`23.
`EGG.
`Virgo.
`Attitude.
`Pms Queen.
`Sensitive.
`38-ness.
`Irritating.
` twentysix.
` POOH.
` YEOWs.
` JIE MEIs.
` RWDs.
` MONEY.
`Hong Kong Trip 2007.
`Sarah Jessica Parker "Lovely" Fragrance.
`2nd pair of Havianas flip flops.
`tons of flats/sandals/pumps.
`Bags Bags Bags!
`LV coin pouch AGAIN.
`E71 mobile phone.
`Coach Wristlet.
`Birthday BKK Trip 09!
`Phuket Trip
`Hong Kong Trip 2010
`GRADUATION!!!
`Adidas Candy Watch.
`Bangkok Trip 08/09
`SIEW XIN CHEE.
`LOOPO.
`SENGET SIEW XINYI.
`QASHaron.
`ONG AH BAO.
`TEACHER PEGGIE.
`SUET JING.
` JANICE.
` AMY.
` Chanz
` Denise
`Candice
` Yiling
` Drea
` Karin
` Tannia
` Zi Ting
` Hui Yun
` Jeslyn
` Joyce
` Pearlyn
` Nurina
` Adelene
` Terence
` Vincent
` Annie
` Rashidah
` Rose
> self-doubt....
> Let it go, girl!
> 柠檬草的味道
> time flies....
> 开始懂了
> STUCKED!
> Unspoken Missessss....
> life is so random.
> I Should Be So Lucky on 14 Dec 2008.
> HERE WE GO!
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` YOU.
` PEOPLE whom woke me up.
` SUAY-NESS that hit me hard.
I had a pretty tough day yesterday. Hmm,having only 5 hours of sleep,thinking that i could have more. Paul called to inform me that he will be coming over as we have to get down to CDc for driving and biking lessons booked. Not long after i have hang up the phone, another call came.It was Tong, telling me that both him and Ben will not be going for their lessons as they were damn late already. Ok fine, then it will be morning partying at my place.Geez.
Breakfast then vcding of The Eye 10. Not bad indeed, an entertaining horror movie. Slacked all the way till noon time and finally got our asses down to CDC in cab. Tong and Paul both enrol into the motorcycle course, preparing to take their practical lessons next wednesday. Geez, i'm like so faraway from my basic test date, 6th May.By then, they have already cleared like half of their practical. Hmm, after much considerations due to financial means, i guess pretty much i have to take the option of private instructor,meaning i will have to wait longer than before i get my license. Sad indeed but what to do, its all about Money.
Hee, long john after CDC and Tong headed for work. Paul and I got to meet up with Jason and An and headed for Jason's place.Met Mummy for dinner and we have talked about my driving matters. I guess i will just have to take the second option of waiting.Argh! I can't wait to get my license though. Its like i've failed once, if this time i am not going to make it, I will have to enrol into school no matter what. I don't want to wait anymore!!!
The night was out with Senget,An,James,Ben and Khia Seng for Chin Meng's place to watch vcd. It was the third time of the eye 10,hee it was a funny show indeed. Thereafter, it was soccer action till 3 am. geez, everyone was so tired.
alright, now i have done up with most of my chores. Shall head for vcd shop for for vcds to kill my time as well as returning those overdue ones. meeting Tong for 802 as he have an injured toe. Oh my god, its not something new anymore.Injury-prone guy.
Back for more.
ARGH!! What a day, full of emotions. Got myself up after An's morning call as he was unable to sleep that early in the morning but I'm just too lazy to get up. Hee sorry la dude! Woke up finally after Tong's call at about 12 noon and planned to entertain Alex and Lydia with mahjong session that I have own them ever since months ago.
Yet, something happened that made me real mad. Geez. I'm going to tell you people a story, a story between two best friends. Best friend 1 wanted to head for fish shopping at st 21 yet he can find no one as the rest is up with programs.Then, he called Best friend 2. She answered the call and she was in confusion if she should go for her mahjong session which she felt so lazy about it.
Finally, both of them agreed to meet up and head for fish shopping, then best friend 2 head for mahjong session. Meeting time was set at 2.30. Hencem best friend 2 got ready and went out to meet best friend 1. Who knows, it was 5 minutes that she waited,and waited again till she got a lil impatient and decided to msg the usually slow coach best friend 1. No replies. Okay, then she called him,no respond as hp is turn off. No response after calling his home. She began to feel something's wrong and began to worry what might happen.There's nothing she could do but to wait another 5 minutes.
Finally, she could not wiat any longer as she have to get her mahjong kakis lunch and they are waiting for her. So, after half an hour of waiting, she left in cab. She was worried that something might have happen to her best friend so she kept messaging him to contact her upon reading the message. He called, she answered. Tension in the conversation. She was mad for him as he threw his temper and gave his attitude while she waited for that long. He was mad at her as he thought she was too anxious for her mahjong session at someone's place.
In the end, both made up within the day. *luckily*
She was not in the wrong or she might be in the wrong in the eyes of her best friend due to some obvious reasons.She's sorry for giving her temper to her best friend but she was empty waiting, not knowing what have happened to her best friend. she's worried at the same time too. She's even mad when her best friend gave her attitude. ARGH. She do not wish any unhappiness between the both of them,being such a trivial matter because of time.
Fine, now that its all quits, we shall not grudge on it further okay? *If this best friend 1 happen to read this post.* I'm sorry though i am not the entire fault, hee. There will be no overnight grudges between us. But next time if you want to sleep, please at least let me know la, or else i thought something happen to you. And please hor, do not be such a slow coach, always make me wait. ARGH!
Hee, got the idea of the story? Later part of the night was dinner at 827 then Chin Meng's place to slack for vcd of Harold and Kumar, not a bad show indeed. Gaming for the guys and a lil blackjack and it was home sweet home time with Senget and Tong. =)
Hmmm, at least I'm fine. It shall be a better tomorrow, that we will have to head for CDC to book our baisc theory and bike lessons for the guys.Do hope everything runs well. Some stuff i have realised, expections caused certain disatisfaction. I have too much expectations for myself as well as those close ones around me,esp my buds. They are not perfect, so am i. Hence, i shall be happy and be satisfied with them around me. I really do tresure. I am.
