... Y A N ...

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`23.
`EGG.
`Virgo.
`Attitude.
`Pms Queen.
`Sensitive.
`38-ness.
`Irritating.

... LOVEs ...

` twentysix.
` POOH.
` YEOWs.
` JIE MEIs.
` RWDs.
` MONEY.

... desires ...

`Hong Kong Trip 2007.
`Sarah Jessica Parker "Lovely" Fragrance.
`2nd pair of Havianas flip flops.
`tons of flats/sandals/pumps.
`Bags Bags Bags!
`LV coin pouch AGAIN.
`E71 mobile phone.
`Coach Wristlet.
`Birthday BKK Trip 09!
`Phuket Trip
`Hong Kong Trip 2010
`GRADUATION!!!
`Adidas Candy Watch.
`Bangkok Trip 08/09

... inspirations ...

`SIEW XIN CHEE.
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LOOPO.
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SENGET SIEW XINYI.
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QASHaron.
`ONG AH BAO.
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TEACHER PEGGIE.
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SUET JING.
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JANICE.
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AMY.
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Chanz
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Denise
`Candice
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Yiling
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Drea
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Karin
` Tannia
` Zi Ting
` Hui Yun
` Jeslyn
` Joyce
` Pearlyn
` Nurina
` Adelene
` Terence
` Vincent
` Annie
` Rashidah
` Rose

... her doings ...

> self-doubt....
> Let it go, girl!
> 柠檬草的味道
> time flies....
> 开始懂了
> STUCKED!
> Unspoken Missessss....
> life is so random.
> I Should Be So Lucky on 14 Dec 2008.
> HERE WE GO!

... memory lane ...

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...SHOUT ALL YOU WANT ...


... BIG Thanks To ...

` YOU.
` PEOPLE whom woke me up.
` SUAY-NESS that hit me hard.

Its 2005
Friday, December 31, 2004

The end looking foward to a new beginning....2005!! Its been a long year of 2004 indeed.Multiple unforgetable events happened during the year,getting here to who i am now.Its amazing of what i've been through,overcome and endured while recollecting those memories i had.


The fun,joy and laughter i had with my peeps,my darlings and of cuz ahem.Then,it was the pain,hell and nonsense i went through with em.Events and events after one another.I'm blessed i have been through all,that i should i well.Thanks once again to those that were there for me when i need it.*some i can't live without with*Okay,plans ahead this night,hanging out with my peeps Tong,Apul,Bao,Peg,An,Mond,Senget blah blah..*loved their company* somewhere near our place,the usual memorable central park,rather than having to squeeze with the crowd at town,sentosa as well as pasir ris.*u nv know tsunami...* duhz.


Alright,not much of partying to be done this year,shall look foward to the one next year?? Happy New Year everyone!! I will still be the me,the eversoirritating-crazy-38-cute-funloving me.*very thick skin right?* thats typical me.Will be lving my 18 with fufillment,not wasting anybit of my 18.Still loving those around me and hope they love me too.*duhz -_-"' * Counting down.........

My dear Ry!! Happy 19Th Birthday....opps! sorry to mention that figure..*kekeke* Love u loads girl! *huggles*


Yan* better coming year...*

ARGHhh ranted @ 7:05 PM :|

Slack was all i did

Hmmm...What a good day to start with Accounting lec at 10 when i apparently wake up at 9.25 after Tong's morning msg.Thanks dude,be it for the good or bad. =)

At least i am still on time for lec.It was then the project meetings after lunch with Marilyn and co.Had my airline and meit meetings with much of discussion covered.Anyway,i was interupted by Tong's calls when i am having my meit discussion with my dear Ryna.*keke, had bickerings around with em* Met up with Paul,Mond,An,Senget,Tong and Hock for movie in the evening after my Jap class.We caught the movie Kung Fu Hussle and it was damn lame yet damn funny.Had a great time chilling out with my peeps after long lost time watching movies with em. Had KFC for dinner after movie and it was time to head home,where Tong met up James for work. Cool night indeed. =)

Ok, fun time's over.Its time to sleep soon,but te guys are still here....haha.I have yet to do my POM tut but who cares anyway.I guess this slack attitude will follow me through my poly life.duhz.Thinking of clubbing sometime soon when i have the money as well as the time.I need money now.Couple of activities coming up with New Year's coming blah blah blah.

P/s..My dear Ryna...Advanced Happy Birthday To You,just in case i might forget to msg you as i will be busy counting down.Keke.Do always remember that you will have a friend in me and love ya loads!! *muacks* Be blessed in your soeverirritating 19 k??I will join you nine months later. bleah.

Done for the night. Nightzzz.....

Yan * be blessed*

ARGHhh ranted @ 1:05 AM :|

The love i had
Wednesday, December 29, 2004

ARgh!!! SO frustrated.I have to send my mp3 all the way to Internatioanl Business Park,where Creative Technology is situated.DAMN! Just my luck.Its been such a notsosmoothweek for me ever since after Christmas.I can be as far as Jurong East to get my mp3 done.Its so far like the other end of S'pore. ARGH!! So frustrated.How can i find the time to go all the way to that place near IMM,and i want to listen to my mp3 so badly.Creative products indeed,using it for only a month and this is what happens.Just my luck.ARGH!!!


