`23.
`EGG.
`Virgo.
`Attitude.
`Pms Queen.
`Sensitive.
`38-ness.
`Irritating.
` twentysix.
` POOH.
` YEOWs.
` JIE MEIs.
` RWDs.
` MONEY.
`Hong Kong Trip 2007.
`Sarah Jessica Parker "Lovely" Fragrance.
`2nd pair of Havianas flip flops.
`tons of flats/sandals/pumps.
`Bags Bags Bags!
`LV coin pouch AGAIN.
`E71 mobile phone.
`Coach Wristlet.
`Birthday BKK Trip 09!
`Phuket Trip
`Hong Kong Trip 2010
`GRADUATION!!!
`Adidas Candy Watch.
`Bangkok Trip 08/09
`SIEW XIN CHEE.
`LOOPO.
`SENGET SIEW XINYI.
`QASHaron.
`ONG AH BAO.
`TEACHER PEGGIE.
`SUET JING.
` JANICE.
` AMY.
` Chanz
` Denise
`Candice
` Yiling
` Drea
` Karin
` Tannia
` Zi Ting
` Hui Yun
` Jeslyn
` Joyce
` Pearlyn
` Nurina
` Adelene
` Terence
` Vincent
` Annie
` Rashidah
` Rose
> self-doubt....
> Let it go, girl!
> 柠檬草的味道
> time flies....
> 开始懂了
> STUCKED!
> Unspoken Missessss....
> life is so random.
> I Should Be So Lucky on 14 Dec 2008.
> HERE WE GO!
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` YOU.
` PEOPLE whom woke me up.
` SUAY-NESS that hit me hard.
What a day.... Bored!! hmm.Got up late at almost 1pm and kicked off my day by visiting Great granny at the nursing home. Then it was planned for family mahjong session as usual at Aunt's place.Now i'm here, not knowing what to do, hoping that i will get back soon.No programs at all from my peeps.Bored. Where are they?? duhz.
School's 9-12pm tomorrow.Lab as usual, with presentation to do up for Tues. ArgH!!! Alright, nothing more to blabber about, chill for the night.=
Sick of it. Bored.
What a day to kick off after merely five hours of sleep. Got up reluctantly to get myself to school for my Jap common test which i seriously think that i'm not going to make it.Argh,damn. Okay, got home asap to get back my sleep till about 1pm that i finally woke up.
Chores done. Peg came over to meet me for Bugis with Bao.Got my new school bag as my roxy is spoilt. Hmm, shall get my pair of new sandals soon as i will have nothing to wear to school. The three of us indulge ourselves in V8,our usual makan place at Bugis if we have the money.haha.Headed for Bugis street for a lil shopping trip and it was time Peg and I headed back for Chin Meng's place with Mond,An,Tong,Paul with Kuku&co, whereas Bao headed back home. Hell of nonsense and crap happened.Duhz. Get it over and done with. Fun and those unwanted shit.bahz.
Hmmm. Attention to the one involved : At times i knew i expected too much.There are just too much in me that i want to say. It may seem so unnecessary.I know, yet there certain stuff we need to iron out to build a stronger friendship,Right? Anyway, I do hope we are the way we were, hoping it will never change no matter what.Like what i have to say, I'm always here and don't leave me alone. *Its scary though* Please do not take me for granted hor. =P I'm so sorry for what i did.
p/s: do not think too much ok, i swear u will always be my best bud. =)
Alright, shall leave here.I'm tired from this long long day. Be it a better tomorrow....
OUT.
Guess what?? I've got it!! VALUAIR! hahaha.Finally a placement after weeks of waiting.Anyway, hoping the best for my 38s who haven got theirs.Best of luck! As well,congrats to those who got it too. It was shocking for them to offer me the placement on the spot.I did not even want to reject it that i've accepted it on the spot,leaving out CAAS and SATS as well as Diners.Too bad, I've got into Valuair.hahaha.
Headed back to airport to meet up with Ryna, not forgetting the rest of dudes,An,Paul,Tong and Senget at subway. Slacked all the way till wee hours after they knock off. The guys headed for central park for soccer,as usual. As it was running late and I've my common test at 9am the next morning, Alex send me home first.Thanks dude.