Kay, after this whole long day full of emotions, I'm dead. Good night people!
what a day. Woke up during lunch time and got myself and bro lunch. Headed out to meet Tong at 802 for his fish shopping again and accompany him back. Initially it was planned to meet up with Paul as he wanted to pick up his Ezlink card at Pasir Ris. Yet, he can't wake up hence I accompany Tong for more fish shopping at Pasir Ris fish farm with Ben and James.
Met them at 4.30 and got there in cab. There was this fish that is so gigantic that it actually scares me.Its damn huge for a fish and its damn scary la. Tong got himself new collection of guppies,Ben got his goldfish with more accompany. Hang around at both fish farms with some puppy seeing at the second fish farm which is like so ulu. There is this Chihuahua that is so tiny and cute.hee hee, how i wish my house will discharge the rule of no pets allowed.
Got ourselves back to Tamp at about six plus as the guys headed home to get whatever they need. Went off for pavilion as they guys were in for some CS action as usual. Tong have to get home as there was an emergency to wash his fish tank so I accompany him and got home. Probably there will be soccer plans later. Who knows when i get home, its nothing but trouble. Fuck man, its a big mistake to get home early with them still up and awake. Lord, just take away the devil side of them. PLEASE. ARGH!!!
I'm just PMSing at this moment. LEAve me alone everyone. Thanks.
I am declaring I'm Daddy's Girl No MORE. Whatever. I'm feeling like a piece of shit because i'm hit by his "words of advice". Its like what the fuck is wrong of being enjoying my holidays. Come on lor, there should be a level of understanding,being slogging like almost entire sem with those bloody projects and exams. I'm only beginning to feel relax and enjoying my hols when his words came. What the hell was that for. I know its tough to work like hell for the family and for us children but I will soon be going for my attachment in another two months time.Its not like as if I'm living off you for my entire life.Hey Dad, its like I will be off to the society in less than a year;s time,why can't you let me enjoy my last Holidays before my year 3 starts.I WILL BE WORKING FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE after my poly graduation. IF YOU CAN"T AFFORD TO SUPPORT JUST TELL ME NICELY AND I WILL GET MY ASS OUT THERE TO WORK. OR YOU MIGHT JUST THINK THAT " WO HAI BU HUI XIANG".
Excuse me,if I'm not misinterpreting your words,you meant that I'm not a understanding daughter and did not do my part afterall lor.If thats the case, then why am I doing my part to help out with Mum in doing chores.I know it might not be that much i have sone but can't you see those effort i have put in??? WHAT THE HELL IS IT YOU PARENTS WANT FROM US CHILDREN???? ESPECIALLY ME!!!!!! I know i'm the eldest so what's the fuck is wrong with that. DOES IT MEANT THAT I HAVE TO PUT IN EVERYTHING THAT CONCERNS THIS FAMILY????
You said once i was not a good sister, an example for my lil bro to follow. What about you? Have you done ur part? You never once asked me how i felt,how am i coping. All you know Mum.Everything with Mum. Its not the jealousy I'm vying for which i dun need that. its just the kind of respect and attention i need. I know i have been such a princess, not wanting to work during holidays and i'm always out with my friends. you know what?? This is the life i want now, enjoying myself as an Eighteen turning Nineteen. Unless one day you turn bankrupt of something I WOULD SWEAR TO GOD UP ABOVE THAT I WILL PLAY THE RESPONSIBLITY PART AS A SISTER TO GET OUT MY ASS TO WORK TO SUPPORT YOU.
When i was thinking of working just beginning of the semester, both of you refused. What the Fuck was that for? And now,I'm paced to enjoy my holidays, you want me to go and work to earn extra pocket money. Whatever you guys want i have to listen is it? I'm daddy's girl no more lor. I have my own ways of doing my things,handling my life. If both of you would just spare me and respect my decision, I would turn out just fine. The more you want to interfere and lecture me on what to do, I'm just not the kind anymore. I'm this stubborn, I will not work for the entire two months till my SIP commence.
I just so hate this side of my Dad. He's such a devil. take this side away from him. Its just a curse he had on me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT TO ENJOY MY HOLIDAYS I CARE NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Woke up late at almost half a day has gone at 1 plus.Geez,I'm such a night person now. Done up some chores and got myself slacking around at home till people coming up with plans. parents and bro went to aunt's place for mahjong as usual. I was thinking of going with them as my dear cousin jio me for mahjong session,but i'm not in the form playing mahjong at this moment.
Tong called at about 3 plus and met him for his hair cut at Fusion. Went to Singapore Pools to place our bets on 4D, hoping that we might be able to win a lil money with the sudden urge of buying 4D..haha.Got myself a couple of VCDs to kill my night time at the vcd shop while Tong have his hair cut. Senget joined us soon after all the hair cutting and we got ourselves Marrybrown for dinner. Headed to my place to watch the dvd titled Talking Cock which so happen to be the worseandlowestbudgetlamest moive i ever watched.what the hell was that and what a waste of our money! Thereafter we watched "Xin Zha Shi Xiong" by Nic Tse and Edison Chen. That was something way better compared to Talking Cock.duhz
Had a pretty simple day slacking and lazing at home,watching dvds and vcds.Was on the phone with Ryna with the phone going around as usual. Hey Ry, hope you don't mind being entertained by them.hee hee. Its not everyone that has the ablity to take that kind of entertainment from them.So be proud of yourself if you can stand their nonsense like I do. All the best for your last paper babe!!Its been such a long time since we slack around at my place with the kind of soothing feeling.hee hee.Both dudes had their hair dyed again as i was playing around with the leftover dye previously.I got my hair colour back to the normal nautral shade of brown.Geez, feel like getting a new hair colour of sopper or mahagony shade.