Frustrations aside.It was such a long day and i got home only like seven.bah.Kakitori test was fine,managed to clear each of them,Pom was a lil disaster with much of copying from the essay part.haha.Thanks to Ryna who sat beside me and both of us were like sharing answers as it was at LT21,with no spacing between us.What kind of test is this man? keke.Then it was much of slacking time for lunch at Biz Park as usual,then Jupiter for a drink with Pom meeting on and then it was lastly Accounts tut.Managed to attend full lessons today. =) It was a lil shopping time after class with my dear Ryna and got ourselves pretty nail enamel.*nv fail to shop with you..*A lil walk at Challenger after some queing at the 4-D at tamp mall as Ry has to get her Mum's 4-D.So,Ry headed home and i waited for Daddy to fetch me for dinner. Had been home doing my stuff,jap hiragana hw and now blogging infront of my *ahemm* new com. Sorry for the over boasting of my new com,those who knows understands my pain with my previous one that stuck for 6 yrs.*its an antique,believe it or not...*


Well,haven been blogging about my thoughts recently.Now,i am having the time all to myself and i shall begin some thoughts recently. I have cleared much of my doubts i had in me,leaving those behind me.I have yet come to realise that there are lots of things i have neglect much and some i have taken much into it.This is the helpless side of me.I can't simply balance off everthing.I have tried to be fair for all,yet there are times i can't make it for all. I have lots in me.There are too many touched moments that my friends around had given me.

Once,i was dead,In the name of love.These people bring me back to life.To who i am,what i am now.They have brought lots of joy,not forgetting tough moments in this long journey i have embarked since last christmas.This chirstmas,its the best christmas i ever asked for.With my darlings,dearies and precious with me,those wonderful thoughts i received,the wonderful surprises i had from the four esp,i lived the fullest in this christmas. Like i have been stating,all these memories will be deep in my heart,never will i ever forget em.When i face problems in the future,i will bring em out to remind me what they are for,where are they from.Before we proceed on to the coming 2005.I recalled allthose we had in 2004.The ups,the downs and everything.aThe Fun,The Sorrows,The Quarrels and never-ending bickerings.I have missed em quite abit,yet i will be loving it. To those, you know who you are. *rwds--->Tong,Paul,An,Alex,Senget,Keong,Mond...* *Darlings--->Bao,Peg,Ryna,Jessica,Ling...* Those 38s and my dearest family. I love all of you,i mean all of those mentioned, from the bottom of my heart.Can you guys feel my love??? Haha. *HUggles* I can never thank em,never repay em for thier care and concern. I will always keep it with me through this journey.I have lived a fufilled 18. =) Sounded as if i am going to die......*choy!* I will be alive with all these love around. Its them who bring me to life once again. I have always loved thier company. *Wo Men Dou Shi Zi Ji Ren.* duhz.


Okay,does that seem long?? I haven finished yet.But,shall stop here as i will go on till its never-ending.Or else,Tong will be commenting that i am writing a GP essay.*haha*I am not that pro,my dear friend.Shall look foward to another countdown,another Fun time with my peeps. =p 2005...2 days left.


Yan* i'm blessed.*

ARGHhh ranted @ 10:27 PM :|

My New Computer.....

Hmmm,9am to 5pm with a long day ahead tomorrow.argh!! With tests in the morning,japanese kakitori and Pom's class test.Just praying hard that both goes well.I did not manage to get much of Pom as i was so turned off by the chunks of theory that appear on my lec notes.Anyway,i got distracted by my new com!! *please feel happy for me..* Cheers!

Spent this simple day much keeping myself home after class,which i did not attend MEIT lecture due to the good weather to sleep under my cosy blanket.*bleah*Met up Paul and James for lunch and it was time to study and rest well home.

ALright,keep this post sweet and short as i will have to fight a long day tomorrow...stay tune to more naggings tomorrow.Chilling for the night..Huggles!!

Yan* stressed up*

ARGHhh ranted @ 1:19 AM :|

This is Me
Monday, December 27, 2004

Pretty simple Monday.Had lesson till 11 and met up with Paul,An,James and Alex for lunch at 828.Poor alex had lessons till 8pm while the rest of us went to An's place to slack.It was around 2pm that James and Paul had to go back for lessons.As for me,i went back home to sleep.Damn.I have pick up the habit of napping due to my slack timetable.At times i feel that i have better things to do then sleeping.haha.Oh gosh, i will have to study for POM as well as Japanese as there will be tests on the same day,from 9-1pm. *argh!!stress!!* Having tests and exams are the norms in any students' life.I can't handle em well with much stress and pressure i never fail to give myself.This is just Me.

As i was napping,Tong called to disturb .Never fail in disrupting my sleeps.I had to thank him though,otherwise i will be like sleeping till it was night time.Its good though as its been quite a time that we've really chat and catch up.Anyway,met up with Paul,An,James and Tong at An's block for a slacking session.It was initially my place,but i felt it was better to slack out there.*romantic ma...*haha.The breeze out there tonight is refreshing and chill.Great feeling. =) I was chatting with Paul for a lil while before i got back home.There are just some stuff in life i had no control over with,feeling helpless.Its saddening to see the close ones around me feeling down and depressed.I can't do anything to help.I will end up making things worse for them.Praying and hoping that the tide will be over soon.I wish to see the smiles on thier faces.You guys should know who you are......esp...THE CLOSE ONES.* see my face often and you guys will smile ya?* keke.