There's just too much in me.Hmmm, what's new though. Being hit by someone's statement of learning to be independent.I guess my dependence made me fall. I will have to get up and be independent.Trying hard to be, its tough afterall.Anyway, the situation now made me so.I'm just sad. Nothing else but sad.What's with me? I'm just damn hell of useless one.Never ever find my way out, giving people trouble.Its hard not to feel out of the world afterall i just need something known as appreciation.Thats it.I'm not sure how long it would take for me to realise all these. I'm never good at this.Never was,never will.
ARGH!!! I felt like shit now.
Getting out.
I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move
till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think
I don't look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
I'm weak
Its true
Cuz I'm afraid to know the answers
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life
I've waiting
This is true
You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
Its true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
Ryan Cabrera - TRUE
Hmmm. tense week it has to be for the whole TM peeps. Placements,placements and more ploacements!! Oh God please bless us all,or rather bless me to get Valuair or CAAS or even SATS. SIP drives us to our despo state of mind.
In the meantime, pray for me till Valuair get back to me.Interview on Friday afternoon,3pm.Bless me.I pray i do not screw up like I did for Tradewinds. =
Okay. Busy day for me.Tutorials all day long, skipping POM lec as usual. what's good about 9 to 5? Bored.Tired. Anyway, went for the movie Seoul Raiders with An,James,Chin Meng and Tong, with Senget working at the CS cinema.Cool job you've got yourself dude.Its pretty simple,isn't it? Before we headed for the movie, James and Tong wanted to take a look at the bush fire near my place,just the field opp 700+. The big field caught fire at about 4.30 when the area began to turn smoky. it was damn dirty and smelly at my area and they still insist on taking a look. Nothing really amazing though, just fire and fumes all around,causing jams and detour of bus no 27. Look what have the weather did to us. The heat never seems to fall, its rising all day long. Argh! My temper seems to have the same heat as the weather, HOT. duhz.I'm sorry for those who got my usual ventings.Sorry, didn't mean it.
After movie was gaming as usual at Pavilion. CS was all they did.I was there sitting,watching what they have to offer. It was almost 11 when we decided to head home in bus 291. Lovely day indeed, spending moments with peeps during the hackiest week i have to face.
Well, today was rather busy till 5pm after class that i headed home for a lil rest before having dinner with family. got myself a couple Vcds, deciding to have them now. School'd bored tomorrow till 6pm as usual. Friday will be damn hactic with POM presentation and MEIT project interview and not forgetting the biggest event of the week, VALUAIR interview! oh my, i guess i'm too uptight, i've to relax!! Please do not screw yourself up....Ms Yeow Wen Yan!!
Okay. VCDs now. Continue praying.....
I'm dead.
Woo hoo!! VALUAIR CALLED ME!! hahaha.its the best gift this week ever,being able to go for the interview would be my first step towards my placemetn at Valuair.Hope that i do not screw it the time i did for Tradewinds. Blessed me everyone.
Alright,its been the hackiest and busiest over,with multiple of events that happened.Phew, this wekk shall mark the beginning of a new week,with new events*better be good* up for me.The weekend over have been rather fruitful and busy.Indulge myself into the moments of fun with my peeps,after my great granny moved into the aged home.It was the crackiest days ever and the entire family was relieved from those events.
Friday. Submission of Airbiz that kept me in school till 1pm and met up with Senget,An and Paul for a lil tour at Tp's open house.Enjoyed our very own HTM show that was rather entertaining. I was almost dead after hanging around in school and headed home with Senget at about 3 where Paul and An headed for work.Slept all the way till 6 plus and decided to visit my nanny for CNY visiting.Those were the times i had with my nanny and family, bringing me those childhood memories that i shall never forget.there was the lil toddler,Brandon, who was so chubby and such a cutie that is not afraid of strangers at all.I had a great time catching up with Jennifer jiejie,JunHua and Jun Ming korkor.Had a great time.
Met up Senget at about 8.45om to head for airport to have Popeyes for dinner as well as kill some time by finding Tong,An and Paul at subway. Slacked all the way till knock off time and headed by to central park as they were in for some soccer action all the way till 4 am!! Dead by then already.
