`23.
`EGG.
`Virgo.
`Attitude.
`Pms Queen.
`Sensitive.
`38-ness.
`Irritating.
` twentysix.
` POOH.
` YEOWs.
` JIE MEIs.
` RWDs.
` MONEY.
`Hong Kong Trip 2007.
`Sarah Jessica Parker "Lovely" Fragrance.
`2nd pair of Havianas flip flops.
`tons of flats/sandals/pumps.
`Bags Bags Bags!
`LV coin pouch AGAIN.
`E71 mobile phone.
`Coach Wristlet.
`Birthday BKK Trip 09!
`Phuket Trip
`Hong Kong Trip 2010
`GRADUATION!!!
`Adidas Candy Watch.
`Bangkok Trip 08/09
`SIEW XIN CHEE.
`LOOPO.
`SENGET SIEW XINYI.
`QASHaron.
`ONG AH BAO.
`TEACHER PEGGIE.
`SUET JING.
` JANICE.
` AMY.
` Chanz
` Denise
`Candice
` Yiling
` Drea
` Karin
` Tannia
` Zi Ting
` Hui Yun
` Jeslyn
` Joyce
` Pearlyn
` Nurina
` Adelene
` Terence
` Vincent
` Annie
` Rashidah
` Rose
> self-doubt....
> Let it go, girl!
> 柠檬草的味道
> time flies....
> 开始懂了
> STUCKED!
> Unspoken Missessss....
> life is so random.
> I Should Be So Lucky on 14 Dec 2008.
> HERE WE GO!
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` YOU.
` PEOPLE whom woke me up.
` SUAY-NESS that hit me hard.
I've began to treasure those dears one around me.those who know who they are.Who knows when i will be gone or disappear in this world without saying my goodbyes.
So, start taking actions to let those dear ones around you realise that you treasure them and will not want to lose them.
Well, its just some thoughts that hit me.
MEIT on its way to due this friday and there are couple of stuff for my group to settle.oh my, i've to squeeze time to get last round of my CNY shopping as well helping out in the household spring cleaning.Its a dreadful task to clear my own room as its like rubbish chute that is hell of messy.I'm just lazy.
Oh my i saw that MNG top that is shoooo undescribable that its not really those MNG style.Damn it.Why do i have to set my eyes on that piece of top which like cost a bomb of 55 bucks.Furthermore,Ry and Ling commented it suit me well and its really really nice.Just praying that Mum will be that kind to spare another 50 to get me that top just in time to add to my CNY addition.hehe.when will us,girls,gets satisfy with shopping??
Shall head for MEIT meeting tomorrow with my mates to settle most of the things to be done,then it will be Bugis to get my bud something.Oh ya,not to forget that i will be having my jap quiz on wed.Damn,never ending quizzes and tests.ARGH!I'm stressed,just like what my aura indicates.I guess pretty much there will be lots to come within these two weeks, with CNY to arrive as well as getting school stuff done at the same time.
I shall get on to clear my own staff and check my bud out.Hope everything's okay.I wish there is something i could do to cheer my bud up.Ponders and wonders.....
Hmm,cast away those emotions that i had today,Tomorrow shall be a better day!!Wish me luck in getting one good placement for SIP.I really need that.
Getting out of this place...
Oh my oh my.I'm dead tired after having fun for this weekend.CNY is just round the corner and there are lots to be done within these two weeks of my tight schedule.With MEIT due on friday,i guess pretty much my mates and i will be slogging in the lab.Argh.Damn it projects.
It was hell of fun during Peg's chalet that we pretty enjoy.thanks dear bud.at least it did not turn out bad ya?The pictures will explain the kind of fun we had and the time we shared,though there are some who could not make it due to work.Busy people.I had royal rumble with Alex,Wrestlemania with Tong and not forgetting the usual pillow fight with An.Who say i'm weak, at least i managed to survive from those.It sounded as if I'm one of those violet characters from World Wrestling Entertainment.Bahz.
Mahjong late in the night and most of us kuay on four beds,with five on each two.it was damn kuay that i was squeezed right in the middle and all of us had no way to toss and turn as we like.Most of the guys went off early morning to get home to catch some good sleep,leaving me and Tong to accompany Peg till 1pm.It was such luxury to enjoy one bed to myself after those guys left without much of my realisation that they left.Anyway,it was not long that i caught some real sleep that this irritating bud of mine started to disturb me.I had morning exercise all because of this dude that we had whatinameditas Wrestlemania.Cool?
After KFC lunch which Peg's mum bought us,we headed back home to refresh ourselves before the shopping of CNY clothes.It was most of the guys doing their shopping at peninsula and bugis.It was almost ten when we got home and the guys were in for some soccer action.Duhz.I was dead beat already,without much of sleep from chalet night out.Oh my.
Managed to get myself to bed at almost 3.30am and woke up rather early at 11.30am.It was rather strange that i got up so early on such Sunday.Met up with Tong to get his hair dyed at my place.Peg joined us and off we met up with the rest Senget,Qin Yao,An and Sharon.Headed to Bugis to get my bag and a few other stuff,then it was Fortune centre to get our Aura done,then it was Sim Lim to get Qin Yao's mp3 and i got myself a new set of black keyboard and mouse.Finally,we headed to Peninsula as the guys got t-shirts and rwd jerseys.
Rwd new jersey on its way.Cool blue with white.The girls even got jerseys!! duhz.It was almost 8pm as we headed back to tamp as Tong and Senget got themselves Levi's jeans.Damn.I can't get mine.hmmmp.met up with Keong and Fel as they were at Tm for shopping too.After most of their shopping is done,we got ourselves Long John dinner and headed home.Phew.finally.I can get some rest!!