Just praying and hoping that both tests just turn out fine. *fingers crossed*Argh!! I have too much to do in the week with New year coming.2005,better be a better year for me,for those around me.Its another partyyyy time!! Whoo....


Yan* helpless friend*

ARGHhh ranted @ 11:19 PM :|


rwd.02.26. xmas time.the straw again. duhz.
:: Yan ::

ARGHhh ranted @ 8:32 PM :|


the blacks.rwd.22.26.05.xmas dinner time...cool?
:: Yan ::

ARGHhh ranted @ 8:30 PM :|


rwd. 05.02.26... the straw that spoil the pic.argh.a lil artistic though.xmas dinner was fun with my peeps around. =)
:: Yan ::

ARGHhh ranted @ 8:25 PM :|

Stress stress stress
Sunday, December 26, 2004

XMAS OVER, PARTY'S OVER! iTS STRESS TIME!! too many things to do,too many things to be done these two weeks.I am still considering of clubbing with Alex as well as Paul and An*surprise..* Damn,my mp3 is facing some earphone problems...*ARGH* got to get it repair soon if i can get the place right.Alright,sad things aside,now some updates this xmas.


Things were pretty simple during eve when we had dinner at 844.Mond,An,Paul,James,Tong,Bao,Peg and I sat at one table and ate so much.There were prawns,chicken,youtiao,toufu,kang kong and sweet sour pork.*yummy* Had fun around with my peeps taking pictures,yelling at each other,laughing at each other.We were so noisy.During our dessert time,i did another classic that i volunteer to serve them,which i made a mess out of it.I accidentally dropped the forks that were used for our xmas cakes into the whole bowl of lycheelongans. *opps....*The rest were in the situation of being either angry or funny. keke.Hope everything is fine after consumption.Well, we headed down to subway in cab but Peg and I did not stayed and got back to my place for sleepover while James and Tong stayed for the night.We had drinking session till 4 and got into lala land.......

It was time to head for Orchard to go shopping!! It was so kind of mum to sponsor me my shopping trip. =) Met up with Bao and the three of us went gaga over the Forever 21 top. *its beautiful..* In the end,I got myself a Roxy bag and a fox top for the coming chinese new year.Sales everywhere and it was so fun shopping!! Anyway,Peg and I came back to Tamp and met up with Paul and Tong for dinner.It was later decided that we spend the dinner time at James' place as he was too tired to meet us.The four of us slacked till it was 10 and headed for subway to spend this xmas with em. *see,i very noble hor..* keke. Its ok though as i really want to spent time with my peeps.They are everything to me at this point of time,this part of life.Getting kinda of mushy,but its true. I love my peeps all !! *muacks* I even bluff my way through to Mum that i had xmas bbq at Pasir Ris park.*haha* Sorry mummy....Got home only this morning at 8 and got my sleep till 2pm and headed for Grandma's place for some family time. Guess what??? Daddy got me a new com!! FINALLY....there goes this retarded com of mine as from tomorrow onwards.Thanks Daddy,anyway we got a good deal with my uncle as he is not using that often with work at Indonesia.My new com coming the way...no more complains from my peeps.*bleah*


This chirstmas is just so wonderful to be true.Thanks for those who were here for me,those who care,those who send ur wishes and presents with heart.Esp those precious people in my life.You guys should know lo,as well as my Mummy and Daddy,for much understanding after our quarrels last weekend.I love you both. =) Alright, should be in bed soon to get up early for school tomorrow.....Chills and Nitez!!

Attn to ...Tong.
Hey my dear friend,this is a special note to you jsut to encourage you not to feel so depressed,so stress and sad.Open urself to us and smile through ur day k? Dun feel so inferior becuz of that incident.I dun wan to lose the fun-loving and cheeky Tong i knew.Get over soon ya? I will be here for you if u need any crying shoulder,listening ear or someone to punch.Dun think so much la...*see my face and u will smile* You will always be one of my peeps..cannot siam liao la. *bleah*

Yan * i am blessed.*

ARGHhh ranted @ 11:56 PM :|

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
Saturday, December 25, 2004

Those who were out there,everyone.....MERRY CHRISTMAS!! I love my xmas night so much, it was peaceful,fun and joy. Love them all loads...*muacks!* Hope they do enjoy as much i as i did.Thanks precious.


Shall update with the fun i had these very xmas eve. Its been sth something apart from rwd xmas bbq. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!


Yan * blessings and lovings...*

ARGHhh ranted @ 3:03 AM :|

Thursday, December 23, 2004


My precious !!! 22inch Tigger,Pooh,Piglet and Eyeore. The biggesteversweetestever Xmas present from Alex,Tong,An and Paul. So touched!! Thanks peeps,love ya loads!! *muacks!* kekeke.My precious.....
:: Yan ::

ARGHhh ranted @ 11:26 PM :|

Pain of the month !!

