare cost me a total of 11 bucks. Claimed from Mummy. I'm so broke! Totally broke!Would someone be that kind to give away money,I'm one of those that need those cash,despertately. Owning people money,having to get myself some stuff..every bloody thing requires money!! Argh!! With SIP approaching,my penniless days shall be over.hee.
No plans ahead.Most probably home shall be the best option with me being so broke.I guess it shall be a boring weekend as I'm announcing bankrupt for the moment.Argh.Pmsing coming.
Mood swings!! Forget it.Leave me alone.It's better this way.
Hate it what's ahead.
Pretty slacked day. Got up at about 1pm.Got myself my very own specialised fried rice for lunch.Busy till about 3pm when I've got my chores done. Surfed the net. Finally, Tong woke up from his nap after his class. Met him for vcd shop,Ocha,4D betting then my place.Watched triple X by Vin Diesel some years back. He's that man.Love watching his movies.
That dude was busy with his homework and studying all the while that I got myself into tv-watching.time ticks till almost 9.30pm that we met Senget for Ocha,again. Bumped into Chee,Keong and Fel.Saw Zi Ting with Ke Xin too.Hee. Got home at about 10.30pm when everyone headed home. Home early again. =)
I'm so lonely.I have nobody.All on my own. Sounds familiar? It's Akon's Lonely.That's what I'm feeling now. Duhz. I guess everyone shall just leave me alone.Or else it might just get worse.No one can help me. Leaving me alone, is helping myself towards acceptance. I'm the only cause for those, it shall be the only solution to the cause. I don't want to end up with nothing. I'm afraid to lose. I'm really scared. =(
Probably my new nick shall be Miss Lonely, with PMS Queen. My own problem. Shall not bugged anyone about it. Nobody shall come into it. I'm beyond hopes I suppose.My SIP days drawing nears.Those fears are nearer.I'm feeling it. There's nothing I can do. I will have to face it,one by one.
Sometimes, its Karma you will have to believe in.Probably it's my turn soon.Who knows. Yet, i'm still holding on to what's mine,trusting and loving like I'm supposed to.I'm relieved and happy to know all that you've said.But nevertheless, those fears still haunt me. I know you are just beside me.I feel it. Thanks buddy. =) I'm so so sorry to have cause you so much ermm, stupid unwanted mood swings or whatever.I'm sorry.
PMSing.Mood Swings.Whatever bad terms in describing my mood now, it's all there.I'm always at my end every night.It's haunting me. Terribly. I'm sick.I'm exhausted of fighting.Yet, I'm living what't left. Days are numbered.I will treasure till the day arrives.
Good Night people.
i'm here to nag.today's pretty much fine.Got up at almost 1.30pm and got the chores done.Cooked a lil breakfast/lunch which is somehow my first meal of the day.Menu of the day so happen to be luncheon sandwich.One of my fav.I guess pretty much this shall be the meals for the next 3 days.=(
I'm so hard up.Too hard up to be true.What to do, that's life.My life. Pretty much met up with Tong at about 3pm and met An at his place to get him up. Then,got to vcd shop then OCHA to meet up with Senget,James,Dick and Chin Meng. Got to Chin Meng's place to mahjong till almost 9pm and got the show on channel 8.Headed home at about 10 plus as everyone is heading home. James,Tong and I headed for 7-11.Then, as we got almost in the direction of home,Tong,that cockenathan wanted to head for Econ,which is the opposite direction.As usual,James got home and I had to accompany him for his Econ as he was not eating for dinner.Got home finally at 11pm.Bath and now.
People walk in and out of my life.Tired.Seen those things and got it over with.I'm deep with troubles that I'm struggling to get them away. Those depression days are back.Mood swings.Emotions and temper.I can't stand myself. I'm stressed.I'm sad.I'm hard up.Who knows? Who can I turn to? I'm confuesed.Lost.Speechless. I'm still in fear. It's getting darker.Fuck up life I'm having.With no aims and goals in life. I'm neglecting almost everyone in my family,I'm such a useless daughter ever in the whole world.Or maybe I'm just the lousiest person in the whole world. I'm frustrated!!! ARGH!!
Leave me alone!
Geez. Long weekend flew.Normal days back.Have been busy in and out with my usual bunch. Recap.
May 1st.Labour Day, Sunday.
Mummy dearest birthday! How can I ever forget that.Geez, got her a birthday cake that's all. Hmmm, she wasn't that suprise after having cake for a couple of years.Shall get her something big and new next year. Headed for JB early in the morning at about 8am.Met up with my aunt and uncle for supposed-to-be a tim sum breakfast.In the end when we got there, the restaurant doesn't exist anymore.WTH!! Hence,we came up with other places for breakfast and settle down at our usual hangout.Great breakfast indeed.Then a lil tour to mum's grandpa
s hometown,some place known as Kukup.No shopping this time round and got back to S'pore by 3pm for mahjong at my place.
Msg Tong and the guys decided to pop over my place.Hee, my place's a party place! Vcding with those I brought back.I'm a true supporter of piracy,hee. Mond,Senget and Tong came over with another task at hand.Hee, they were at my place looking after my lil cousin,Justin. He was refusing to join us for dinner at Century Square.Hence,the three of them stayed at my place while me and my family had our dinner at The Soup Restaurant.Anyway I did pack back some Sakae Sushi for you guys okay.Thanks anyway dudes! From my Mum. After coming back,had the cake cut,prepared myself and we switch over to Chin Meng's place as the rest were there.