I'm so dead tired and shall get out of here soon to get my sleep.
To be continued....
I'm out.
rwd.the one big family. some missing.........
:: Yan ::
time for some group shots.....
:: Yan ::
rwd.26.27 vs rwd.02.14 .The girls won.Abish!
:: Yan ::
This pic is at least of some standard.rwd.02.26.27.14. best dudes and dudettes ever.
:: Yan ::
Another Kiam Pah pic. Scary faces it was suppose to be yet it turned out retarded.haha.
:: Yan ::
Hear No Evil, See No Evil,Speak No Evil and finally,new creation of Smell No Evil. At least Chanz seems normal.
:: Yan ::
BAHZ. Big eyesbig eyes!! Stupidiest pic i ever taken.
:: Yan ::
Hey camera here la Tong!!
:: Yan ::
Tally vs Shorty.Its damn unfair how can be someone so tall and someone short.It contrasts well though.Amking such a fool of myself.
:: Yan ::
rwd buds and peeps.
:: Yan ::
rwd.02.07.11. Best players.But why does this pic seemed like Tong is being raped by Keong and An?
:: Yan ::
Wow.Godfather of this pic.at least it turned out good.Felki won't mind that we borrow ur Keong ya?duhz.
:: Yan ::
trying to act pro by self taking.Oh my,sorry Bao and Senget,only manage to capture my ahem,beautiful face.Just kidding.
:: Yan ::
First stop,photo taking. rwd.02.11.26.27. There is always the so-called fuck up face in the pic.haha.
:: Yan ::
Happy 19th Birthday to Peg!! This kicks off to hell of fun on 28th jan 2005 chalet @ downtown east.
:: Yan ::
Not in da mood in getting my MEIT stuff done.I'm sorry mates. Should have said that I've slacked the whole day through.I am washing my hands out of my school work for this weekend though i will be like dead for next week,getting MEIT done.Duhz.Projects!!! Just leave me alone!
Met up with Chanz and headed off for Tm to get stuff.Back at 844 to meet up with Senget,An and Tong for my place to watch Meet The Parents dvd.It was hmm not that as i would say then Meet The Fockers.Both are sort of entertaining.The guys went off as An needs to get to work and this will be my time to blog.Alright,I'm lazy to blog about long posts that would end up like a GP.Duhz.
Have to prepare certain stuff for Peg's chalet and i guess i won't be home tomorrow night.I will have to get down to packing soon,just a set of changing clothes and toiletries,thats about it i guess.Oh ya not forgetting my mp3.Praying hard that I will be able to have some fun,some good time with my buds and peeps. =\ It better not be a disappointing one. Plan to meet up Senget and Tong after their lessons as well as Chanz and off we will head for chalet.The rest of rwd will be joining us later.
Bahz.Nothing much to talk about except for the same old problem.Its just my bad.I will have to cut down pretty much of excessive thinking.It runs wild at times.Its still in good control though. Humans can be real selfish,posessive and i'm one of those category.Its so unfair all along to be kept in this lil world,all alone.I realise there are peoplepresently that would be so loving to light up my life,but i see no motivation in me.I need something else.Can't figure out what is it exactly,just something missing in my life.I am having the greatest things in life now,what is it more that i want?? I guess i will never be satisfied with my life.EVER.
Would someone take me away from all these excessive amounts of thinking? Would someone take away the kinda of misery in me?
Is there someone??
Hell.I'm running wild of thoughts once agian.OKay,I shall stop here and get back to reality.I have to start packing stuff soon.Wish me luck mates.
I'm out of here.SHOO.
One word for my shibby day : SWAY!!!!
It have been such a day that never run smooth for me.
First, my monitor is facing somee iwillneverknowwhatstheproblem. It was later found out that its my display drive that is corrupted.Damn.
Second, it seems that my SIP resumes and cover letters are facing big problems.Its been two days and i have not send them yet.Due to typo errors and other shibby errors.I am damn frustrated!!!! Argh.I've got all 5 copies ready in hand, will be sending out as soon i got replies from my lecturers regarding the refree thingy.Damn.It better be tomorrow that i will be able to send them all out.I want to get this over and done with before i can put my heart down to have fun. I NEED A BREAK!!!! Oh my.
Thirdly,my speaker's subwoofer is not working.Damn it.I guess its pretty much of my swayness.Oh my oh my.I need to get out of this world!!! Nothing runs well this entire week.I feel like shouting out FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!! *&%$#@!(*)^%#*
I feel like hanging myself anytime soon.I am damn serious.I guess there will be more to come,awaiting for me.I should be somewhere at Chinablack for my clubbing,but as usual,back out last min due to overloaded work!!I can't leave my mood and heart down to club at this moment,realising there are so much to finish.MEIT research,Airbiz further research,SIP resumes and ya da ya da ya da.Fucking huge amount of workload that is. =(
Alright,i had enough.I want my time to relax myself and thats it for the long day.
I'm out of here!!!
The last but not least, 2004 Chinese New Year.It was the first rwd group pic i had with em.Kinda of funny and crappy while dramatic changes can be seen over the year. Will there be more to come.....Stay tune.Enjoy!!
:: Yan ::
James' and Jason's Jasper...Silky Terrier vs jack Russell.It was hell then during the recent Nov babies chalet.
:: Yan ::
Alex's Alpha......vs.......
:: Yan ::
Cheese. My red streaks hair sense then.This explains why i misseed my long long straight hair before this.Now,its even shorter. I want it back....
:: Yan ::
Whose feet?? Make a guess....