Why has it to be the girls suffering from all these pains?? Its so torturing.*argh*It all ruined my day man.I was thinking of getting down to Tm with Bao after my group meeting to get some stuff yet i was stopped by some real acute pain * that will be menses cramps!* It was really killing me for the very first time and i had to get painkillers so desperately.Thanks to Ryna and Ling,you were my saviour.The pain was not any better till my face turn white and pale,*thats what minah and bao said*All of em persuade me to get home and rest for the day.Got home to rest after the medication and bao slacked at my place till it was 3.30 that we head for Tm. Skipped my firsteversowantedtogo jap tutorial. =( Missed my class.I loved that class man.


Met up with rwd at astro as they were there for some soccer.All thanks to the painkiller i had, i would not even survive for the day.Its been good to be around with rwd around.Had dinner after soccer at 829 and walked back home in a slow pace. *can't get any faster with cramps*Been messing around with my xmas stuff for my peeps.Its sth lil for em though,something within my means.I love giving presents and lil gifts,i get the kind of satisfaction when they appreciate my lil gifts. haha.Anyway,wanted to thank Tong,Paul,An and Alex once again for my biggesteversweetestever xmas present!! *huggies!!* Love you guys to bits and pieces! haha.


Alright,shall get down to some POM tut,which i am kinda of turned off already,preparing for bed,preparing for some xmas celebration tomorrow.Plans for the night,dinner at 844 with rwd company.Simple gathering thats worth much of everything.It doesn't have to be happening as for now,we will have it in the near future.Btw,Merry Xmas to everyone reading this post!! Love all my peeps,jie meis,rwd,38s and family to bits and pieces!! * you guys know who u are..dun be shy..* Merry Xmas!!!

Yan * its a blessed christmas!*

ARGHhh ranted @ 11:04 PM :|

Pain of the month !!

ARGHhh ranted @ 11:02 PM :|

My Blessings,my sorries.
Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Hohoho. Christmas here. Well, though we are not having the rwd xmas bbq *which is kinda of sad*,but we are making it up with a gathering xmas dinner!!i guess it will be pure hell of great time this xmas with my peeps and no one else by my side. =) Its my blessing.

Lil quick updates for the past few days. Been so busy shopping and schooling this xmas week.Went downtown with Ryna to shop around and got myself a new Gio top on Mon. Then,it was more shopping on tuesday as i met up with Alex to shop around for xmas gift.Paul and An met up with us a lil later. I have just receive the biggest xmas present in my whole life ever.*i swear* its something so unexpected,unpredictable and unbelievable.Alright, i sound so exploded with all these bombastic words.But,its true.I'm so touched.REALLY TOUCHED!! A very big thank you to all four of em, Paul,Tong,An and Alex. *huggs and kissesss!!* haha.I received a happy family of Winnie The Pooh series from them, which includes The Pooh itself,Piglet,Tigger and Eyeore. Its the most beautiful and sweetest collection ever,shall post up the pic real soon! I named it as "Wo Jia Si Ge Bao", all are my baos,my precious. Thereafter,we proceed from Tm to central park and i have to carry two big bags of 4 stuffed toys all the way to central park.* so aunty me* haha.We were meeting up with Tong and James before their work and were all slacking till wee hours after they left for work.Its been such a longgg time since we had a time like this.It was too good to be true.The night was filled with the touched and sweetest thoughful moments of my life.They never fail to bring joy to my life.Its my sorries that i had failed them.Its my blessing still knowing i still have all of them by my side.I'm blessed,i'm touched. =) A big Thank You.


Anyway,i've been real busy with school and xmas stuff.Had plans to follow and project meeting to attend.I'm running out of time!!ok, shall update more if i have the time till xmas.Keep a lookout for my precious Pooh & family pics ya? They are so cuteeee,so beautifuL!!
Muacks!!


Yan* blessed....*

ARGHhh ranted @ 11:58 PM :|

Terror Night
Sunday, December 19, 2004

Argh. My weekend's been such a spoilt one. being into war with my Dad.Its just some parent-child miscommunication and understandings. *sucks* Who loves getting into quarrels with parents? its nth but stress and unwanted troublesome.Hope it will get over soon.Can't stand my Dad's great thinking over such issues.He's definately in the list of being one MCP (male chuvanist pig) *if my spelling's right*.Wonder how my beloved mum can stand his MCP for all these coming twenty years.

Alright,enough of the unhappiness. Anyway,had my saturday night pretty tense as my decision lies on going home or accompanying Tong and Paul for their work.Those two peeps came over to my place to have thier hair dyed. We were so busy with hairstyling.This was the ever first time i DIY at dying my own hair. Tong bought a bottle of dye for Paul,yet it did not turn out much.Hence i went down to the guardian near my place and bought another dye which was blonde as well as a bottle of bleach. I was thinking of getting my fringe a new highlight of blonde shade.The three of us were so busy whole afternoon with experimenting the dye and highlights.Both Tong and I helped out in Paul's dye,I did Tong's highlights and Tong did mine. SO fine to say that, all the three of us had skills.* thick skin right..* Yet,its the truth.I was so afraid it turned out bad, its my first time doing DIY and it was bleaching. I had mine bleached twice as i wan it to be real blonde.I was so afraid that Tong might screw up my precious hair.haha.*i bet he's afraid i did his too..* Well, Tong, had any comments regarding ur highlights?? keke.We were discussing on investing a salon in future, it will be named as www.WWW.hair salon. Its the initial of the 3 bosses,Wei Tong,Wen Yan and Wee Chiang. It will be a success man i tell u...haha. *as if...*Anyway, i had fun around this dyehair session. it was good. =)