The three of us headed down to 7-11 then off we went home and i got down to central park to meet up with Paul,An,Chin Meng and Matoot. Hang around for about half and hour and got home for more vcd watching.I guess apart from blogging,i'm left with more vcds to watch.
I guess i won't be enjoying much as SIP will commence in two months time. I wish to spent more time with my dear peeps and buds as i can now,tresuring every moment i can. =\ Can't bear to think what might happen when my SIP life starts and i will start to drift away from them. I'm feeling kinda of afraid to think about that. ARGH!! Alright, I shall enjoy now and stop thinking of those havengettohappen stuff.
I'm good now.I'm okay now.I'm refreshed again. let me be like this down the road.All i wanted is this kinda of peace i'm feeling,the kinda of feeling i can't even explain in words.
I'm happy.
Okay, do not take away anything now,do not come into my life and spoil anything i have. If you are trying,I'm warning anyone to back off and get ur own life and leave mine alone.I'm satisfied with this,with my life now. Get out and don't get in again. I don't like ur presense at all. Thanks.
the meaning of Happy is to be satisfied. good night.
Guess what?? EXAMS OVER!!! Finally!! The day all Tourism people have been waiting for. Mgmt Acct,POM,Airline Biz and MEIT,all have been over and doned with.hee hee. The MEIT paper was pretty alright for me to handle,get over through some common sense and basic knowledge that i have for some questions. Let's see the results in two weeks time,hoping that all my tutors would close one eye.duhz.
Now its my partying and non-stop fun time.Got home for lunch then it was a lil chore clearing and off i got my ass out the whole day through. Met up with Tong,An,James,Jason,Chin Meng and Ben as they were having Cs at pavilion.It was damn bored to be wondering at Century Square for the entire two hours,waiting for our movie,House Of Fury by Stephen Fung.Senget,Mond,Peg and Sharon joined us just before the movie. The movie was a great one,enjoying myself most of the time,with Stephen Fung in those actions.Giving a rate of 4 out of 5. go get it people!
Headed home to get my bike before dinner at 827. the next destination would be Chin Meng's place for vcd watching and slacking till England's match. Omen was alright,nothing really catchy that caught my full attention which so happen to a Thainotsohorror show. It was a boring first half of England's World Cup Qualifier match againest Northern Ireland.The guys decided for soccer at central park and guess what, the score hit at 4-0 at the second half of England's match.Damn it. Got home at about 2 am with Tong to pick up some stuff and chatted a lil while before I've finally settled down after a good bath. =)
Refreshed at this moment.Peace i felt. I'm good once more.got myself a new bikini with a lil pokkadotted design which is like kinda of retro. its to get ready for Sentosa,but I'm not going tomorrow!!! Wednesday shall be the day then. Felt disappointed though. =( It better be Wednesday or else i will be so so depressed as my holidays have began!
Clubbing up next and blah blah blah. Hee hee,i'm going to enjoy every bit of my holidays from this moment,be it rotting or what.I will not be able to have holidays till my final sem.Geez, i will be facing SIP soon. I know i will miss my people.But, its another phase of change i guess. Hmm, let me face it then. I wanna enjoy now.
thats it for the night.
I'm dead tired and stressed up for my MEIT,my final one. Pray and pray is all i do after each revision as i'm really half a pail for this subject. =\ Hope it turn out well,not too bad thats all i hope for.
Alright,its the longest number of hours of revision i had in a day like almost 5 hrs? God,thats all i can take into my tiny brain. I feel like continuing at this point of time,but i'm so tired to go on. Fet everything i have to digest is all up here,in my brain. Went out to Ang Mo Kio for dinner with Mummy and Daddy and it was a great one.simple dishes with simple topics going on,about me and my driving license thing.I'm now having a lil problems in getting those funds for my drving license which cost like a bomb. got back at 8 plus,took a shower then back to my lec notes.finally,i'm almost done with it, refreshing certain parts which i'm still in blur situation.
All the best is i have for myself,not having much confidence of doing well for this paper at all. People,as usual, PRAY. it will be all over after 11.30am sharp for me with exams and Welcome HOLIDAYS,finally!!! Yippeee!! Hoooray!!! Whatever. People,date me all you want,ask me out all you want.I will be idling and free myself for the entire two months before my attachment SIP at Valuair starts on 24th May.
Now,back to notes then to bed. Its a friday night,peeps out having their share bit of fun and me, REVISING for exams' sake.DUHZ.
ALL THE BEST.
Sneaked out as usual. Never been able to disipline myself from having fun.ARGH! Blame who? Myself,of course. Overslept from my nap till almost 5.30pm and was thinking of revision during the night. Actually i was planning for revision after nap,but as usual i was too lazy.
Sneked out to meet Tong at 802 to get his new lil guppies that he seems so excited about. -_-''' Dinner was at 827 after gettting those guppies with Mond and Ben.Mahjong was next with Hock and Bert joining in, till almost 11 that the guys headed for soccer at central park.Geez, never get myself back for studying!! I'm so unproductive today.I was telling myself to revise and revise for last paper on MEIT,which i have been missing lectures that i can remember of.
If this time round I'm not going to make it for MEIT, I guess i pretty much deserve it. =( Oh god, help me!!! I want all PASS!!! hee hee. People bless me ya??
Shall keep myself home for the day till I get my MEIT done! I must.
that's it, i'm done.
Airline Business was not that bad afterall. At least i did manage to answer most of the essay questions which is like a killer.Praying hard for a better grade this time round compared to my very first paper of Accounting.Argh! ALright, final paper to pull through,MEIT which is like a big time sucks for me to handle. the numerous lectures i have skipped seem so stranger to me now.I'm too lazy to flip those notes right now.Shall do it later after my nap.hee hee.
