`23.
`EGG.
`Virgo.
`Attitude.
`Pms Queen.
`Sensitive.
`38-ness.
`Irritating.
` twentysix.
` POOH.
` YEOWs.
` JIE MEIs.
` RWDs.
` MONEY.
`Hong Kong Trip 2007.
`Sarah Jessica Parker "Lovely" Fragrance.
`2nd pair of Havianas flip flops.
`tons of flats/sandals/pumps.
`Bags Bags Bags!
`LV coin pouch AGAIN.
`E71 mobile phone.
`Coach Wristlet.
`Birthday BKK Trip 09!
`Phuket Trip
`Hong Kong Trip 2010
`GRADUATION!!!
`Adidas Candy Watch.
`Bangkok Trip 08/09
`SIEW XIN CHEE.
`LOOPO.
`SENGET SIEW XINYI.
`QASHaron.
`ONG AH BAO.
`TEACHER PEGGIE.
`SUET JING.
` JANICE.
` AMY.
` Chanz
` Denise
`Candice
` Yiling
` Drea
` Karin
` Tannia
` Zi Ting
` Hui Yun
` Jeslyn
` Joyce
` Pearlyn
` Nurina
` Adelene
` Terence
` Vincent
` Annie
` Rashidah
` Rose
> self-doubt....
> Let it go, girl!
> 柠檬草的味道
> time flies....
> 开始懂了
> STUCKED!
> Unspoken Missessss....
> life is so random.
> I Should Be So Lucky on 14 Dec 2008.
> HERE WE GO!
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` YOU.
` PEOPLE whom woke me up.
` SUAY-NESS that hit me hard.
at this point of time. things are unwell. problems are surfacing. we are breaking lose.shaken. i am at the end of the road. i can't see you. what does it imply? ENDING? since its hard to make decisions, i make it for u and me. END.how much more i can hang on? are there things i have not known? alright. let me think over it. i feel so lonely. never been this HIGH before.thanks for all we had. maybe its time we're done.
rwd.26 Yan
jingle bell jingle bell friday nite is here..its time for some movie action again. The House Of Flying Daggers with Rowdees. it will be a 12.30am show at TM gv. waiting for time to pass. i just felt so wonderful today after clearing at least projects for the moment. but something embarrasing happened this evening when i was with ah bao at the bubble tea shop. i fell. i bruised. kneecaps pain. oh gosh. i screw myself up with the stupid dustbin infront of me.it was a terror when i was at bath. ARGH...! its pai seh lo. =\ but it does not affect my weekend mood at all. i just wanna relax for this three days. hope i really can.
This is it. End of story? Familiar? Has it happen to you before? Its a norm la i should say. Alright enough said. I will be off soon for my movie. Hugging my little "shrek 2" orange pillow. Love it. haha. =) enjoying my weekend..... totally in mood to sign off ....rwd.26 Yan
there are things that i have to know. it is to adapt. there are so many changes in life. be it anything from school, friends, family or love. its ever changing. all humans can do is learn to adapt and live with it. tons of courage and determination leads to successful adaptation. no one is the same forever. cherish the moments. sounds so chim right? but this is what life is. learning every moment. learning from people and things that happen around you. LIFE.
Rowdees were having soccer game at the TP astro turf this evening and somebody was being played. Who's the culprit? Who's the victim? Culprit will be James and Victims will be Alex and me. Oh gosh. This was the story:
nothing new about reports. now i am at the pathetic biz sch lab 1 printing reports and handing em in. iw as so irritated by our HTM year ones. oh my god. they are just a bunch of empty vessels i should say. they are nothing but jsut noise. it just shames our HTM cohalt. oh god. can't they just be quiet a little and behave like a poly student? it seems like i am stuck with a bunch of KIDS.
ARGH!! i was suppose to do my BESE report. but the amount of nolise they make just turns me off and i could not even concentrate. ALright, tonight i will be left with the final report to write on. haha then i will be free!! oh ya i have just change my mobile plan and i will be getting free incoming calls. haha i will chat till i drop man. get me anytime, anywhere.
enough said. its time for me to go back home and have my report done. oh ya i have to rush to HTM office to hand up my basic entre and get home! cya....
rwd.26 Yan =p
yeah!! projects almost done. With only two left in hand.i felt so relieved and proud of myself. clearing one projects after another within this few days. oh my i just came to learn that i will be having another 2 tests...accounting and organisational behavior. lucky me its only 2 subjects and not 5.phew! time really flies. its mid term now. another 7 weeks or so i will be sitting for my semester exams. oh god, gonna chiong lecture notes once again.