Thereafter, we headed down for subway.*again* The same routine goes. My jie meis Bao and Peg were there too.We had rykiel with us as she was feeling rather down. *hope she will be fine . Argh!! its such a dramatic year 2004 for so many of us.Lets pray hard and keep our fingers crossed for a better 2005. Had a pretty simple day after breakfast at 844 with Tong,Paul and Jason. Slacked a lil at jason's place and got home to nap till it was dinner time.They headed for Chin Meng's place after dinner and i headed home as i don't wanna get home late again. *haiz...* Stress!!!! Keeping some moments to myself and get ready for school tomorrow.I love my Mons anyway. =) Plans after school : Bugis for a lil xmas shopping. *budgeting one..* I'm broke you know. Problems never ending!!


That's about it. Looking foward to a peaceful xmas. Just some time with my peeps.I missed those times with only us around. its been a long time.Hope i dun get disappointments. =P


Yan* what goes around comes around*

ARGHhh ranted @ 8:55 PM :|

Hmmm..... Life.
Friday, December 17, 2004

"Get a life girl !! You are losing it!!" This is the constant reminder i had. Had the intention of getting a job. Just can't get a suitable one. Or am i being too choosy? I am not ready for the working world yet. I need money !! To fufill all my wants.Oh my god, there are never-ending wants that i have in mind.


By means of getting a job, it will affect my pace of life.Its between school,family as well as friends. Argh!! Fucked up life i have now. Full of grudges. Anyway,i'm sorry for all the attitudes.tantrums i threw these days,i'm not in da best of moods.I do hope i get over it soon. Its some personal affairs of ups and downs i'm going through, which i shall not mention much. Its those who knows what my grumbles are all about. =

The day's pretty simple. It was some rwd time after school.Met up with Bao,An,Alex for lunch at 827.Bumped into Mond,Senget,Keong and Chin Meng and the eight of us slacked at Blue Sea. Initially it was meeting up with Paul and Tong to register thier basic theory.Instead,it was left with Alex and I going down to CDC. *they went their way* It was pretty tired having to walk to CDC in such a HOT weather. Why do i have such a friend.* keke* But its ok la. =P Then i got home napping till wee hours.Supposed to meet up Alex for dinner but he got his own programs.* hehe*


Mood swings.Mood swings.Plenty of mood swings !!! LIFE!!


Yan * why? why? why? *


ARGHhh ranted @ 10:13 PM :|

Fufilled
Thursday, December 16, 2004

Hmmm. Ponders. I have skipped Mgmt Acct !! Thats big news !! Its a mustgosubject lecture,yet, look what i've done. Never manage to force myself to attend.Its ok. I guess i will have to put in extra effort. *winks*


Anyway, i had breakfast with Tong,James and Jason after their midnight work.We met up at 844 for a simple breakfast and there after,i was caught in the decision whether to go for lec.results: absent. We headed home and met up again to accompany James to meet his insurance agent, Erin.After the appointment,we went to hang around looking out for good prices to sell hp* tong and james'* Got home rather early at 12.30 and took a nap till 3 and it was time to head for my jap lesson.


Time flew rather fast and it was 5.30pm that i ended my lesson.It was an interesting lesson for the day.* learn much* Met up with Chanz and headed for astro turf *the guys playing soccer*. Slacked around was all i did.Yet it was comfortable and relaxing having my peeps' company. anyway,my papa Tong got himself injured again.* hope its nth serious* I will pray hard for you..but,please go get urself a doctor.Don't play play.Headed for Ocha after the soccer time and dinner was at 829 * had chicken chop noodles..* Tong,Paul,An,Yuan and I headed home after dinner.Home sweet home!! Here i am sitting infront of my pathetic com blogging.Just manage to get myself into PoM's tut. Anyway,i did not complete,*lazy bones..*Alright, weekend's here, plans?? Still in mind.Shopping?? but no money. Slacking?? Too bored for a weekend at home. Subway??? Nonono. Hey peeps!! Any plans for me?? Or rather clubbing?? Its been a longgggg time since i club!! It still involves MONEY!! I am kinda of tight these days with no income. *argh...* Jobs?? yet lazy. Contradicting i may be, but this is me. Can't stand it man.


Alright, thats about it, life's better these days.Adapting to the changes. The goal of my life at this point of time will be my driving license. May lady luck be on my side during my test dates!! The dream of life...here i come!



I am satisfied.I am fufilled. =)


Yan * license in progress*

ARGHhh ranted @ 10:26 PM :|

Normal Mode
Tuesday, December 14, 2004

I am so tired!! *yawns...* Been on the phone with Tong,Paul and James till 3am. Indeed we had lots to talk about ya?? Anyway, i did not manage to get up at 8am after Tong's morning call and skipped MEIT lec. *guilty* It was a rather short day for me in school after Airline Biz tut and group discussion. Then, it was time to head for town!! Going down with Ryna,Ling and Jessica. Had a great time to window shop,eyeing lots of stuff again.Esp those heels...*MNG one too ex*


It was such a tiring hang out till five plus and we all headed back for tampines/pasir ris.Met up with Tong as i was helping him to get his Long John dinner.We had a lil hang out till 7.45 and he was off to work,*as usual in cab..* rich dude. Eh, so rich then get me big big xmas present.keke.Then,it was home sweet home and did my tut. =) Its my normal mode again. I guess.I hoped. I prayed.