:: Yan ::
Speak No Evil, Hear No Evil and See No Evil. hahaha. Cute ya? Oh my i can;t even stand the three of us.Tons of holy crap and shit.My buds.
:: Yan ::
Sep 11 chalet of sep babies.Oh my.Another new style of mine,getting red this time.Cool?Never had enough of them. My bud and me .
:: Yan ::
Wow.Mini Mahjong even in this kinda of space.Guess what? The guys played the game using the wooden plank that was supposed to be the bed for the mattress. This is the kind of creativity we have and money saving method. =) Simply genius. Last July 24th redemption chalet.
:: Yan ::
BBQ at Bao's place.It was supposed to be ahem *gathering* last June.Can we have one more Bao? It was fun fun fun. Holy Crap poses.Bahz.
:: Yan ::
Sentosa FUN!! Oh my.I missed those times.I want SENTOSA BURNT again guys.When will it be once again ever since last June 6th that i can remember that this pic was taken.
:: Yan ::
time for old pics that may turn out funny at this moment.Look at this.Oh crap.Good hair fashion sense then.Fav pic all time with my bud.
:: Yan ::
Relieved.Blessed.Happy.Thats all about me now and for this day.=) Thanks best bud.
Hmmm.Its been a stressful day for me to go through much of SIP stuff,getting resumes and application letters done for the whole afternoon,stucked in the lab with Chanz.Both of us were stucked with our heads in getting our resumes and application letters done.Oh my it was hell and i was so messed up with the various companies i had in mine.Phew.Wish me luck in getting one placement of my choice though.
There will be much more to come, its waiting for me to clear them all.Shibby me.MEIT will be tomorrow with 38s Ry,Minah and Ling.God bless us. Like what Ryl has to say,we have not even smell it,not to talk about touching it.Thereafter i guess it will be Airline Biz on thurs and I'm out of here!! I can't take these amount of stress any longer.I need a break!!!! This is what is known as TERM BREAK? Hello excuse me,its not even any better then normal school days.duhz.
Okay,clubbing plans tomorrow.Black will the venue pretty much i guess.I just hope i will be able to club tomorrow as i'm afraid i will back out in the last minute doing project stuff,in order to clear some relax moments for my bud,Peg for her chalet.Its her 19th Birthday and i see no point in spoiling her moment due to my overloaded work.Happy 19th Birthday babe!!! (in advance)..
Alright,i will be heading back for school to print my final edition of resumes and application letters,getting my photo taken just for the resumes as well as sending all of them out by the very next day or its sometime this week.I need to get stamps and envelopes too.Shit.Money counts.Another trip down to the bookshop.Damn it,i am hell of busy with school.ARGH!!
Help me out!!! I'm dead already.Can't you guys see?Shibby shibby shibby. Let me be productive to get almost everything done and over with.I need to get out of this project shiat asap,it will kill me this very moment.
Enough of my overloadedstressfulandkilling amount of school work.Met up with Tong and Senget for some chilling at Ocha.Wow.Its been forever since we chill at Ocha.Got ourselves some twister fries and vcds at the video shop.Both dudes got themselves vcds and dvds while i went home empty handed.I have Peg's latest taiwan tv serial, Nan Ding Ge Er,with Energy's Kunda in the serial.It was kind of 38 show but not too bad la.
I am happy.ya da ya da ya da....Been crazy over Triumph In The Skies, the TvB HK drama currently showing at channel 55.Oh my,its the best TVB serial i loved,esp its something to do with aviation industy.LOVE IT to bits and pieces.I even got the sound track as well.Happy!!
I am happy.I am happy.Much of those eventful stuff that got me.I have came to know something i never knew before.It will be in my heart always. =) Believe me that i'm blessed.
Nothing else but it make my day.Thanks thanks and thanks bud.Who say you are useless? YOU ARE NEVER ok? Love ya!!
La la la la la...ya da ya da...I'm happy! Bleah.
I'm out of here.
Wow. Its been such an eventful weekend.Simply played through the whole weekend without doing much of my school work and project sutff.I am starting now,soon and will get my resume done first.I have to be more productive this week.Had our Air Biz field trip to airport *again*,which was such an educational one.Its been a help to our Airbiz project and amazing to see changes in our Changi Airport transit lounge.Love it.Its the beginning of my shouldbe productive week.Recaps...
Hmmm,both the fun times i had with peeps.Let me think, it was movie on Friday night,Beach road shopping,pool playing,soccer watching on Sat and family time on Sun.Mond was suggesting to head for Beach Road to get his ns stuff so the whole bunch of us accompany him.An,James,Senget,Paul,Chin Meng,Tong,Bao,Peg and I.
It was rather early after beach road hence we headed to Simei for more pool playing.* Its one of my fav now!* Bao and Peg went thier way while the rest of us headed for soccer watching at Chin Meng's place.It was soccer action later in the night.It was a pretty good weekend.
Sunday was between family and rwd.Accompanied my bud,Tong for his haircut at Fusion and An,James and Chin Meng joined us for lunch thereafter. Headed home all of us did and I met up with Peg to meet my mum.*thanks for the ride Peg!* Headed for the converse warehouse sale and got myself a pair of converse sneakers at a rather cheap price @ $39.90.Then,it was more shopping back at Tamp Mall with my Yeows.My lil fatty bro got himself his new year stuff and i pretty much got a lil of mine too.I always loved shopping with Yeows.haha.
It was time to meet up with An and Senget to send Mond off to Pasir Ris as he will be heading back for his BMT at Tekong.Subway was the next destination to check out my bud.Ya da ya da ya da..Long night though and we headed back to Tamp.The guys were in for soccer action while i headed home,with much grudges and feelings in me. It was never good at all.