Saturday. Barely got myself 5 hours of sleep as Mummy and Aunt have to send great granny to the home and i have to wake up earlier to look after the house.Cleared some chores and took a nap before heading for the movie, Hide and Seek with fellow rwds : Senget,Tong,Bert,An,Peg and Sharon. Had lunch/dinner at 828 before heading to Century Square for the movie. Slacked around at the Bazaar getting ourselves a handcraft key chain that made us late for movie. =\ Anyways, we got the movie that was rather similar to secret window.Another suspense one,giving 6.5/10. All the thanks to that irritating bud of mine,Tong, providing me shocks here and there during the show.Eh next time watch our show and Do NOT DISTURB me la.
It almost 9.30pm when we decided to get some more vcds/dvd watching at Chin Meng's place with shows like Art of the Devil and SAW. Grusome shows i had for the whole day round. Not forgetting hacing catching with Tong,with that dude making fun of me all the time. Great workout indeed, had fun. Almost all of us had a long night all the way till 5am as they guys had blackjack gaming again,leaving me and Sharon looking around at all sorts of magazines,Mond and Senget sleeping. We had prata for 'breakfast' before heading home and it was 6am already. Zzzzzz.
Sunday. Slept till 1 and got my POM done.Done up with everything before meeting up with Peg,Senget,Chee,An and Paul at interchange for long john dinner and getting my sandals.Too bad, it was out of stock.ARgh!In end,got myself a black Fox top with no.26 on it. Had quite a no of new stuff this weekend such as 2 tshirts,keychain and the nike 'ballarina' if i'm not mistaken.duhz. Met Tong at James' place for blackjack gaming again and won almost ten bucks. =) Home sweet home for the weekend.
Fun.Busy.Great times indeed.=)
Anyone for Sentosa this sunday???
Off i go...
Shit. My life is suck a f**ked up one. Can life be any better? First things first, projects dueing one after another,making me mad rushing here and there.Next, some shibby family matters to settle, with some arguments going within the adults.It seems that they just have nothing better to do that it came into my life.DAMN! Finally, my own set of problems with myself.
I'm damn pissed off with whatever is happening within the circle of family. Come on, its not going to do with me, this great grandchild and neither does my parents.I mean ya we are one family, but its not our responsibility to handle these shit problems those elder ones produced.I'm like what the fuck lo. I have my own life and stop bugging me with all these uncessary matters.I'm not being unfillial or what but i have my own things to do, my own life to live. It such a pain in my neck. PLEASE GET IT OVER SOON, i meant real soon!!!
Dramatic changes in my pace of life within the past 3 days.Oh my, how long more can i take it man.With Airbiz over, I have POM to rush for, which is like MONDAY 10am. Got that? Yeap,its Monday, which meant i have to work extra on weekends to get POM done.Damn it, that's my life.Then after Jap project..MEIT interview...POM presentation..Airbiz presentation...Jap presentation...then finally EXAMS!! Wow.me and my amazing race kind of life. Busy schdules due every week.ARGH, I'm breaking down!!
One big headache of mine now,SIP.Oh dear, those who have got CX were so lucky and my chance is gone.Big appaluse to Ryna who did it!! Haha, which meant that I may have a chance in Tradewinds.Please...let me have Tradewinds!!! Two weeks to the due date for SIP and I'm getting real panic now with no placement secured.
How to enjoy life at this point of time??? Dream on.
I'm fucking off for now!!
Lost in my world.Lost for words.Nothing seems to work out well though.Hmmm, guess pretty much its my own attitude problem towards me and the people around me. =(
Multiple incidents that have arouse my inconfidence back to life, making certain unnecessary decisions that results much regrets.I'm standing at the crossroad once,now its back.Not knowing whats left in me. The ones i used to have are losing and fading in my life.I'm afraid of losing, afraid of being alone.I knew i was blessed, what about now? Please do not take away anything from me.I'm so afraid everything's gonna change.Oh my.
its been ups and downs,me being paranoid.I'm suspicious over everything and anything goes.Hoping that all these would be over soon.Please, i meant real soon.I can't take everything at one go.From school,with projects due this friday,next monday,next wednesday and SIP interviews to be prepared for. Its just like a crashed course.I'm crushed!! Doned with jap's draft, most of my part on Airbiz and yet to get ready for my first SIP interview at Tradewinds on thursday morning,10am.I'm like damn nervous can.Praying hard i would not screw up stuff.