I am satisfied in this way. =)


Yan* hehehe...*

ARGHhh ranted @ 11:23 PM :|

The Grudge

Its been such an annoying night.Shall not mention much.Its all nothing but unhappiness,madness and more grudges. ARGH!! Irritating people indeed.



Anyway,its been such a relax pace mon indeed.Only had my two hour lesson in the lab learning the amadeus system, the reservation system for airline ticketing and stuff.Its fun learning em though.Had lunch with Paul,Alex and An at biz park,savouring my very beloved pork chops. *yummy* Then it was some slacking time till Paul's lesson starts at two.Got home and got my nap till 3.30 when Paul came with Mond.I have been picking up habits of sleeping these days.Excessive sleeping.Never had enough of em. *haha*Then it was time to have dinner and met up with papa Tong and Senget to 827.We had a great meal of fishball noodles and indian rojak. Then,Tong was bugging to watch the chn 8 show,* 9pm one..*,so we decided to go over to Ben's place.It was some good rwd hang out session i enjoy much.As usual only rwd kakis,with no one else,the same goes on like fighting,arguing and laughters all around. *this are the times..* =)though the moments are pretty short, yet its fun and pretty good hang out time.I'm not sure if these goes the same for the rest...



Then it was time to head for subway with Tong and Ben working lo. We head there in cabs and Tong,Paul and Mond played a trick on us. It was an lousy act lo,though you guys almost got me,but i am too smart to be true..*thick skin..* Right?? *haha* Then the night goes .................ARGH!!!



Everything changes. It changes now.



Yan * why should i care???*

ARGHhh ranted @ 1:29 AM :|

Contradictions Complicates My Life
Sunday, December 12, 2004

Hehehe.Here i am back to blog about my weekend.*thinking it would be bored..*Yet it turned out to be surprisinglyfunplusbusyplustiring,Ok,i had a pretty tough weekend.Thinking back regarding much of my own thoughts regarding friendship.Never mind if you don't get what i mean. =)

Here goes,my friday.It was a no school day for me as there wasn't any tutorials in week one,and my fridays comprises of 4 hours of straight tut.*can be bored..*What i love about my fridays is that i am only having morning lessons from 9am to 1pm.* wooohooo!* Oh ya back to my friday,i was thinking of meeting up Tong and James for breakfast after thier work as i had not hang out having breakfast with em for sometime.*thinking it was time to catch up..*But,who knows what,the previous night i message my papa tong,he nv reply,thinking it was yet another not wanted meeting at all.It disappoints me somehow,thinking that i was able to hang out with my peep,but who knows....haiz.Never did i expect he called saying that both of em would come up to my place to slack.*haha*Slack = Sleep.We had lunch and the menu of the day was myveryown Fried Rice.* guess it was not that bad afterall...* Is it ok guys? *keke.* Then it was expected,sleeping time,as both of em looks so tired after midnight shift. Then,came a soccer playing meetup.Yeah! It was ages ago that rwd have come to meet for some soccer at astro turf.But who knows,Tong did not want to go. *argh...agua one lo* Keong had to "beg" him down that gets his butt moving. *we took a cab to tp* Can you believe it?? Rich papa i had. Then it was usual ocha session after the soccer. it was ok though. =) Thinking it was still early,hence met up with Tong for a lil chat down at the park with Peg.Anyway,it was supposed to be a multi-party chat/hangout,but it was raining that keeps others home.Had a lil liquor of venom and it was time to zzzz,as peg was watching dvd.

Plans for my saturday,slack.Nothing to do.Then,came Tong to disrupt my sleep again.*forever..* He planned to come over my place for dvd watching and slacking.We had kfc for lunch having delivery.It was four when Paul came over too.We were like having a chat in my room,with some sleeping around.Then, war started. Its all due to my unwillingness to go down to subway.Guess what both gentlemen did? Violence with the mixture of torturing acts.They were like tag team parters of WWE,having to wack me all over,crashing me into pancakes,Peg was victimised too.*haha* I should be called pancake instead of papaya. * you should noe what i mean the both of u...* The feeling was kinda of helpless as i was still deciding to go or not to.Then,it was running out of time for them to go for work,hence,i decided to accompany them,not wanting to disappoint em, see how good i am,offering free labour.You two should know what to do hor.....*keke* Hope that we still can have these times to enjoy,to hang out, to chat and open up.As for now, they are the closest peeps and buddies i can ever depend and turn to,so don't disappoint me. =) *high expectations...* Can't help it,who ask them to be my mates??