Plans for my good friday will be studying and what else?It was suppose to be a long weekend to enjoy if i had finish my papers today.MEIT a torture to study for 18 lectures,with no tips at all. My peeps can pretty well enjoy their way through with papers only at Mon,while mine on Sat.Okay,enough of my grudges,think of my Sentosa trip coming for me on Sunday.hee hee.That will be my only motivation to study and get it done and over with MEIT. I will enjoying my sun out at Sentosa if nothing goes wrong and i wish there will never be one. Shopping out in town on Saturday evening and enjoy my holidays through!! yeah!! yipee!! Woohoo!!
For now,its MEIT left.
I was out last night meeting An to get back my calculator and then ocha session that we did not have for donkey years. Headed to Chin Meng's place with Paul,James and Bg there for a lil while and got back to meet up with Tong to slack. An and I were playing witht he new ride i never had before at the playground.it was fun yet DANGEROUS. Reason of me being being flying out and getting my ass hurt twice and the third time with the help from the both of them.The three of us seems to have play our hearts out at the children's playground.hee hee. 7-11 was the final stop after we headed our own ways back.
Being able to chill for exams at this point of time seems so amazing for me.To think back, I've been in this mode since last sem's exams.I was never kept home for a single day with papers on everyday.ocha,out studying and whatever shit. Partying shall be in soon...SOON. Plans up. Get ready people.
Be back for more.
Wow.POM over,with much confidence this time round,compared to Accounting paper.At least i do have the motivation to finish my revision for my last two papers,MEIT and Air Biz. =)
Well,I have sneak out this afternoon after POM paper to meet up with Paul and James at the new Marrybrown.If you ever wonder what that is,its a new fastfood restaurant that is of Malaysia's very own KFC version.Its not that bad afterall,that at least i need not to travel to malaysia just to have a taste of it.Ok,back to the topic of having the night out. Met up with An,james,Jason and Qin Yao for pavilion and dinner at KFC. The guys headed for CS and Tong,Senget and Ben with their friends joined us after their Sentosa trip.
Oh god,how i wish i could enjoy now! Never mind,Sunday shall come real soon for me after my papers.Air Biz then MEIT. Okay,trying to get my focus back after tonight for my backinactionforrevision. duhz. Just came back from central park after the guys have their soccer game and got home with Tong and Senget first. I'm off to bed soon. I need concentration for revision once again tomorrow for my 3rd paper,Airline Business. Wish me tons of luck people.
Good Night.
Spell this post's title.D I S A S T E R. yup, you got me.
Mgmt Accounting paper was a super disaster for me which i'm either passing with a D or fail the paper. ARGH!! This time round it was a tough one,compared to the past year papers. Pray hard for me that at least i get a D to get me out of supps. bahz.
Going on with POM revision as papers are in tomorrow afternoon. Digested almost 70% of those theory and will constantly revise them,to secure myself. Gonna bang my head for for tomorrow morning for last round of revision. Those theory shall be the dream for my night. 3 more papers,4 days to go. after all these,i shall be free for the time being till results are out. Wish me luck people,i wish those Tps having paper with tons of luck too.
Let me just get through this time again.
Exams commencing on this very day of the week.Oh my,Mgmt Accounting on its way!!First paper. I'm rather prepared for it, being practising here and there through this as usual busy weekend of mine.What's new and stopping me from wandering out with my bunch of peeps?duhz.
Friday .
Had lil revision on accounting past yr papers with Chanz and off i headed to meet up with rwd for their soccer action at Tp astro turf. Hanged out with Bao and Peg if not i will be bored to death. Got home to catch the last episode of the chn 8 drama.Kinda of bored bring home that early at 10 on a friday.Hence, i called for mahjong session with Mond,An,Chin Meng and Ben.Paul and Tong joined us after their work.Headed home after the long night at about 4 while the guys headed for supper,i suppose it meant breakfast.
Saturday.
Chores done first.Then it was a lil POM revision,busy taking down important notes.Peg came over to chill then it was Senget.The guys were planning for Kuku's Bbq at Pasir Ris. The guys headed off in bikes at about 8.30 while we the girls take our own sweet time to Pasir Ris park by bus.I'm plain lazy to ride my bike.duhz. Played the whole night out till wee hours at 4am,again.the guys namely Paul,An,Tong,Tet,Chin Meng,Lawson,Kuku and Wei Xian played the 5,10 game with Vodka,getting some of them real tipsy.It was hell of noise,excitement and fun. Fun to see some of their faces turning real red,for example Tong and Tet. After the final round of blackjack, we headed home in different ways,the guys in bikes while Peg and I headed home in cab. It was almost 5 when i got into my lala land.
Sunday.
Woke up in a daze,preparing to revise my accounting.final revision and i better get my ass serious on it. Worked out those questions till almost five when Alex called to disturb me.That kuku guy wanted my accompany all the way to expo for the addidas sale.duhz. We came back empty handed and had dinner at Tm. Got back home and went to meet up with Tong for dinner with the rest of the bunch.After 827 was chin Meng place to slack.Dwell my head into more revision practices and digesting of theory part. too bad,managed to get only half into my head and i gave up. I pretty much have to bang my head on the theory part coming out tomorrow.argh!! Had a lil game of blackjack and won myself five bucks and got home first. Exams is on tomorrow!!! Or else...as usual i would stay.What's new??
Alright, more to come if i have the time to update...Now its exams!!! Enduring the rest of the week,with Good Friday before my last paper of MEIT!! Argh!! Another distraction, hoping i can finish my MEIT revision before Friday.Just in case.
kay, I'm in for bed.
Unproductive this day.Haven been studying and revising much on any subjects,esp Air Biz. Sighs. The notes for this subject can be classified as the least,but with no excuse i should revise.duhz. Alright, shall get my ass for MEIT,which is like alot, as well as a lil practice on accounting.Argh!!