its always those dreadful tons of work i have to complete, meeting never ending deadlines. Now i have learnt a new skill. SIMPLICITY SOLVES STRESS. its true. when u tend to stress more, things get out of the way even more. so, the best medicine towards stress will be simplicity. its easy. think simple.treat things the simplest way of attitude. it works. try it. no harm.
as time goes by, i learn more things in life. i feel i have changed. confused between if its for better or worse. hope the change in me bring all the greys in my life behind me. i have been down for the past two days. PMSing too much. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. its just a shadow lives in me that cause the pain in me. i will get over it. No,i must get over it. or else i can get no where.since i have decided to move on, i will hang on till my very last breath or either u chase me away. i would not run away. i would stay here.waiting for the answer. be it the worse or the good. =)
alright enough of my PMS days. now its sunshine ahead cause weekends' near. haha. my favourite days of em all.wonder what's in store for me this weekend after have to chiong my projects. oh ya, i ahve passed my ACCOUNTS test with an average score of 27.5 /40. haha thats a wonderful thing and motivated me to try even harder for my mid-sem. Well, i went to TM for dinner at my fav PASTAMANIA, got my cleanser exchange when i got the wrong one on tues, and even got myself a new blouse for my BESE class. The blouse was much cheaper with the storewide discount of 30%. Apparently there was this sale of FILA products at TM's atrium adn there was this guy going gaga over it. Cuz this "cuteguy" was wearing one of the shorts that was on sale and he got pai seh over it lo. What an evening i spent. Before i know, it was already 8 when i got home. Settle down. Chores. Bath and called 1626 to cahnge my mobile plan.haha i will be enjoying free incoming calls 24/7 round the clock.so call me as and when u like to!i really enjoy this day. it was good. =)
FULL of MOOD checking out... rwd.26 Yan =D
this day simply meant SucKs. nothing works out well. no matter is it in school or in life. i really hate being this me.i bring sufferings to people.Creating pain and troubles into people's life. What have i done? i really begin to regret for telling you all these shit in me. Hope things turn out for the better. I don't wan to lose you. Even if i had to, i also dun wanna see you gone.Helpless the both of us are. Tell me what to do to make things right. Tell me what to do to make us both happy. TEll me when the time is right. I dun wan mistakes in my life again.
No mood to write any stuff anymore. These two days just sucks. =(
rwd.26 Yan
WHAT:: the first W.
there are multiple of whats in my mind. what is going on? what's the situation? what is it that you want ? what is it that i want? what will it be if this goes on? what does ur heart tells u?
WHY:: the second W.
those are my whats.now whys. why are you behaving this way? why are things happening? why are we worlds apart? why am i feeling faithless? why did u even bother? why u care?
WHEN:: the third W.
final W, simply meant when. When did things get this far? When will things go out of the way? When will things turn out smoothly? When will it be a happy ending? When will it end?
yan:: its me.
dunno why.i am kinda of PMSing at this point of time.maybe too stressed out by tons of projects. but i know it ain't affecting much. Lost and frustrated in my heart. the 3 Ws is the doubts that made my track unclear once again. The things that have happened these 2 weeks seems to get further and further away. am i expecting too much? or is it simply just that i dun derserve i expected for? when words are not music to my ears, i am shaken. i lose faith in myself totally. I never feel good enough infront of ya. When words are music to my ears, i doubt too. Its all about me. I can't make myself belief in it. Its too good to be true. these are just complex feelings that tie the knot in my heart. i know i can't run away. but i am choosing to. its unfair. but....i really dunno. clear my doubts by time and actions. till then, no one noes what will happen. live with it.
COM:: computer that keeps me busy.
it will occupy my time to stop me from thinking. i have to face my com everyday.simply typing tons of reports, discussing group project online, blah blah blah...who gives it a shit??
no one cares.rwd.26.Yan checking out... =
the much anticipated 24/07 is here and gone. What a hectic and roller coaster ride day it was for me and the rowdees. unhappy things were hanging on in the air just right before the chalet. it kinda of spoils my mood but i choose to forget it. thought it would a fun and relaxing crazy partying time for rowdees but some of the things just do not turn out well. It was like stuff wasn't settle till the very day of chalet. It was already noon and we still haven got our BBQ stuff. Tense emotions flying around in me cuz i never like last min job. Its just turns me off whenever i have to rush things out when i knew i had the time to get it done beofre hand. THis is basically how we get the things done FINALLY::
- meet up at around 12.30. Ben,Senget,Hock,Meng,An and James went to get the bbq stuff.
-me went to meet up Paul to get the rowdees fund to hand it to Ben. ps: paul and james had a tiff.. tats why i had to do the job.
-everyone went home to get thier barang barang. Tong,Paul,Jason and I intend to ride our bike there,i mean mountain bikes. In the end Paul back out cuz he ain't going to chalet becuz of the tiff. -_-''' Jason say he is going later by himself cuz he wants to GB. So leaving me and my papa,Tong. He had PMS cuz of some reasons and i got fed up with him too.