Probably this is life. Certains and uncertainty.Doubts and Probs.I've grew to understand the cruelty of life and reality.This is frightening yet it brought me to another level of maturity of thoughts.I need time to digest all these,i promise myself to give myself the true answer,to give those who cared the true answer.
I began to give up hope in people,in myself.Its not something i've asked for nor something i want in my life.Do anyone think this is fun or what?Its not.My life may appear vibrant and filled with love,the truth is,its an empty shell.All i have with me will be inconfidence and uncertainty about myself and people.Its my problem.Its my bad yet i have no control over with.
I've been in this for almost a year,dramatic changes in me as anyone would realise. I am blessed to a certain extent,knowing those who cared.Those who tried,those who never fail to give me love,those who never give up hope in me.Thanks.
I promised to try my very best not to give up hope.But one thing's for sure,i will nv put in hopes.
When certain things in the world is being lost,it can never be recovered. I knew what i had. My life continues,its the matter its with or without the ones i thought i used to have.Now, i certainly know who's in me. =)
My best bud.The one i am blessed to have,afraid to lose.You should know we've been buds ever since iforgotwhen.I'm sorry for my actions that may have or may have not affect you.I will give you my word that i will not leave you alone in any of future circumstances or unless otherwise situation is outofhand.Thanks for those eventful memories and fun we had.The bond in us grew stronger then ever before and i've been certain no one is able to take ur place.I'm not sure if you would feel the same way but anyway i've always loved ur company.Please do not cry upon reading this.haha.Its just to entertain you k?hmmm, kidding kidding.Don't you dare leave me when i need you.I will always be here. =)
Ahem.Enough of words.Its getting irritating ya? Hmm,just a note to Peg and Bao.I love the both of you to bits and pieces,and it goes the same to my best bud.Its my blessing to have all of you.Everyone.Peeps,38s,anyone.
For them, it will go on.
Blessed them.
4am.The time i should be in my lala land.I am farway from it.
Been busy slacking home ever since after term test.Should get myself pace up for school and project work after weekend.
Just got back after spending time with peeps.Played pool with Senget,Mond and Peg.Caught the movie Elektra after Tong and Paul's work.Ya da ya da....it was heart warming though to the kind soul who offered his listening ear.To those who care,thanks.Love ya all.
I am tearing apart soon,playing all these mind games again and agian.I need answers.Who's there to provide those answers?Am i preventing the history form happening or am i simply do not have the courage to face the disappointments and heart breaking moments? I DON'T KNOW. I need answers.Its funny though,knowing on how to tell people to be true to oneself,yet i am far from being one.duhz. Fuck up me.Why do i have to get people into unwanted trouble? I'm just ARGH!! Damn it.
Questions:
When has all these came?
What do i want from it?
Why am i behaving this way?
What's on your mind?
Who am i suppose to confess?
Where shall i head after this?
Which direction should i head? Say it or keep it?
What the hell is going on?
How long more can i bear?
Answers to the above mentioned questions: I DON"T KNOW!!!!!!
I am afraid of everything. Thats why i don't deserve anything at all.Cause i simply have no courage to fight for it. Do you guys know its painful to endure all these.I know all along i've been playing mind games myself.
Its just my bad.I blame it on myself.Even fools know what's the ending,what's the answer.Come on girl.Give it up and wake up!!!!! The symtoms to yan's madness.Leave her alone.She's fine.
I am so bad at this.
I am forever in this.
I can't control,as much i wanted.
I'm sorry. It wasn't meant to be.
Be it a better tomorrow? Or be it the worse?
Bless me then.
Term Test over! But that doesn't mean anything real good,as there will be projects awaiting for me to clear them. With MEIT coming to due by 4th Feb,i guess we must start something real soon mates.Air Biz then POM..oh my.Don't wish to think about it at least for the long weekend.Keep it till next week. =)
It was time to head down a place name IBP ,International Business Park,situated right at JURONG EAST.Yeah,get me? Jurong EAST,which is like damn far from my place,Tampines! Bless me that i have my long lost buddy,May Chan to accompany me all the way to get my mp3 repaired.Anyway,I got them replaced instead.It was under warranty anyway.Duhz. Alright,now i shall be extra careful when handling this small lil gadget of mine,or else,i wll be going down to that damnfaraway place once more.
Opps.I did another round of shopping and got myself another Fox top.Hmmm, guess that i could't resist the temptation of getting one with the sales going on. =) Got my fav black top instead of getting those red and white ones which are specally for New Year,which is like not my chosen choice of colour.I love black.This is my type.
My ulcers are killing me!! OUCH!! Argh.*i am suffering for 3 ulcers* Ya.3 ulcers with 1 real big one at my gum.I can't even eat and smile properly.When will it go away?? Oh my,just go away for god's sake.Damn !! I want to enjoy Peg's bday chalet next friday.Hope it will be over then.Bahz.
Well, its been days ever since i saw my fellow peeps.Talked to Tong,Paul,Peggie and Senget over the phone,but never had the chance to meet them up.Its just a feeling of being alone,my own space,my time.I began to miss some things i used to do. Those stuff that belonged to me.Its stressful sometimes to be living in such a big family,looking after one and other.Yet,the fun and joy in this circle is something ever i can never ask for.I began to learn how to appreciate those who did stuff for the sake of our friendship.