We had a great time with their subway colleagues,Rykiel and Yan Ling. It was like market place where six of us were squeezing in the small working place. Midnight working was happening too.We met up with the cafe dudettes for some coffee and bread exchange.keke.Anyway, time was easy to get by as we were all doing work.I had serve two customers,yet it turn out so clumsy.haha.But i still feel good and proud ok.Then it was all the play time with the magnet,the pletes teaching,the disfigured deli,my injured finger...I was that clumsy to injured my finger at the swinging door.*argh..* It was a deep cut with blood bleeding profusely.Then,I was refraining to have my finger washed and sprayed with the painful healing spray.Who knows,Tong was spraying that thing onto my finger but additionally into Peg's eyes.Cause i was struggling not to have the spray as it was damn painful.Haha.Thanks tong anyway.It was better though. We had nuggets for supper,mac breakfast too.Had too much to eat.haha. Then it was about eleven in the morning when i got home having to walk in the rain with Tong. Its sleeping time till now...as i am watching the onceinayear event,Star Awards. k, shall not go on as it turn out to be such a long post le....

More updates when i am free wor...Anyway, just to let my peeps know, you have been cherished and missed!! You should know who u are..the four of you. my contradictions much complicates my life. I have been hating much of myself these days. ARGH!!

Yan * lots more to come...*

ARGHhh ranted @ 6:32 PM :|

Boring....
Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Happy 18th Birthday to Qing AN!!! haha.Hope you had some fun on this very day, and thats what i can do. =) Be blessed.We had a simple outing.Met up with Mond,An,Senget,Chin Meng and Hock for a walk to TM. Slacked around till it was dinner time at long john. We hang around at the central park for some "so called" soccer.*using newspaper...* haha. some fun.

Hmm..now i am bored. Haiz,can't blame anyone. =( i am sad. Isolated. guess i will get used to this life. studies,hang out with 38s, home,sleep.thats all. good night.

Yan * this is it.....*

ARGHhh ranted @ 11:07 PM :|

Life's Like That
Tuesday, December 07, 2004

Hmmmm......what happened????? Mood swings!!! *Terrible ones* Why am i so unreasonable?? I began to doubt myself..what's left in me?

Argh!!! Mood swings aside. Talking about life.Its been messy one for me.Semester starts.Its good though.I am occupied!! I am away for boredom!! Its been a blessing to be in the class as my dear Ryna and Jessica and Ling.* love u loads*Anyway..its been such a long time since we hang out.So,there are two so called nothingbettertodo people,Paul and Tong came over to my place.*James and Paul were at my place before afternoon class..* As if its been a long time i ever see my peeps....I was busy watching the horror movie,Shutter.It was not that frightening afterall, yet some bastards had nothingbettertodo,having the task to scare me as and when the movie is on-going.* argh!!* I had heart-attacking moments lo.those two still have the cheek to laugh at me.*never die before...* Made a fool out of myself...*shys...* Then after, it was sleeping time..*zzzz*all three of us fell asleep.We were so tired. But i was the last to sleep,the first to wake up.Those two slept all the way till almost nine and it was time for Tong to go for work and Paul to head home.At least i had some fun and laughter with my best of two peeps. =)

Today was pretty much the same.It was 1pm when school ended.It was time to head home and rest a lil while before i met up with An got Tm.He was having an appointment with an insurance agent.*surprise..*We were slacking till 5 plus and went to meet Tong to get his specs done* sorry dude *,as my lil bro broke his previous pair.Met up with Paul,Chin Meng,Hock and kuku to get An's hair cut.It was pretty much of a lil hang out i guess. *hmmm...*Then it was time to head home for dinner and the rest went 826 for dinner.Went off with Tong as he was late for work.Now, its time for some self-reflection time,all alone in my room.

Mood swings!! Bad ones!!! Can we get rid of em???? I am so frustrated with my life!! Why are they in this way?? Am i going to have this kind of life ever since from now? Its so ever-changing.I hate these changes that were once so good in my life. I just wanna say something bottom from my heart,I missed my peeps.I missed those times.Bao,Peggie,Tong,Paul,An,Keong,Senget..lots more. Those fun have gone somewhere.They have flew with time.I missed those fun times i had.Too bad.Its gone.the distance between us are getting wider.its getting darker.its getting sadder. I missed em. =
PMSing....so shoo! Get out of my sight and let me rest for the night!

Yan * i missed you guys.*

ARGHhh ranted @ 9:59 PM :|

Monday, December 06, 2004


Roxy shades. Oh my god.......its so cool, ain't it?? its hot with the hot price...$185 bucks for this pair of shades.....hmmm * how i wish i had a rich dude....*
:: Yan ::

ARGHhh ranted @ 10:32 PM :|


Yet another new wallet target. Roxy girl type.hmmmm...I've just got one for myself.Should i, or should i not?? BUt...this is cute!!! argh,why do roxy stuff have to be so style,cute and irresistable??
:: Yan ::

ARGHhh ranted @ 3:28 PM :|


Words...more words...! my fav colour! black! if the words could be a lil bigger that stands out obvious. Top 3 tees...Top 3 flip flops...shall get em soon. I dun care.i'm gonna save up. Roxy rox!
:: Yan ::

ARGHhh ranted @ 3:28 PM :|


next.....Roxy tee.I am just a fan of words on tees print.i love the kinda of pink.Its not the type of pinky pink,this one definately go into my list.
:: Yan ::

ARGHhh ranted @ 3:26 PM :|


now, another roxy target.Tees.i love the design ,full of words' my type. but pink is not my preffered choice.I would definately go for this if its black...keeping it in list though....*beams..*
:: Yan ::