Something is going wrong in me.Can't state out what is it exactly. Its my nature of THINKING TOO MUCH acting up in me again.Argh, i can't even stand myself and how could i expect those around me to tolerate my nonsense?? I'm so so so sorry.I'm tormenting inside out.Mentally stressed out.TOTALLY.I'm too afraid of changes.Dramatic changes that is happening in my life.Losing favouritism and blah blah blah.Who in the world is not afraid of losing something you've possesed once?C ome on lo, its human nature. I'm a sore loser afterall.
Two words to describe me and my life : FUCKED UP.
out or never.
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final shot. hmmm, at least senget is out of my way.
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RWD 2005 part 2. Senget's place. Senget you've bloacked my PRETTY face.
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Tiger girls. hahaha.
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rwd dudettes. lovely i presume?? haha. what do you think guys??
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Cousins for life. Sheena ans me.
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Another shot.
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ROWDEES 2005. With new faces, new looks and stronger bunch of friends. taken at Alex's place this time round.
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Wow.Even baby toys at Toys'Rus knew Ben's sexy baby.
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preparing for seventh month performance. me and fel.
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rwd.26 in her jersey.
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Fourth day of CNY.Rwd came by my place with Bao, Mond,Hock,Albert,Senget,An and Paul (with Tong waiting for us). It was then Senget's place to have homecooked dinner as well as the routinely Yu Sheng. We had fun with activities like x-box, video watching and none other than a lil game of black jack.Damn,i'm not in luck this year round, losing almost thirty bucks in mahjong and blackjack.
We had another round of group photo taking with two cameras this time round.One belongs to Fiona.The dudes headed for central park for soccer action at about 11pm, while i and Peg headed home first.I'm dead tired after all these days of visitings and celebrations.I have to face HELL soon.Air Biz is waiting for me to clear those shit.My school work will also be smiling at me,waving to me saying "Hey,its your time to clear this mess!" Oh fuck.That's the voice in me. All i have to do is ACCEPT the fact.bahz.
I'm unwillingly dragging myself back to normal mode of life.Stressful life once again.
It seems everything is fuck up in my life, with certain stuff being handled so teriibly,with the facts that spoils my day.I guess pretty much its being SPOILT.I'm never a good decision maker,never once.Its always the thing known as REGRETs filled me.I'm Sorry. I knew i was wrong.Nothing is bright in my life.From school,friendship and kinship.I felt barely nothing now.I'm always a loner. =\ I have no one and no one have me.
I'm out for good.
Hmmmm.I'm dead for good.Fancy skipping two days of school, on new year's eve and the 3rd day of lunar new year.Though i do enjoy my time with my peeps, yet i can't find that stable feeling.I'm guilty.
This is me.My nature.ARGH!! I'm now repenting on my sins which i knew it was too late.Hell will be ahead on Mon, handling Air Biz as well as my school work.
Rwd had movie watching at Tm,Constantine was the choice.It was 4.30pm show and we met up early as we were supposed to catch the 2.50pm show.Damn.We had lunch at Tm's food court and thereafter spent the next one and half hour at Toys'rus.Can you believe it?We made a laughing stock of ourselves,playing around with those stuff toys and barbie accessories,trying very hard to be KIDS.I guess we pretty much scare off some KIDs.duhz.
After Constantine, we walked all the way to Alex's place for visiting.Routinely, we had steamboat almost every year and gambling as usual,both mahjong as well as black jack. We had this kind of fun every year without fail. =) Let's see it down the years to come.....Who knows.
It was almost past midnight when we headed back,with some walking back and some *like Tong,Qin yao,Peg and Me* got back in cab. had a long talk with Peg down at the park, spilling much sorrows and grumbles before we got home as she came for sleepover.Felt damn worse. Worse feeling in lifetime.=
My new year still goes on.I shall not fall so easily.i hoped.
I'm out of here!
Wow!! The year of rooster is here with much fun i had for the past two days of CNY.Its been busy running on both sides,family and friends.Anyway,i had such a great time with my family,both paternal and maternal side. =)Its all thanks to my relatives, with such compliments ,
"Yan ar, you've turned into a fine lady as years goes."
"Wa, Yan so big le ar, Bian Piao Liang le lo."
"Ah Yan ar, you are very different this year, with much of lady sense in you."