-Went ahead to meet up Tong to take cab to Downtown East. Got stuff like charcoal and ice before meeting the rest at downtown. So mah fan lo.
-Before we knew it, Ben that blur cock i should say,got the wrong place. He went to Costa Sands instead of Downtown. LOL! After checking in, it was time to do some work. Marinating the food.
-I was just too lazy to do it. and there was space constrain unlike Costa. Hence we had to the marinating in the TOILET. dun get me wrong. We clear up after that.None of us end up in the hospital due to "dirty" food in the toliet food preparation. Ben,Mond,Hock,Meng were very busy in the toilet with food.
-During this period of time, some pillow fights were in the house. Tong and I got crazy fighting .It was so violet. Guess what? I won lor..Haha.I was caught in the fight with An and Albert. It was so tired.But fun.
-Stuff done. Fights end. Time to bbq! its 1900 hrs. Some rowdees missing in action at this time. rwd. 07,10,13,18,22,23,28,29.
We had fun time eating, mahjonging,blasting music,chilling and chatting. I didn't even had a wink of sleep till 0730 hrs. We had the whole night playing mahjong,to be specific is mini mahjong. Bah Geh and An won the game while Ben and James were losing. It as funny though cuz An's game was being played by a mutiple of people. Alex,Albert and me. After the final round ended, everyone was like K.O.I got myself a nice spot to lie on and before i realise, i was in my lala land. Alex went out early in the morning for his CS competition.Bah Geh went homeafter the long night's game. For the whole solid 2 hours, I am not disturbed by Chee's snoring, Cat's goodbyes and the rest walking in and out. This goes to show that i am really knocked out. Got home at around 12.30,without much further consideration, i went for a quick bath and hop on to my cosy bed and Zzzzz till 4 plus in the afternoon. =]
That's about it. The crazy saturday i have enjoyed much. Its time for weekdays ahead AGAIN. ARGH!! 30th July coming. Its deadline. Gonna chiong all the 5 days ahead.Busy, busy and busy.
Stressed. Checking out...rwd.26 Yan. =
rwd 28.rwd27.rwd 26
:: Yan ::
Yan and Tong cutez
:: Yan ::
Yan new specs
:: Yan ::
YEAH!!!! its friday le!!! its time for some chilling moments over this weekend. Partying at rowdees chalet would cure my stress accumalated over these 5 days of school work. it sounds crazy but its true. don't doubt. got home pretty much late today after slacking at Ben's blk with jason and ah bao. its only 7.10 now and yet i am here, writing stuff. Intended to meet up with the few rowdees later for a chilling nite session after thier work.Tong,Paul,An and James. There is still NE talk tomoro at TCC,9am. But it will be like a bunch of us going together so its ok lo. But thinking that i would have to chiong home after NE talk cuz i have to get my chores done. But ok lo, after that i will be out of the house for more than 24 hours cuz i will be having lots of fun at chalet!! alright pretty much of my rowdees chalet thingy, sounds as if i am exegerating.
day's gone.mondays,tuesdays,wednesdays,thursday gone. end's here: fridays,saturdays and sundays. haha.let's party! signing off...rwd.26 Yan..
as from the title given today, my life seems to be like something of both.Dramas and Soap operas. Things really happen and change fast. Its amazing how time can heal and kill someone. I have been healing for 2 months. Yet the things that happen within these 2 weeks seems to erase the pain i have suffered for the solid 2 months. Its scary yet amazing. Girls are just girls. You can't blame em from falling in love.
Well,today is just another busy day in TP. what else but tutorials and lectures and tons of unfinished projects. I can't imagine how wil i survive the whole of next week. 30th July will be my "deadline". 5 reports and proposals to be due all on this same say, 30th July. Don't even wanna think more about it. It really shuts me down. All i wanna think of is rowdees upcoming chalet @ Costa Sands Pasir Ris this Sat. i don care what's the world out there, i just wanna enjoy hell out of it. Paul,Jason,Tong and I will be cycling all the way to Costa Sands and the rest will be in cabs with the food and stuff. It will be enjoyable weekend.I hope so. =) i am really stressted out this whole week after tons of school work and life problems.ARGH!!!! anyone out there would ever understand?????
Enough of my nonsense...its time for bed. Lesson at 11 tomoro...all the way till 5 pm..SIAN<>
rwd.26 Yan...