To those who did it,thanks. Its been such a pain to have me as your friend,your peeps or your whatsoever.But,i just wanna say thanks for every understanding anyone has gave to me.I began to miss my peeps company after 3 days of "aloneliness",another new term of Yan.Its been good though,keeping the time to myself, having some thoughts and peace.Wait till my presence,you guys will find me a nuisance again.Well,sorry guys,thats me.The one and only me.
I miss them. Hmmm..... esp Desmond Wan!!It's been two weeks since he went NS.I would love to see the botak head Mond.duhz.
Alright, time for myself. Vcd or phone?? or both.
Good night world. I missed my peeps!!
Its then meeting up with my peeps as usual.Its only weekend i get to see most of them,with all our lives being so different in many perspective.Its been such a bless that we've come this far. =)Activity that we had was soccer watching at Chin Meng's place and dinner was the usual 827.Decided to head down to subway with An and James to accompany Tong and Paul till morning's soccer match at TURF CITY.yeah.you got me,its TURF CITY.
The match was a tough battle.It was one that rwd had long time.Those opponents were like,LOSERS.So what if they are in thier late twenties,affording cars and wives?? They lost to what theycallus at a bunch of kids.Just lose it,LOSERS.We won brillaintly at a scoreline of 3-2.I am damn proud of every rwd player.Salutes guys!! =)
Headed home as i was dead beat after the long night,the morning match.Slept all the way till evening when Tong gave me evening call.Met up soon with Senget,Chee and An for another soccer watching,Singapore vs Indonesia.We won.Not feeling much of whattofeelthatgreat about it,for being not the fan of local soccer scene.It was dvd time with the movie titled Without A Paddle.Its was good,entertaining indeed where we had our laughs.Home sweet home at midnight,thinking it was Monday coming,having term tests on Tuesday and Wednesday.*argh* studying turns me off.Oh god.
POM is tomorrow.Yet i am far from touching my lecture notes,which i much know the consequence that i will jam myself into those chucks of notes tonight.I feel so sleepy into studying at this time of the day,which i rather have it peaceful in the night.I feel no sense of urgency to study for term test at all.Hmmmm.Sigh.The dunnowhatsthatcall syndrome is back again.
I have been penetrating thoughts which i should be kept away from.Those thoughts that will run wild and create trouble.Its really getting disturbing at times to think this way.
For instance,have anyone wonder the real existence of your friend,or any one whom you think you are close to and you might turn out not?
Someone that makes you feel he/she is important that you afraid you will lose it?
Someone you wish to talk to when you are down?
Someone that takes the time to understand your thoughts,your everything?
This is such a question in me which i have no answer to it.It been vexing being not able to think good for myself.Something's wrong somewhere.I can't figure it out.not at all.I felt so much so that i might tear into two between so many parties,considering everyone's feelings or whatsoever.
I am not sure when it will be over,anytime i hope its soon.I seriously need time to get over it.
Anyway,i don't love myself in this way.I am being too much of a eating disorder.Eating non-stop when i am too fat to be true.I seriously need a crush diet to look better,to feel healthier.It will be time to cut off all fat food supplies and start out a much healthier diet.First person to look out for will be my Mum.She's one freak over diet. =\I should be like my mum.Be healthy.
Okay, i will have to study sometime after my 9pm show.I don't care.I have no mood for study.Duhz.
Yan * where is the love......*
Its been such a tiring day.Having morning lessons,or did i mean boring lessons?What more can a student of t04 expect on this pathetic friday morning,facing two ever-awarding tutors*if you get what i mean*, to be a good day to start off? argh.Alright,i am done with all the complains about tutors,i get good ones too,just like our beloved Ms Ivy Tan. =) Its so wonderful that we have her.Tourism people ya?
Okay,its an unplanned weekend up ahead.Probably a few rounds of shopping to do for the preparation of chinese new year.yeah!! my fav festivals of all.=)Anyway,jsut got myself into the movie,Meet The Fockers with my fellow peeps,Senget,Paul and Tong.Romantic we did, the four of us only.Its been such longggg time i ever catch a movie with less than six people.Met up with the guys An,James,ben and Senget for thier KFC dinner.It was home for the rest while Senget and I decided to get our asses down to subway,to kill our time before the midnight show.BAck to the show,it was good.At least good enough to keep me entertained.I feel good.
Oh my.I am feeling refreshed after so many days of unncessary thoughts.Its just braincellsconsuming hooby i always have.To those who cared,those who bothers,i am okay,i guess?I guess its time to relax abit for my weekend as i will be into my lecture notes for term test revision.*killer stress!!*PLus, neverending projects,assignments and whatever nonsense that is waiting for me to clear and accomplish.OH LORD!! I will die soon.I promise i will.*screams!!*
Nothing is fair.Play the game,by the rules.I guess i pretty much have to learn those rules and getover it to play the game.If i choose the game that i want to play.Its going to be another yettoberevealed truth,something that may arise to become trouble,i guess.I loved this peace and love now,i wish i could stop it,i tried.I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.I promised i will. =)
Hmmm.Never mind if you guys don't get what i meant.Its not supposed to be understood anyway.LAME.I know i am.Its time to zzzzzzz,i am dead beat.Chill out.
Yan * the unrevealed truth lies within u...*
rwd memories.one of my fav pic.the true BLUE friends. i supposed. =)
:: Yan ::
icycherry... in the name of ryna and winnie. haha.rubbish.the day we chilled at Billy Bombers,the fries were yummmyy...right my dear ry?
:: Yan ::
duhz.Been such a long day which i shall been proud about.I attended all lessons,both tut and lec today.Thinking of tomorrow makes me go argh!!bORING TUTS I HAVE TO GO THROUGH FOR 4 HOURS!!Damn.