Its like oh my god lor.Such compliments that make my day bright.Haha.Its like the comments i ever received was you've slimmed down, you've put on weight..blah blah blah. The worse part this year at Grandma's place, was the false alarm of me having a bf.I'm like, hello??When did i ever mention about having one?it was thanks to my lil fatty bro.He with his big mouth.I was having a hard time convincing my aunt,cousins and even grandma. -_-"'
Ang baos was alright with the amount of $152 at the moment.Please, more to come!!! haha. After Grandma's place, it was gathering at Aunt's place for homecooked dinner and mahjong session. Had a long game with cousins and aunt, losing almost twenty bucks.But we enjoyed the game much.It was almost 1am when i got back and proceed to Senget's place for gathering.I'm like TIRED already,but still deciding to go ahead as most dudes consisting of An,Jason,Paul,Fai,Mond,Ben and Tong with Bg and co.Watched the kuku show of Stephen Chow and ya da ya da ya da. Headed home almost 3am and i'm really dead.Zzzz.
It was such boring day today that my family and I had the movie "I Do, I Do",Jack Neo's latest flim. Local was good. It was worth our 8.50.Go catch it in the cinemas! Headed to Ben's place after the show with Peg and we gambled all the way till 2.30am.Classics and stunts filled the place that we much enjoyed the time.I felt bad not attending school regularly and its my 2nd time pon-tanning POM,MEIT and Accounting tut.Oh my!!! I've got myself into deep shit!! Warning letter on its way. =( I knew i had became such worry to Mum as i've been undisciplined lately.All i can think of was fun fun fun!! I will be missing meetings and lessons.I guess I'm dead this sem.Supps here i come! ARGH! Damn.
I just wanna spend my CNY having fun.I want to enjoy, but....hmmm! I'm just LAZY! Plans up ahead tommorrow will be movie, Constantine and heading for Alex's place for steamboat dinner. Hope we'll have a great time! to think back, i've to sacrifice my studies just for the name of FUN.
I'm guilty.Sorry to be such a lazy bum.
Alright,shall update soon....
getting my ass out of here.
Well, its less than 24 hours to kick off my 15 days of CNY. I've waited long enough to put on my new tops and bottoms for this New Year. Yipeee!!!
I'm dead beat after clearing up chores with Mum.Hmm, had my first ever rwd jersey as it was posted up.Its mine.Get it?haha.I have one too!!Senget,Hock and Ben went all the way down to Peninsula to get the jerseys back for everyone.It was hard on them though.thanks dudes!!Met up Tong after class and got home to wait for the arrival of our brand new jerseys. =) Went out again to meet up with the rest of the dudes to distribute jerseys and had supper at 827, and just before we headed home,i requested to walk a round to the market just to see how's the 24 hr market is going to be like.Just to get the kind of new year atmosphere! Its not that i am that SUA KU that i've never been to the new year market ok,Tong.bahz.
Hence, we headed home from there and i'm going to see those dudes this friday i supposed for visitings as well as movie watching!! haha.I'm gonna spend this new year fruitfully with everyone that are dear to me.I will get after this weekend, thinking of Air Biz deadline next friday.PLEASE DO NOT REMIND ME OF THAT!!
Now, i'm slacking in this tidy room of mine after much spring cleaning,waiting for reunion dinner out AGAIN.Mum had already cooked for lunch, hence its easier to dine out.Hmmm, shall be off to get my nails done.Till then, wishing all a very HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!! Enjoy peeps!!!
Off to get my ang baos.I will be back. =)
S T U D Y I NG. please do not disturb.
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what can i say? best buds. =)
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its mine. can you see that??
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its been days and days that such decision filled my mind.i'm such a selfish bitch.i will be one.
Its time to leave everything behind and time to live once for myself.Just ONCE.Leave me alone and let me go before everything gets worse.
I'm tearing inside, feeling so unwell from head to toe.No matter what i do, nothing will work.There seems like its dead end, with no way out. Who will truly be here with me, who knows what i'm going through.I'm such a nuisance enough. I'm just a useless person wasting resources. I'm OUT.
Getting my fat ass out of this place and its everything!!!
I'm dead beat from all kinds of shopping.Headed for Bugis with my girls for thier shopping. I got up as early as 10am to get my ass down to 802 and breakfast with parents. It was 1.30 when Peg came over to meet me at my place and off we headed for Bugis to meet Bao.