ARGH!!! what's new?? nothing but stress. Tons of em putting me down.not really in the mood to write stories today.had an awful day with tutorials for 4 hours in the afternoon.What's the most irritating fact is i have to attend a lesson thought by my China lecturer which apparently turns everyone off.it just sucks man. Finally, its Accounts class test. Biz park is packed with HTM students studying accounts at around 5 pm when i had my kopi break,with the stack of lec notes with me.the test was alright though but i did manage to get the answer though.Hope i will still pass..
hAIZ...it just seems like i having PMS today.kinda of missing someone out there.life's really busy and stressed out.only looking foward to have a fun rowdees chalet this coming Sat. its stress free for that day and nothing else. it seems like things are just hanging there.waiting for time to pass and for me to die again. when will the DAY come? heaven seems a few steps away but hell is just a step behind. don't let me fall back to hell when i am so near to heaven. GOd bleSS. this day just sucks. totally screwing things up. packing up my saddening mood signing off...rwd.26 =(
what a day for me this 20th july 2004. firstly,i got up late for class.which is really late that i missed it.luckily it wasn't much of discussion done for the class.phew..well got to school at about 11.30 which got me into copying OB notes which i skipped AGAIN last week.Basically it was pure slacking lunch time when i met up with jason,james,an,bao and paul.oh ya its paul's 18th bday today! happy birthday to paul lim wee chiang!it was pouring like nobody's business at about 12 but it stopped around hald and hour later and it was sunshine again.stupid weather.guess what? i skipped OB lec again.only manage to attend the first 2 OB lecs and i have skipped thrice.i tink its time to go for lecture next week if not i will be failing this subject.basically this is what i got from school and went home to slack watching Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkanban again. Time flew past and its time for some meeting up with the 2 gers,peggie and bao for dinner at tampines mall.without me knowing it,its already 10.30 when i finish my revision for ACCOUNTS test tomoro.Oh my god,i hope it turns out well,really well.at least a pass la.those debit and credit thingy drives me nuts.
life's so busy now.projects,assignments,tutorial work,household chores and blah blah blah keeps my life working on man.well,its just that things tend to happen 2 fast in my life that i find it 2 furious.each moment changes.it will not stop there forever cuz time is moving.my feeling tell me its different this time round.will things move on?fear that its all going to gone before it starts.hope that you are not going to hide again cuz i dun wan to go blind once more. =\ till the day you are all ready to settle down,let me know.i dunno how much more problems will surface but i will pull through,dun wan to lose it agian.dun pretend that you care and make me feel like i am the only one for the sake of my happy ending.
Haiz Accounts test tomoro 5.30pm.LT 17. Wish me luck! Signing off...
its something about monday that is so different today.hence it rules not not blues. started class late at 11 and ended off an hour earlier around 5.same old routine that happen around the campus which is lectures and tutorials.being stressed up at the first day of this week as i will be facing tests,deadlines as usual and tons of tutorial work.hope that things turn out well though.cause it will be rowdees chalet again this sat 24/07...yeah! looking foward to spend quality fun time with my fellow rowdees.hoping that it will let me forget watever's out there.it time to have fun afterall i have chiong my weekdays like hell.its real hell. no wonder seniors have been warning me since my yr 1 that yr 2 will be hell and its so true. what to do...move on with life lo..its only beginning of the week yet i am thinking of weekend again.haha. erm...just praying hard this week that i can get away with my accounts test.its all school work i can think of but still there are things in life that puts me down too.hoping things will change for its better.hoping it will getaway my fear. =) wonderful things happened on this very day.will it be a change?its being 2 fast 2 furious as if i am racing with time. alright for now, its time for dinner and some relaxing moments at the pasar malam near my neighbourhood. checking out for 19/07/04.....
what's life man?? being damn busy for the whole 5 days of week 4 in TP,and my short weekend of like 2 and a half days to be exact just burn off. Well,manage to catch the movie King Arthur with my bunch of rowdians...that kicks off my weekend programs. It was a 4 star rated movie by me..worthwhile watching.Erm,it was like till 4.30 that i got on to bed and was sleeping just like a pig the whole Sat morning..darn,my Sat morning gone.It was till the afternoon i was out of the house to meet up with my fellow kakis..tong,senget,mond,jason and ben for lunch..then i was on my way to Suntec.My mission is to accompany the pathetic princess..rwd.27 ms Kris ong..which she just got herself a new name.It was a threesome outing with kris ong and alex which took us the whole afternoon to go shopping and getting kris's hp done.Yet another soocer night at the central park.Those cops were like so free that they had to patrol in the park with thier police cars.Oh my..do they have better things to do?? well, i had a great nite chilling out in the park with breeze hitting on my face. That's a way of thinking things through. It has not been a clear week for me.Things running in my mind.Time is running out.I am just like in the race.Racing to pointless finishing lines. Really do hope this week up ahead will be much better. But i doubt so cuz its like tons and tons of projects deadlines to meet up!! argh!! god bless me .Please.