At times i'm so confused of being busy and bored. BEing bored.due to unwillingnesss to get my stuff/work done.Bring busy.Due to overloaded projects,deadlines and my SIP!! Oh my.How i can be the happygolucky me i use to be.i feel like crying.Tormenting myself for nothing.Simply nothing.I can't understand myself.Why am i in this state?Life should be good for what i have now,for what my life is all about.
Looking at the lil fish in the jar i had infront of my computer table,i began to feel so sorry for him.This lil fish comes from godknowswhere,but its from Tong.Why do i feel sorry? Due to neglection and moving him into this small jar,where he used to live in a bigger tank,with pebbles too.Though its small living space for this lil fish,at least he do not suffers from accumalated stress,feelings and tons of stuff. He's a happy fish.*Kuai Le Yu* Oh ya,i've completely forgotten its his feeding time! *oh oh...*
Sudden craving for ice-cream!Shall get my ass down to cold storage to get my favourite sweet corn ice cream.yummmmyyy.though i am gettng fatter and fatter each day, anyway i am fat already,so who cares.I suffer from neverending cravings,eating all the time.Now i am craving for tepanyaki!!Anyone for a meal?Alright,i'm being bored,not wanting to do up my resume anyway.
ARGH!!!!! Fuck up me.Buay tahan!Can i stop thinking and thinking?It will only end up nothing but trouble.Understand girl?TROUBLE! oh my.this is the first symtom towards my bonkersness.duhz.No need to bother about me.I'm fine.ya,fine.
Yan* thats it.*
I HATE BEING SO ME!!! oh my.I have skipped lessons like nobody's business.Damn.POM lec,mgmt acct.ARGH!!! i am so frustrated,being to miss lessons,not getting tut done.Yet i am stucked with tons of never-ending projects. *Pom,Air BIz,MEIT....*Oh my. oh my.I will go bonkers too.Pray hard for her.
Well,i had my hair done today,spending a huge amount i supposed.Then,bumped into Bert and Hock as Bert having his haircut.Senget joined us after his class.Headed home at 3.30,met up with Tong to pass him stuff.Anyway,he have two days MC to be away from school.* how i wish it was me who have the mc..*Went dinner with papa mama and it was home for the whole night.I shall get to my Air Biz research stuff done. *its an order!!*
Off to watch my fav show,Soars in the sky.Chn55 people! * super super stress and sad!!!*
Yan* i wonder how,i wonder why??*
Days are bad. Hmmm,my life been upside down.I have messed it up by myself.Buay tahan is the word.Had a pretty relax day skipping MEIT as usual.How will i get back my grades if i;m gonna slack like this? I am so undisciplined,finding tons of excuses to hide my responsibilities.Term test coming up next week,with POM and Mgmt Accounting. *pray for her..* Will she make it this sem? Its tough.With much distractions and ermmm..alright,shall not say much,personal affairs.
Wonder if i shall skip mgmt aact tutorial tomorrow,to get my hair done.I seriously need my as-the-usual-hairstyling,rebonding.It will be my 4th time,third year in the row.*hiao char bo* I just can't stand my oessy hair in this current state,it really makes me fed up!!Never-ending investments on my hair,colouring,rebonding..treatments,blah blah blah.duhz.Blame god for not giving me nice hair like Bao's,Tong's or Ling's.bah.
Complications AGAIN. Can you guys read the word AGAIN?duhz.I am so argh......such a disappoinment myself.Why do i have to want things forever?Why the matter just won't get off my mind.Is my problem since day one.Unnecessary affairs of the heart.I am contradicting enough all these months.Since when has all these started?? I had to admit this unknown feeling.It will be the beginning of another yet-to-be-seen nightmare.It will hurt us all,spoil everything from what we have build.Yet,nothing must be revealed,venting all thoughts and frustrations here.duhz.Thats what my bloggie is about.I am emphasizing,its my problem,something in me that puts me in this spot. I am afraid of losing any of my loved ones anymore.
Okay.......
Deal.I will make up my mind soon.Soon to get all these away.I seriously need to concentrate on my studies,esp this sem being super short and super busy with 2 major projects.Still have tons to do,tons to follow up. Oh my... i am losing my life.So sad. =(
I will be back soon.
Yan * living in shouldn't have known truth.*
Oh my god.This is my new verb,Vexsiansation. Its the meaning of vex + sian = vexsiansation.duhz right? I'm feeling so blueeeeee.Life is so argh!!!
There are just so much stuff to complete.Air biz,MEIT,POM,,Jap and now the biggest one, SIP!!Gonna prepare all the reusmes and application letters to grab the best company. Oh my,wish me tons of luck.SIP is super super damn important in my whole diploma education.Anyway,i just had my basic theory,which was i am not sure-if-i-can-make-it.* prays...* Its been like so slacked that i hardly get down to my project work which i am suppose to do for today.Argh! i am feeling so undisciplined,living life with no piorities at all.All i am aware is that i am wasting my time,playing and seeking fun.I AM BEING TOO LAZY!!! I need more discipline.My responsibilities and piorities.I am always busy it seems.Reasons: Unknown.
It was pretty much of slacking with my dear Ryna at Tm,dinner with family then meeting up with peeps Tong and Jason. * jasper being fierce today...* bahz.
School will be fine tomorrow,with lessons ending at one.Then i will be heading for POM and projects stuff.I need to get em all done.I will do it. *if nth goes wrong.*
Simply had no mood to blog,nothing to add on.Mood swings had haunt me again as affairs of the heart is back.ITS BACK. argh! Why can't i settle down with nothing.Why do i always have to want sth? Oh my.....anyone for help? so torturing!!