Met up Tong at 7-11 for dunnowhat'sthereason.Anyway,it doesn't matter and doesn't need a reason.made multiple trips in and out the store,as if i'm a shopping freak.duhz.Both of us chat the night till midnight,on various topics.Its been such a long time since we catch up like that.Oh ya, don't 'fan' so much k? No good for health dude. If you think there are things to 'fan' about,then dun think and dwell about it,live ur life the way you want. Maybe you should see my face often,then it may make you smile.hahaha. As usual,you know who's here for you.
Sounded as if i'm problem free. bahz,which is like i'm not. =(
More revision tomorrow!!!Outz.
found this mugshot in my hp. S.t.u.p.i.D.
:: Yan ::
Yawns.Kinda of feeling sleepy at this time,not getting any revision done as yet.Flipped through my Air Biz notes,which i do not have that much to cover compared to POM.haha.I know its no excuse why not start early but the lazybones in me is acting up at this point of time. I will get my ass to the notes tonight,i promised.
Well,I will have to get my ass down for more accounting practices,clear all doubts i am still having at this point of time. Will be back for more.I'm so sleepy!!
Study for more.
What's new for the day? Hmmm, studying or caught a movie? None of those. Nothing's pretty much new except for revising through my POM promptly,getting a few questions done from acct past year papers.
Met up Ryna in school to pick up our MEIT notes and had lunch till i got Ms Chua to get my accts doubts done.Pretty much kinda of understand but i guess more practices would enhance my understanding. Everyone is like freaking out for accounting paper la. OH my,i pray nothing just a C for that paper,Kinda of low standard it may sound but that's what i know i would have to get to maintain my academic progression.=
Managed to cover my POM,leaving with the very last lec,that i will leave it for the later part of study week. Felt pretty good at this pace of revision,will have to put in more as the days are near. Practices shall double up for accts.Hope i will get through my exams over and done with in the pace.OR else i will be like DOOM? No distractions,nonsense or whatsoever please!!! I seriously need this kind of morale everyday,now and then.
Got myself a movie named the Boogeyman with Tong,Senget,Bert,Mond and Paul. It was as usual frightening! what's new with all these movies man.Three consecutive movies of shocks in a row.GUys, something fresh please the next time round.At least i'm not freaking out much as to explain that Tong was not the one sitting beside me.Try again next time.Haha. Joking...i know its like LAME. duhz.
Got home early at 10.30 and got myself back on POM revision.Now,I'm pretty much done and its time to get my ass down here using the com,which so happen to be my bro's.Argh!! Mine will be back soon,since its been detected that its not down with virus.Its just some conflictions between my cd drive and dunnowhatsthedevice known as. duhz,i may be a idiot in these though.
Alright, hope everything's fine.I meant nothing is going wrong without me taking note of it. Felt that there is much i really can do. Anyway,to those whom maybe feeling down,not specifying who,just come to me.You know i will always be here.It will never change. =)
More to come tomorrow..Revision i mean.Argh!
Hoped? BLEssed? Confused.
What's new with that?Nothing but exams. Okay fine.Doned some accounting revision that i was satisfied with,getting some doubts and practice.Got to get my ass back to school to clear some doubts *hope i can get my tutor..* I seriously need to concentrate at this pace!! haha. Congrats to me,for pacing up for my revision. It will be POM tomorrow,hoping i will be able to finish them,my targetted chaps to cover.
After some afternoon revision, i met up with Peg for dinner and a lil walk at TM. Then,got a call from Tong for pool session at Simei with the rest of the dudes,Ben,Bert,Hock and Mond. Had a fun and relaxed time fooling around.It was fun,the fun i use to have.It feels good. Will the me be back? I need some help out here.Let those wonderful times be back, let me be back. =)
Alert to those who were there for me now and then, I've really learn how to appreciate each and everyone of em, though at times i may neglect some feelings. No need to mention who, those who said themselves will know.For me to know,for those to find out. HEeeZ.
Alright,got to run to have some rest before more revision tomorrow,POM!! ARgh!! I will be wonder women to digest everybit of my POM notes. duhz. Wish me luck everyone.
Better now.
Weekends over.Fun's over.ARGH!! Exams here!!! Should i phrase it in the way that i am beginning to feel the stress just this moment? Though i have thinking of exams here and there within these few days,i just wish to relax myself after being through so much.SO MUCH.OKay, now fun's over and everything seems to tide down,its time to pace for exams.
Chiong ar!!! Okay,i may look like a Ki Siao lady now.I am. Mgmt Acct,POM,Air Biz and MEIT. How will i fare this time round? Be it the better or worse? Wow.I've better prove myself right by getting my original position i had.At least not those just past grade.I hope a B at least this time round.I better get my ass on studying,focus on my revision.I MUST!!
A lil update of the weekend.
Friday.
Usual schooling till 10am only after POM's tut,the last lesson of my sem.Got home after meeting Alex and Paul in handing them their assignments. Got my sleep till almost 6pm.I was dead tired after like been sleeping for barely 4 hrs for the past two nights.which so happen to be a school day.Got myself into pool playing with Senget,Hock and Mond.Headed for subway as usual after much considerations as i was unwillingly to.Due to some apparent reasons which i donotwishto mention about.Soccer usual for the dudes till wee hours after sending home by police. But we headed for 7-11 for some drink.It was good to be feeling fine. =)
Saturday.
Rot home the whole day till Bao and Peg came over to Ocha to meet me for a drink.My place for Hitch watching.Met up the dudes of An,Tong,Senget and Bert over at James & Jason's place.Got ourselves some bickering and crapping as usual.I can't stand myself too at times. =( Headed to the next destination,Chin Meng's place, in bikes with commotions of who to "tong bang". After some slacking time at his place,the final destination is noneotherthan central park for soccer. WE have a whole bunch of almost 21 dudes and dudettes with Fel and I being the only two dudettes.Heng ar Peg,you got urself home!! Guess what?We were asked for ICs by some plainclothesvolunteeredpolice.Damn it was my first time.Kind of excited with a lil feeling of being afraid.To think that Tong,Jason and An talking back to the Sir. lol. The soccer action was carried on at the hockey court till 2 plus when we decided to head for 7-11 again. Got myself home at abt 3am. Tired.Zzzz.