I can't take it no more
I swear i'm dead tired from so many trips of CNY shopping.Argh.We had V8 for dinner,our usuals.Speghetti,Fish and Chips and Baked Rice with an extra of wedges.Yummmy. Caught up with the dudes when they headed back from orchard,Senget,Hock,Fai and Qin yao.Had another round at Bugis street getting another t-shirt for Tong and thats it, i'm dead tired!!!
I had enough!! Of everything.I'm leaving.Its hell.I'm too sick to mention anything.Let it be the way it will be.I've nothing to do with it!!I'm OUT. Totally. I've no idea where am i here which i thought i once knew it clearly.So clearly.But, look at this mess i've go tmyself into.ARGH!! Why can't i have my own stand for once and stood still.I'm just shit.Never let your trust in me.I'm always a disappointment.LEAVE ME ALONE.
BB Mak - Back Here
Baby set me free from the misery
Since you run away nothing's been the same
Here I am so alone And there's nothing in this world I can do
Until you're back here baby
Miss you want you need you so
Until you're back here baby, yeah
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go
So I told you lies even made you cry
Baby I was so wrong
Girl I promise you now my love is true
This is where my heart belongs
Cos here I am so alone And there's nothing in this world what I can do
And I wonder, are you thinking of me
Cos I'm thinking of you And I wonder
Are you ever coming back in my life
Cos here I am so alone And there's nothing in this world I can do
Until you're back here baby
Miss you want you need you so
Until you're back here baby, yeah
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go
Until you're back here baby
Until you're back here baby
Until you're back here baby
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't Until you're back here baby ... till fade
I'm too weak,too sick and obviously to tired to go on.Thats it.
Getting my ass OUT of HEre. Bahz. =(
Wow. Last weekend before the much anticipated once in a year CNY. my fav festivals of em all!! Ang baos, pineapple tarts,bah kuas and blah blah blah...
First stop for my friday. It was damn frustrated getting MEIT done with the bloody deskjet prinnter not functioning properly and results missing appendices it was supposed to be in the proposal.ARGH! Can't believe that we've lost to that bloody printer. More frustrations that waited for me as MEIT guest lecture was delayed due to guest being late.Oh my,getting caught in the traffic at hours like 3pm?? Believe its true.I was damn frustrated with that printer already, and going the day without my proper meal, there goes to my mates too. =\ managed to have a break for hald an hour before another guest lecture of Air Biz, which i supposed that no one regretted attending. Emirates was the guest for the lecture that amazed us with thier marketing efforts.It was a total WOW. They were giving out beautiful brochures, booklets and even CDs.The presentation was power that it caught as stunned.Dubai..my next dream.bahz.
The lecture ended late at 6.30 which was suppose to be 6pm.I was already late to meet up with Tong for pool with Senget and Chee at pavillion. Rushed off as soon as the lec ends to meet up Tong, then headed for KFC family feast dinner with Senget and Chee. Senget cheated me again!! It was suppose to be pool, yet it turned out to be CS and General gaming for the dudes.*Hmmmp!* It was rather early to head home after the gaming hence we headed for Senget's place to slack, watching funny lame videos and a lil X-box gaming. It was almost 12.30 when Tong and I headed home.
Today. Hell. SPRING CLEANING!!!! Oh my.It was damn hell packing my own room.Can;t imagine a girl living in the messy room ya? I've regretted not packing up regularly and now that i have to clear the mess that was accumalated a year ago.Damn.I was helping out Mummy to clean the windows and packed my own room. 12 bags of rubbish i've cleared. Total clear out of posters, magazines, stuff toys,bags and clothings. I hoped i've cleared almost everything.It was hell of tired and my back is killing me.I need the 802 physician tomorrow.
After clearing for about 3 hours, i got myself settled down with a bath and went to met up with those dudes for their last minute shopping for CNY. Senget,Ben,Hock,Bert,Paul,An,James,Mond with kuku & co. Those dudes went for converse shopping as well as a visit to S&K. Got Tong his pair of Converse sneakers and hope that dude will like the design of that. =) Hello,i'm from HCC if you guys din realise. *High Class Club* After much of consideration on what to do after shopping as it was so early to head home for a Sat, it took us almost 45 mins to decide. We headed back to 827 for dinner as we met up Tong while some of the dudes headed home to settle thier shopping stuff. Qin Yao's place was next for soccer watching to kill time before soccer action at Central Park.Headed back home almost wee hours at 2.30am and its like time for me to Zzzzzz.