Yan* i am not feeling good*
Dead tired.It was almost five am in the morning that i slept.With Paul and Tong for sleepover. * we did not do anything...* Haha.Watched vcds and chat abit here and there.The three of us were like pigs sleeping till 2 plus and i was the one cooking lunch for them. Menu of the day :Fried rice. I am a qualified cook ya? It was the whole day slacking home with peeps with Senget joining us at the later part of the day.Feeling good with them around. =) anyway.i'm a qualified hair-stylist-who-diy-in-hair-dyeing. Tong wanted his hair back to brown and i helped him with it.We had Mac for dinner as we wanted to try the new twister fries. yummmyyy. it was the same as A&W curly fries.
Then all of us headed home with the three Ws chatting at the pavilion.It was eleven when i got home and to think about it, i have to revise for my basic theory !!! Oh shit. i hope i can do it. *fingers crossed* wish me luck!!!! alright, time to shoo...more updates tomorrow!!
P/s: Chiang,dun think too much k? Life's like that.Be positive,it will be fine.I will be here. =)
Yan * wish me pots of luck*
i am dead tired. =( fancy having only 4 hours of sleep after much of farewell gathering fo r my peep,Mond.We have sadly lost him to the army...*ns la*keke.OKay,Brief describtion of whats going on this day ....
Alright, i am still admiring my new hairstyle,under the hands of a what-i-call-a-pro hairstylist.Its definately worth the price,worth the choice.*haha* I am going nuts about haircuts.Its time for me to end here...i'm just too tired to go on. Good night everyone.Chills.... Yan* my new style..*
We all had a great time hanging out for such a long time.Its been fun. Rwd gathering with following members : Ben,Tong,Mond,Bert,James,Hock,Chee,An,Chin Meng,Alex,Senget,Dick,Jason,Paul,Yan,Bao and Peggie. 18 in total.It was dinner at Seoul Garden to bid farewell for 3 weeks to Mond * Ns lor...*,then it was Cs/General gaming and pool at pavilion.I really had my share of fun with my sep xiong di,Desmond Wan.I will missed the times hanging out with you!!! 3 weeks eh!!No one will help me le!! *keke*
We had our final part at central park with the guys playing soccer.This is the rwd feeling i once had so strong. =) Will it be back for good?Let this be.Rwd.
Okay...update more of the fun tomorrow...its time to sleep as i wll be having my SIP briefing at 9am, Lt 21...*argh!!*
P/s my long time xiong di/best fren : Keong, Happy 19th Brithday!!!!! * old liao la..*
Yan * out of the blues.*
I am suffering from PMS!! I am not in the mood!! I feel so ROTTEN!!! *argh!*screams!!*
Stay away from me.I am feeling rather down these days due to dunno-whats-the-reason.bahz.Leave me alone.
Yan * hell with it.*
Its been rather quiet these two days.Haven been meeting rwds exceptionally that i bumped into An and Bao in school. Its been rather refreshing to hang out with my mates,those 38s as usual. Ryna,Ling and I went for pastamania for lunch last afternoon.Its sooooo yummmyyy....*thats explains those extra pounds* Never had the chance to shed them off. bahz.
Wa.Its been the fifth day into the 2005.Its been pretty much the usuals though i have missed certian stuff depp in me. =\ The emotional side of me is getting stronger,making me to feel bad over certain issues and dramas of my life.Life is never fair.I can't possibly have everything i have set my eyes for in life.I tried.Sometimes,i do fail.The past one year have been dramatic that i have experienced from.From relationships,friendships,family and life.I had fun,sorrows,pains,touched and unforgetable moments.As i have mentioned in my previous posts,i lived a fufilled 18.I'm glad that those days were over and done with,that i've moved on in this state of mind.Its been such peace that i can ever ask for.No more traumas ever since. I loved those peeps around me,those whom i need not mention,they knew it.
Yet,i had something in mind.Something i longed for but not despo over with. *bleah* Sounds contradicting enough? hahaha.I am afraid of this thing,yet i wish to feel it again.The kind of feeling that once unreal yet it was warm,sweet and undescribable.This crazy lil thing is known as.....alright,its up for all to guess.Shall keep it a secret,let it be a suspense. *shHhhhH..if u know the ans.* duhz.
I'm in total control of myself.Shall be me.Unless..........okay. Enough.I'm getting way too far. =)
Time for some chatting over the phone.Argh!! Long day up ahead tomorrow with meetings to attend,lectures and tutorials.The school life.
Yan * i'm still loving it.*
MONDAY: both tests on the same day.Amadeus can't make it, but accounting i did it.*suprisingly....* After school was meeting up with my fellow rwds.Tong,Paul,An,James,Mond,Bert and Hock at the street soccer court.After much discussion, we headed for Eastpoint for some pool playing. There were the man vs the aguas table.An vs Tong *man*,Paul vs James *aguas* while the rest were the norms which included Mond,Bert and Senget as well as Jason.Had a fair bit of playing after Mond vs Senget game.It was kind of Mond to teach this student,which is me.I'm just an idiot in pool playing.duhz.but i love the game though.Simply enjoyed the time i hanged out with my peeps.Its just too bad that Bao could not join us as she had her responsiblity as being a sister herself.* i've share the fun with u* no worries.
it was almost 8pm that we ended the pool playing and headed for more programs.The guys were deciding if its another Cs gaming or soccer watching.Hence,they headed back to Qin Yao's place for soccer watching while i got back home in cab.Paul and Tong headed for soccer watching after getting thier dinner while i got home for duties.Had so much of them to clear,that much of project work to start on.Argh!! *MEIT,POM and Air Biz.*Never ending projects are here to haunt me once again.This is so disaster.I'm being too slacked ever since yr 1 sem 2.Hoping that i will be able to make it this sem.*fingers-crossed*
Alright,time to drop offf.Its time for some work...duhz.