Sunday.
Got up too late at 1.30pm.duhz.i was too tired. Headed for IMM with Mummy & Daddy and got myself a polo tee i've always wanted to get from Hang Ten.Cheap simple and comfortable. Headed for Grandma's place and get my com for repair.Damn the stupid deadly virus got my motherboard dead. F**k!!
Now i am here using my fatty bro's com,thanks to him moreorless than my owh com is dead. I guess it will be some time using his.I will not be able to enjoy my own mp3 listening and getting them into my player.Argh!!! Why am i so unlucky dealing with electronic devices and tech devices? OH god. Headed to Chin Meng's place as rwd were there.Watched the vcd titled Feng Shui.It was not that bad afterall,talking about the Bagua Mirror with spirits in it.Bert and Bg decided to get us supper and we had 824 ke ai chix.haha. Headed home late at 1.30am with Dick,Mond and Tong. That irritating bud of mine got himself a $90 creative mp3 from Dick.Eeyer someone yaya about his being a 512mb.bleah. =P
Wow,this is such a long one i've beem updating.Haha. Alright some thoughts here and there.I was feeling damn out of the world,damn down and negative for the past week.Its such a bless with those people around me,knowing that they were there for me. I do appreciate those that my buds and peeps have done. Thanks those who knew who they were.I owe u guys big time.kisses & huggles!! I'm trying to get out of the depression in me.
I hope i do get out and return to my good old days,the happy me i use to live.The one always having fun with her irritating peeps and buds. Return me those days where i laugh like nobody's business,play hell and fight hell with Tong,An and Paul. I missed those hangin out days. Something is so wrong with me that i took them all away. I have to bring myself back.
I've been thinking too deep,too much.
Get me out people!
I want to live happily,not deadly.
Am i that irritating????
Miserable.....
Weekends over.Fun's over.ARGH!! Exams here!!! Should i phrase it in the way that i am beginning to feel the stress just this moment? Though i have thinking of exams here and there within these few days,i just wish to relax myself after being through so much.SO MUCH.OKay, now fun's over and everything seems to tide down,its time to pace for exams.
Chiong ar!!! Okay,i may look like a Ki Siao lady now.I am. Mgmt Acct,POM,Air Biz and MEIT. How will i fare this time round? Be it the better or worse? Wow.I've better prove myself right by getting my original position i had.At least not those just past grade.I hope a B at least this time round.I better get my ass on studying,focus on my revision.I MUST!!
A lil update of the weekend.
Friday.
Usual schooling till 10am only after POM's tut,the last lesson of my sem.Got home after meeting Alex and Paul in handing them their assignments. Got my sleep till almost 6pm.I was dead tired after like been sleeping for barely 4 hrs for the past two nights.which so happen to be a school day.Got myself into pool playing with Senget,Hock and Mond.Headed for subway as usual after much considerations as i was unwillingly to.Due to some apparent reasons which i donotwishto mention about.Soccer usual for the dudes till wee hours after sending home by police. But we headed for 7-11 for some drink.It was good to be feeling fine. =)
Saturday.
Rot home the whole day till Bao and Peg came over to Ocha to meet me for a drink.My place for Hitch watching.Met up the dudes of An,Tong,Senget and Bert over at James & Jason's place.Got ourselves some bickering and crapping as usual.I can't stand myself too at times. =( Headed to the next destination,Chin Meng's place, in bikes with commotions of who to "tong bang". After some slacking time at his place,the final destination is noneotherthan central park for soccer. WE have a whole bunch of almost 21 dudes and dudettes with Fel and I being the only two dudettes.Heng ar Peg,you got urself home!! Guess what?We were asked for ICs by some plainclothesvolunteeredpolice.Damn it was my first time.Kind of excited with a lil feeling of being afraid.To think that Tong,Jason and An talking back to the Sir. lol. The soccer action was carried on at the hockey court till 2 plus when we decided to head for 7-11 again. Got myself home at abt 3am. Tired.Zzzz.
Sunday.
Got up too late at 1.30pm.duhz.i was too tired. Headed for IMM with Mummy & Daddy and got myself a polo tee i've always wanted to get from Hang Ten.Cheap simple and comfortable. Headed for Grandma's place and get my com for repair.Damn the stupid deadly virus got my motherboard dead. F**k!!
Now i am here using my fatty bro's com,thanks to him moreorless than my owh com is dead. I guess it will be some time using his.I will not be able to enjoy my own mp3 listening and getting them into my player.Argh!!! Why am i so unlucky dealing with electronic devices and tech devices? OH god. Headed to Chin Meng's place as rwd were there.Watched the vcd titled Feng Shui.It was not that bad afterall,talking about the Bagua Mirror with spirits in it.Bert and Bg decided to get us supper and we had 824 ke ai chix.haha. Headed home late at 1.30am with Dick,Mond and Tong. That irritating bud of mine got himself a $90 creative mp3 from Dick.Eeyer someone yaya about his being a 512mb.bleah. =P
Wow,this is such a long one i've beem updating.Haha. Alright some thoughts here and there.I was feeling damn out of the world,damn down and negative for the past week.Its such a bless with those people around me,knowing that they were there for me. I do appreciate those that my buds and peeps have done. Thanks those who knew who they were.I owe u guys big time.kisses & huggles!! I'm trying to get out of the depression in me.
I hope i do get out and return to my good old days,the happy me i use to live.The one always having fun with her irritating peeps and buds. Return me those days where i laugh like nobody's business,play hell and fight hell with Tong,An and Paul. I missed those hangin out days. Something is so wrong with me that i took them all away. I have to bring myself back.
I've been thinking too deep,too much.
Get me out people!
I want to live happily,not deadly.
Am i that irritating????