ARGHhh ranted @ 3:17 PM :|


black and brown. i love the motif design. how??? i want em all !! Santa u there??
:: Yan ::

ARGHhh ranted @ 3:15 PM :|


next target...the black pokka dotted.Classy.Style.I love it. Black's my fav afterall. * still deciding...* Its tough making such decisions...i want em all for xmas..*ahem..hinting le lo...*
:: Yan ::

ARGHhh ranted @ 3:14 PM :|


scoping.....new target!! Roxy flip flops...rainbow kinda of sunshine..hmmmm* which one will be the best??*
:: Yan ::

ARGHhh ranted @ 3:13 PM :|

I am TROUBLEMAKER
Sunday, December 05, 2004

Ya.Indeed. i am one. The one who have been stirring trouble. Nothing better to do right??? I am making some effort to salvage the bonding.Yet, i have been told as stirring trouble. Nice one there. Who kinows the impact on me? It was huge.It was one big blow to me.It was heart shattering,mind-blowing. I QUIT.Leaving all these. I am getting out of here. Fine.I am in the wrong move.I'm sorry guys for causing trouble.

Yan * broken-hearted.*

ARGHhh ranted @ 11:00 PM :|


this is my nike air force one. i am not a fan of pink,but...this dirty pink design attracts me. i got a cheap deal down at KL..its been satisfying... =)
:: Yan ::

ARGHhh ranted @ 5:21 PM :|

Its been a long time....

I am back.From everything.KL,Genting,Chalet. The fun's over after the whole 8 days of partying...*it was hell of fun* Yet i am dead beat.Having almost 5 sleepless nights.Reasons of having to club at Genting,which was a new experience to me. *good and bad though..*Its been so long that i have update my life. Now i shall begin with Genting...

Genting/KL
  • Shopping at KL was good!! Got myself watches,a pair of Nike air force one,couple of tshirts for my peeps and so on...
  • 2nd day up to Genting.The weather up there was being cold.17 degrees in the day and 14 in the night. * freezing..*Met Alex,Kenneth,Kenny,Milo and Lawson at First world.It was Kenny Rogers dinner time again. * u know what i mean..*
  • Clubbing at 11pm.Name of disco, Safari.The place was ok, yet the music was ..TERRIBLE! Trance,techno,r&b,hip hop,canto,melayu...ROJAK of everything.Oh my god!If there is a branch of Safari here in Singapore,it will be the first to fold. *haha*
  • It was a sleepless night partying till 2 am and it was supper time.
  • 3rd day was theme park fun.It looked bored to me though as i've been there tons of times,getting sick of the never-changing rides.I was hell of tired that i went back to my apartment to sleep till evening time.It was time for dinner and met up with Alex and co after my dinner.It was as usual hanging out and partying at Safari. It was so happening....haha.The music this day was much better than the one on the previous night. *phew..*
  • 4th Day.Home sweet home! Finally!! I missed home.Missed my peeps.I missed my bed afterall!!Got home in the evening at 6 plus. I feel good to be home again. =)

Finally after 4 nights of disrupted unhealthy sleep, i will be able to enjoy some real sleep home. I was not sleeping the day i went to KL as i was down at Subway,accompanying my two peeps, Tong and Paul.Then it was two sleepless night clubbing.After being able to enjoy only eight hours of sleep, one fool called me early morning which was not even 8am! Who else? Tong.I was being offfered to have breakfast with Tong and James,after thier midnight working hours. it was good to be able to hang out with them again.Yet,i was feeling sick in the early morning.I guess it was pretty much due to the accumalated unhealthy sleeping habits the whole week round.It was vcding time at my place after prawn mee breakfast.It was relaxing and good.I was sleeping like a pig the whole day round.As i have decided to accompany Tong and James to work midnight,then it will be time to join the rwds for chalet.I've been so called nothingbettertodo then having the resort to go down to subway. *haha*

Chalet time.

  • Same old routine.Bbq for two nights.Sleeping in the day. Blah Blah blah..
  • We had talks among us.Some thoughts in the couple of us appears to be the same.
  • Anyway,i did not enjoy much though. This was one of the worse rwd chalet ever.Its so not rwd style.Its rojak. The kind of isolated feeling sucks. we don't feel belong. Are we one?
  • I hate rowdees. For what we are now. I hate rowdees.

Guess thats about it.The whole 10 days. It was both good and bad.Coming down to the final though of the day, rwd has been shattered, pieces of rowdees.bond and belonginess is long gone. Sadness fills me all. I hate to see the "so called" rwd into this situation.but there's nothing i can do about it.Everyone has its own life, own stuff to do.Then why i am suppose to vent my frustrations on rwd? Everyone plays a part.thats why.Rowdees should be full of bonds and belonginess.Now,its left with one word on its own,rowdees.It empty. the most pathetic fact that is, i can't do anyhting about it!!! I AM HELPLESS!! Get what i mean???? ARGH!! I am so fed up!

Anyway, sorry to my peeps due to the chalet incident. I just hate to see rwd like that.Should we be called rojak rather than rwd?

Give it a thought guys.Its going to be tough. The days are getting darker.

Yan * rojak or rwd?*

ARGHhh ranted @ 1:44 PM :|