My back is getting worse as i thought it would get better each day.Oh my.802 here i come.duhz. Alright, hoping we will be able to get rwd jersey as i much anticipated.My very own first rwd jersey,though i'm not one of its players.duhz right?
Oh ya to my best bud if you happen to take a look at this....
Please do not bother those things okay? I'm here and will always be here.things will work out the way it should be and chill ya? Its a reality to be a grown up with much responsibilities coming but you are not alone.=) Tomorrow shall be a better day. It will be all over soon and adapt to new changes okay?I'm not willing to see ur stressed-up face,be happy!!
okay, done and over with.Sunday's here....
And i'm OUT.
Phew! Jap's Kakitori Quiz is over.Upcoming in three weeks time, Jap's project as well as both speaking and listening test.Damn. Can't enjoy much of my new in peace, with Air Biz and POM almost up at the same week.Oh my God!!!
It will be a hectic day with MEIT up at 5pm. Though its pretty short with lessons from 9-11am, we are required to attend both MEIT and Air Biz guest lectures. Hmmmm, waste of my time attending late lectures till 6pm! Nah, guess my group mates and i will be stucked in the lab to finish whateverhasnotbeendone for MEIT before 5pm submission. =
It will be another round of shopping at Tampines Mall with my dear bud for her CNY stuff. I've got all for mine, spending at least 300 bucks for all.Damn.Did not intend to buy much, yet i end up spending the most.One big burnt hole in Mummy's pocket.haha. She've got herself a big spending power daughter as well as expensive taste one.Born to be.
Gheez.I will be damn tired for tomorrow and I've to wake up that early for MEIT field trip at Singapore Expo.In that damn suit of mine again.Argh.Will be busy for the entire weekend for CNY spring cleaning which i much wanted to SIAM from home.But i can't.Daddy will start yelling at me for not helping out.Damn. Busy busy busy me!!! its school work,then now CNY.
Hmmm, ponders at this point of time.Everything is fine,but what's the problem with me of wanting and expecting more? I'm totally confused and lost.TOTALLY. I've those things in life that i can never asked for.The kind of blessed people i have with me.But, there is some other stuff i need and i could not explain in words exactly what it is.My feelings have run wild at times, wishing that it could be so true for those wonderful moments.Back to reality, its never POSSIBLE. its IMPOSSIBLE. It will never work out in no matter what ways.
No matter how hard i tried to stop those thoughts, the worse it gets.It works both ways.I've been lying to myself ever since i don't even know when. Everything goes is way, the way it said it should be nature. But, why am i in this way?? Am i misleaded or what? Yet, its so clear to me.The way out will be IMPOSSIBLE.
its my bad all along.
I can't help it.
I wish i could do away with it.
I will suffer all alone.
I will not reveal whats the truth.
NEVER.
I'm out of here. I'm back to the reality. Hoping that the downs in my life, would be all lies.
=(
Mood Swings!!!
I simply have no mood to accomplish anything.Simply nothing.My heart's not in it.
Though i've studied for my jap kakitori tomorrow,i bet i will flung badly.I guess my long break tomorrow will be clearing of MEIT and last min revision of kakitori. Bless me.
Hmmm, i'm torn.I've lost. I admit defeat.My feelings won.
I'm out!!!
Lost in the jungle.
Its strange that I can't pretty much lift myself to the max for CNY. I just can't bare tosee someone close to me in this situation at this point of time.I wish there is something i could do to help, which i can never. Praying and hoping that everything will turn out fine. I'm helpless.
Pretty much it will be rather stressful with MEIT drawing near,kakitori test as well as tons of make up lectures on my beloved friday. At least i will be meeting Peg to do her last round of shopping at Tm and pretty much getting gear up for CNY,helping round at home. Hoping that the kind of family warm would lighten up my mood to its max. =\
There shall be upcoming plans other than family visits.Movies,Sentosa or Chinatown guys?? Senget, i need more ideas of what we can do ya?So lets get down to work.duhz.Let's do something special this year. I don't care!!
Hmmm, time to get into my bed.
I'm not lifted seeing all these. I'm helpless.
Getting out of here!!!