Miserable.....
Hell rises the very last night. I broke down finally.After much of these i could take. I'm disappointed.Sad.Heart-broken.
Are all these i could take afterall, being known for my strong-minded.I lost out.To anything and everything goes.I'm such a loser for life.I never seem to excel in anything. Not to mention excel,i'm never good at anything.From failures in relationships to friendships and known kinships and family ties.Its something that triggers off a small matter, yet it was like a blown away fact to me,at this very point of time when nothing really works in the way i wanted in my life. I'm like so dead for once.
Exams are near,neither do i want to do badly for my papers.Afterall I do have a level of expectation of myself. I knew what i have to put in to strive,just for that barely two weeks of revision and exams. Yet there are bound to be distractions which i sort of predicted.Please answer to my prayers of maintaining at least last sem's results, which is like bad.Thats the least i know i can expect for myself. =\
As long as I don't fail.
Alright, apart from the long night out with all those happenings and dramas, i got home at only 5am.The dudes namely An,Tong,Paul,Ben and Chin Meng got themselves mahjong and soccer watching thereafter.Rykiel joined us too. And you know what? I'm like half dead by the time i got home.
I was about to get up from the morning call that Rykiel gave,but i went back to my sleep as i was real dead.I simply have no feeling at all.I'm numb.it was accounting revision lecture that i have missed,with the help of my girls,getting me those notes ready for exams.I owe u girls big time!! Huggles!
My sleep was like so disrupted by multiple msgs and calls from different parties.duhz. Tong came over to my place as he was like tired to attend his afternoon lesson.What's new man dude? The funny part was being called by his class advisor as soon as he got up from his nap.hahaha.I could not stop laughing,to think it was not that funny afterall.Anyway we got ourselves into the cabtoschool kind of habit and got to our respective schools for lessons.
My jap listening test was pretty fine. =) Met up An after class yet that dude was sleeping all the way till they met up for subway.I headed my way to tm to meet up Peg for dinner and a lil walk. Got home that eary and cleared lots of my stuff.Now,i'm blogging.
Plans later? Or simply finish my vcding.I'm just dead tired from everything which i could not care much. For those who cared,thanks a million.I really love loads hell of u guys.Sorry Peg to trouble you.Sorry Bao to have made you worried.Sorry Tong for creating such nonsense always.Sorry Ryna, where i could not be bothered abt school. I'm deeply sorry to my parents. I'm so so sorry.
Now i wonder the kind of selfish mind i could have in me. To misunderstand those who actually cared,who were with me all the time. All i could think was nothing but myself all the time. I'm so so sorry to have let them down in anyways. There could never be reasons for me to hate them in anyway. I love my buds loads.
Was I in the wrong,to have created the such selfishandmisunderstanding feeling for this so bestest friend of mine?
Maybe I am.
Thanks to those who stood by me. Pray for me to get over it.I hope i could pull through all.
Miserably torn.
I'm out of class again. Skipped the very last MEIT and I'm damn numb towards this subject.I knew I'm failing this time round. =(
Alright, with all these skipping of lessons in my entire Tp life,i will have to put to a stop.I will promise myself to attend full lessons for the last 3 days.It ain't that hard.I knew i can,i've done it for the past 3 sems, why not?Its all for my own good,with revision to start anytime soon after this weekend.I will pace myself to exams stress mode,again. With two weeks of both study and exams week, i will take a break.A real break from school,friends and settle down home. There have been lots i have done,developing regrets in me and those disappointments my family have for me. =(
I'm down. The truth lies here. But is there anyone to help or to care? I have been asking myself all these whys? And what i could have done to make the situation better for both ways? Nothing seems to be the right thing, nothing seems to work.I'm frustrated with no one but myself.Where have all those discipline i use to posess gone to? I'm such a retarded idiot. Mentally tortured. Stressed. WHATEVER.
Wonder what's left for me?
Another night out again. =( Been an extra with the dudes namely Tong,An,James,Jason,Bg and Chee for their CS gaming @Pavilion.Met up Bao for KFC dinner which we ate lots.Guys went dinner back @ KFC, headed for Tet's place for a lil mahjong.Lost big bucks with Alex. Got home late.Mum's so mad at me now i guess.
I'm terribly sorry Mum. I'm such a disappointment i know.I'm never a good daughter, a good sister. What am i? Just a piece of shit everyone loathes.
Yet,I'm hit by some words someone had offered. Maybe i will think it out my way.It may be the reason to be alive,and out of my depression world.
I'm such living waste.
You are not the only one. I'm another one. Alone in here.Who is there to talk, to share and to care???
NO ONE.
The one i depend the most is gone.My best bud. My buds. Gone.
I'm Dead in all ways.
I'm FREAKING TIRED. BOTH MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY. GOT ME???
So everyone just leave me alone. i meant LEAVE ME ALONE! Got it? I need no one. Simply no one.
Get the hell out of here everyone.
ARGH!!! Just go away!!!
F**king off.
long john freaks. what's so nice about the drink huh?
:: Yan ::
under the stars by the central park. rwd.28 .26
:: Yan ::
Drams and emotions to kick off my very weekend.What's new?? Its always those nonsense from me. I'm Sorry. Hmmm, Friday was pretty bored with lessons ending at one. Thereafter got home and met up Tong for a visit to the doc. Pontans as usual la.Working peeps for the day, An Paul and Tong.
Got my nap till evening.Intend to meet my ladies which will incluse Bao and Peg for dinner.Senget was in too, being the godfather.hahaha.We had a filling pastamania,which so happen to be one of my favs.Ate my usual creamy chicken,yummy! We shared a whole of pizza where Senget helped us to clear our servings too. Met up Bert at the pasar malam watching a hell of "amazing" show by some professor.Oh my god lo. then we headed for subway as we really had nothing better to do. We had a hell of laughter from the fortune telling they have learnt.Holy crap!
As usual, the guys headed back for soccer and what else?? got home earlier to get my sleep. Beauty sleep.