Got there at almost 10pm.Slacked around as usual,wasting time.Hee, I bet I would never had these times in another three weeks time.I will miss that.Commotions here and there.Had a lil bumpy ride full of emotions here and there.Feeling bad.After settling some stuff for chalet, Senget,Tong and I headed for some indian rojak then home.I'm so dead then i fell into my lala land the moment I was on my bed.
May 2nd, Monday, Holiday.
Slept all the way till almost 2 pm when Tong called.I was stoning the whole day through.Not knowing much what's going on around me.Peggie came over and I do miss this babe for missing in action for such long time.Tong and Senget joined at about an hour later.Watched XXX part 2 while I was back to sleeping.I'm so stoned!!! Argh.Can't make myself fully awake.Peg left for her dinner date leaving us till about 8pm.Met up with An and Sharon for dinner at 822.Had a stumpous dinner and sure a full one with Zhu Chao.Our usual dishes with Kang Kong,Egg,Shrimp paste chicken and You tiao. Great time,great food.Hee. Headed for Ocha with Sharon and Senget heading home.Tong headed to pass sth to Zi Ting leaving An and I to slack. Finally, those guys decided to head for An's place to get his change of clothes and then soccer.The 3 of us were sitting by the stone table at the park while waiting for others.Soccer was on for a lil while before the police came by. Headed for 7-11 and slacked till almost 1.30am that I headed home.Paul and Pearly joined us. I'm too tired to stay while the rest were indecisive of where to watch the soccer match later. I'm home for bath.
Those thinking days are back again. I'm not thinking that much though,but I'm still thinking.Probably it will go away,maybe it won't.Some fears haunt you for lifetimeyet some are for me to overcome with just a breeze.I'm still at the side of fear when things happen for the worse. I'm holding it tightly. I'm not letting it go with your hopes in it.I wish it's not my illusions or my wrong judgement and interpretation of your words.I trust you. No one else but you.Yes,YOU.It gets on me whenever drama starts. It's so irritating.Damn.I do hope I'm not the 2nd one. =)
Okay,enough of those dramas and emos in me.Hee, attention all RWDS.
Chalet on the 13th to 15th May 2005,Fri to Sun.
Venue: usual Costa Sands Pasir Ris.
Price: $30 for each member.
P/s: Please kindly hand up the money to Senget asap latest by next Mon. Thank you.
Looking foward to chalet.Geez, some dramas is going on within my expectations.Believe me or not,they will be here.Damn!
I'm tired.Good night.
Hee. I'm here to make a fast one.I'm so tired after these two days of non-stop action.
Okay, first up,Friday.
The day kicked off with a boring one.Slacked home the whole day round watching television,vcds. Then,got a call from Senget after his soccer in school asking if we wanna head for the pasar malam outside.Hence,met up with Chanz An and Senget. Keong and Fel joined us too.Makan was first with Fel and Senget makan.A lil walk at the pasar malam,Chanz went to meet her boss,we headed for Ocha. Slacked a lil till An headed for work.Soccer plans ahead.Hence we Keong,Fel and I headed for Senget's place to get his bike. His holy crap hokkien sure entertain us abit.Way to go la dude! Got some dai dee playing with some poker cards left by the bench. The rest of the dudes came along like Paul and Tong after work.After soccer at about 2am, headed for supper at Al Kadar with Jason,Paul,Chin Meng and Tong. it was almost 3.30am when I got home.Zzzz...
Saturday.
Got up late at almost 2pm. Geez, managed to clear only half of my chores.Sorry Mum..hee. Tong called as usual,hence we plan. Met him soon after I've got my chores done. Senget joined us at 827 for makan.Then it was vcd shop then as usual my place. We got the chinese show by Jordan Chan, not a bad one with the storyline that teaches us about basic human respect.Slacked till almost 7.30 then we got our asses out of the house to get a cab for Tracy's chalet. An,Paul,Mond and Dick joined too. Fancy me having so many people with me for Tracy's chalet.Hee.Met Ryna with Alvin at downtown east at almost 8.30pm. meanwhile, we got ourselves BK for a lil makan and a lil of poker game. Alvin,Ryna and I went up to greet Tracy and the rest of the tourism people. Hanged out a lil while and we decided to head back our ways.Hee, in advance HAppy 21st Birthday Tracy!
Hence, after bidding goodbyes to Ryna and Alvin, we headed back in cabs for Chin Meng's place for soccer watching.Senget,Tong and I headed for prime mart to get some tidbits yet we've got ourselves Marrybrown meal,pasar malam food,dessert eating before getting to his place. Slack and slack was all I did,with some fighting and 'police catching' going in the house. Usual suspects. Duhz, I bet even the worse idiot can get it who I'm referring to.Hee. The guys were in for some soccer action. Hanged out till 3am and got Ben to send me back in bike.Thanks dude!
I'm still heading for JB trip early in the morning tomorrow as it's Mummy dear's birthday. I have yet got her anything.Headache!! I guess it's pretty much going to be another treat or birthday cake.I'm seriously running out of ideas on what to get her.Duhz. Hope that we will all enjoy ourselves for the morning TIM SUM as well as some dinner in the night. I do hope I've got the time to get some stuff for Tong and Paul as well as myself. Hee.
Okay,I'm worn out now.Let me get some rest before waking up at 730am!! Good night people. Be back to talk about my thoughts tomorrow....If I can make it..