Yan * love me or hate me.*
my dear lil cute cousin,jordan. He's such a cutie pie.just like me right? thick-skin-lives-in-me. kekeke. duhz.
:: Yan ::
Its the bad weather out there leaves me in the sleepy mode.Cosy i am under my blanket to sleep longer.I got up as early as 9.30 with Mond's morning call for rwd match,giving morning calls to Bao and Alex.
After getting myself from the bed,got prepared and met up with Tong at his block,intending to get a cab to Bedok Reservoir.After long waiting for almost half an hour,we could get a single cab as the bad weather explains why.* damn it* There were two irritating-who-dunno-thier-cab-etiquette aunties in pink umbrellas *trying to act cute ar*, simply snatch the queue by standing a few steps in front of us. Even the 240 kia which is none other then our Tong,could not help it but to call for a cab. The cab lines were full and i had to call several times to get through and get a cab.*after trying several any-o-how dailed nos.* Finally we got our cab and got tot he deatination,on time.It was pouring cats and dogs yet the match went on.this time round,the players were minimal with An,James,Jason,Paul,Alex and Tong missing in action. *Tong went for the 2nd half after much consideration*There were only Bao Peg and myself there to support them,getting them the usual water and additional towels.Its part of our job though,our part to play for rwd.
It was fun.I can't explain why.Its been a long time ever since we had all these fun and laughter among us.Its satisfying and consoling to realise though. =) The players are all went thorough,inside out,we *the girls* were wet after running across the street to get them water supply.Lunch was somewhere near the soccer field at Bedok reservior.Home sweet home after lunch,Tong,Keong and I hitched a cab by the bus stop and headed home,leaving the rest,Senget,Chee,Peg,Bao,Mond and Qin Yao,catching the bus back home. *sorry dudes..* Sleeping was all i did and got up for dinner.I meant home-cooked dinner.Its been such a long long time ever since i had my home-cooked dinner.Mum and Dad took total control of the kitchen with our usual favs,cabbage rice,lotus soup,stir-fry veggies and sliced pork.* yummmy....* Its a blessing to sit round with my dear family. =) thinking that i would be slacking home and get some Accounts revision for the night,but i was out with my peeps for some soccer watching of S'pore vs Myanmar. *i'm not a fan of S'pore nor Myanmar, just to catch the heat*. The match was full of fire,with multiples of red cards for Myanmar and heated fightings.Its an intense match of the year.duhz.Never expect such a good show from local soccer scene. Then it was time to head home for my revision.Mond and Senget went the same way leaving Jason,Tong and myself to wait for Ben.* they headed for subway to work.* Hitched another cab ride from the guys as i was heading home alone.thanks dude.
That almost sums up my pretty refreshing Sunday.School tomorrow will be a hectic one for me,with Amadeus test as well as Accounting test. *argh...tests...exams..* Never-ending.Alright,shall look foward to the dinner rwd will be having for Mond as his temp departure to the military life. * oh so sad...* Alright, praying hard for a wonderful week up ahead.
P/s : To rwd players who played in the match on this very day *please take care of urselves,after playing so hard in the rain. Don't get sick and get urselves medication.*
Thats about it for the day.I'm tired again.....so its time to ZZZzzzz. Nitez everyone.
Yan * bless or a curse?*
It was the very first day of 2005.Multiple events happened on this very first day of the year.Spent the entire night with most of my peeps.Met up with An,James,Tong,Mond,Senget,Chin Meng,Bert,Ben,Paul and Peg.It was time at the park after AN and James left for work as the rest of the guys joined kuku team for a lil soccer.
Twelve. Happy New Year!! 2005 is here.The seven of us went to meet up with Paul after his work and off we head for Pasir RIs park to chill for the night.Had lots of fun though, the moments at rock 13,then it was the maze that made me freaked out. *damn it la....* Esp to the works of Paul.Luckily i was on the phone with Ryna,with Paul and Tong discrupting all the time.keke.Entertainment ya?Its been such a long time ever since we got so crazy. It was all about fun.I was being knocked againest the lamp post,the tree and lots more....The worst part was to face the fact that my hp flew out of my pocket,and it hits the pavement floor. * breaks my heart* though.It was scratched.*ARGH!!* what the hell!! How can i be that careless not to attached the earpiece properly to my hp. Its so saddening.With my mp3 spoiled, then now my hp.Okay, sad stuff aside,i still have a wonderful time this new year.Thanks to all my peeps.
P/s Tong: Wei, its nothing le,i will get over it soon.Sorry to make you feel this way.Cheers ya? =)
Hmmm, i am sitting all alone in this house of mine,in this room of mine,had nothing mind.I guess i will be home all day long as the whole family have been out to Aunt's place for mahjong.Anyway,i will have to study for my accounting test on Mon soon and get some of the chores done.Its rwd coming back match tomorrow morning at Damai Sec.Lets see how will rwd fare.duhz.
Bored.No plans ahead.It will be another week ahead,with events such as tests,project meetings andlots of school stuff.The sad event will be Mond's departure to the army. =\ Dun worry,nine weeks will be over soon.Oh ya, its been raining like nobody's business ever since yesterday.*argh* though its cool but its been such a hussle to go out in such weather.stupid rain.Alright shall stop here for my very first post in 2005. Cheers!!!!
Yan *blessings.*