Oh well, this day kicks off after chores were done. Headed for An's place as Tong and James were there. Then, we headed for dinner at 822, having our usual 'Zi Cha' with Peg,Bao,Senget and Jason with Jasper joining us. Nice dinner. It was time to head off for Chin Meng's place for some slacking,hang out time we use to have every weekend.It was off day for most of the peeps. The ladies were in for some laughter at I Do I Do, the guys were in for some mahjong. Soccer playing once again.
Had a great time at the park,catching up with Keong,Alex and Fel. Alex,Tet and I were in for a lil drink and talk session.duhz. Not forgetting some bicycle riding with Peg and Sharon.Haha. Oh ya, and a bike thrilling session with Tong.PLease lo, next better challenger please? bleah. The night was long till i got home and got down again with Peg to head for supper session at 742. Seldom supper though. =P
Got home like an hour ago and here i am blogging. Hmm, the girls here decided to stay up till morning,watching Freaky Friday. This is the time we get once a week. =) Day's good as for NOW. emotions running still.
Finally, I'm out.
Something someone send to me. Something i would love to share. Take a look and think about it.
Chance or Choice
When we meet the right person to love, when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance. When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance. Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.
The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level? That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling. If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.
When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice. Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice. Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.
Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen. I do believe that soul mates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not. We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate is still a choice we have to make.
We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love.BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly..
What a day. Skipped lectures as usual. I'm simply PMSing at this point of time. Lost.Bahz!!! managed to get up all because of Alex. Met him for lunch,then it was An.Got home to chill and got myself ready for jap tut at 4pm. Class was normal, with presentation due next Wed and i should be getting ready for that.
I was heading for interchange to meet Mummy before catching up with Alex for the night.Wow.Its been donkey years ever since i meet up with this dude here for chilling time at Ah Kun. I'm down for the day.Confusions twirling up in my mind.Lots of em. I'm not sure who to turn to, i guess no one is able to help me either.PMSing now. Nothing seems to be the right thing. Something's missing.
what the hell. Emptiness is all over,they filled my world.Why am i so not satisfied with what i'm having now? why?? ARGH. OKay as for now,everyone should just leave me alone.I need to think good about it.I need time to kill myself. Good night.
I'm dead.
Fruitful day spent. With only 6 hrs of sleep, getting up for presentation. It went well and applause my team!lol. Pretty much everyone from our class skipped MEIT. We are sooo sorry Mr Ram.Whatever.I guess the worst sub this sem has to be MEIT,merely attended 4 lectures this entire sem.
Exams on its way in two weeks time. Its either screw it up or screw it up badly. No more B's on the way, expecting all C's this time.Just pray for me that I don't even take sub or a D. Argh!
Alright then. Talking about my day.Presentation ended well at almost 1.15 and headed home for my day rest.Done up chores and got a call from Tong,on deciding where to head for the rest of the day.Was intending to catch the movie White Noise yet the rest are still in school. Hence, settled on pool playing @ Eastpoint. Cab there as usual.What's new? Imagine a pro vs a newbie on the pool table.Haha.Anyway, i am not that lousy right, Tong?
It was almost 5.30 when the both of us headed back to Tamp Mall to meet up with Senget and Albert for the movie White Noise with Paul,James,Kelvin,Kuku,An and Sharon. The movie was alright, got frightened here and there as usual by the works of Mr Teo Wei Tong. duhz. Can't u just let me watch in peace???? hahaha.
Headed home after deciding of nowhere to go. Got home at 10 and getting down to finish up unfinished copying of notes.Argh!! The no of lectures i have skipped this sem is calculated to be....uncountable. I'm like so sinful. Why am i god-given with the nature of being playful as well as lazy? Can't imagine people who study 24/7. I really admire those kind of discipline, that i will never have.
Guess pretty much things are getting better for me.These days are hard to find and i do treasure.Been Pmsing too much over the entire weekend.My kinda of thing. I'm jsut one kind of freak.Okay, attn to all RWDs : Marina dinner this Sat. Been such a long time since we head for Marina to dine out in such a big group. Everyone is not working this weekend, at least for Sat evening and Sunday. =)
Be it a joyful occasion.
Out for my chat.
Ohhh my goodness. Look at the time now! I am suppose to be in bed already for tomorrow's presentation.Guess what? I've just pretty much done with the presentation slides after getting home at about 12.30am? Excuse me, i did my part in the afternoon after meeting up with Albert,An,Hock,Tong and Bg & co.Or else i will have to sacrifice my BEAUTY SLEEP.duhz.
CONGRATS TO OUR VERY OWN RWD.06, ALBERT SEE! ok la, this dude finally got he wanted.19 for six subs taken, not bad le la. =) Owe you one long john dinner.haha. Hmm,this have been a long long day.Headed back to JYSS with An and Hock with Albert to get his O lvl results. Seen a couple of familiar faces of both teachers as well as juniors.It was the exact same day two years ago on 28th Feb 2003, the day when i teared like hell overstupid kindaofexams known as O Levels.that was real silly of me.haha.
After the drama mama of results scene in the hall, it was time to decide what's up next.Bg & co headed for thier way whereas An,Tong,Bert and I slacked a lil while before heading for An's place.I got myself infront of the computer to get my Airbiz presentation started. What's new man? Final presentation for the sem,excluding my CDS la.haiz. Tong was sleeping like a log, An napped too and Jason came over to meet us and got to Subway. Had Popeyes chicken for dinner with those dudes as well as Paul. Slack slack slack plus dai dee playing. Finally, home sweet home!!
I died already.Need to recharge my batt le. Alright, a big Congrats to those who did it for thier O lvls, for those who don't, its not the end of the world. Pick urself up from where u fall and strive even harder. =) Believe in nothing but urself.
Okay,that's about it.More to come......
I'm getting damn pissed,damn confused.What the hell is going on lor???ARGH!!
OUT.